MEDITATIONS and Vowes.
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GOod men are placed by God, as so many stars in this lower firmament of the world. As they must imitate those heauenly bodies, in their light and influence; so also in their motion: and therefore, as the Planets haue a course proper to themselues, against the [Page 2]sway of the heauen that carries them about; so must each good man haue a motion out of his own iudgement, contrary to the customs and opinions of the vulgar; finishing his own course with the least shewe of resistance. I will neuer affect singularitie, except it bee among those that are vicious. It is better to doe, or thinke well alone, then to followe a multitude in euill.
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What strange variety of actions doth the eye [Page 3]of GOD see at once round about the compasse of the earth, and within it. Some building houses; some deluing for mettals; some marching in troups, or encamping one against another; some bargaining in the market; some trauelling on their way; some praying in their closets; others quaffing at the Tauerne; some rowing in the Galleys, others dallying in their chābers; & in short, as many differēt actions as persons: yet all haue one cōmon intention of good to thēselues, [Page 4]true in some, but in the most, imaginary. The glorified Spirits haue but one vniforme work, wherein they all ioyne; the praise of their Creator. This is one difference betwixt the Saints aboue, and below; They aboue are free both frō businesses and distraction: these below, are free (though not absolutely) from distraction, not at all from businesse. Paul could thinke of his cloke that he left at Troas; and of the shaping of his skinnes for his tents: yet, through these he look't [Page 5]still at heauen. This world is made for businesse: my actions must vary according to occasions: my end shall bee but one, and the same now on earth, that it must bee one day in heauen.
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To see how the Martyrs of God died, and the life of their persecuters, would make a man out of loue with life, and out of al feare of death. They were flesh and blood, as well as wee; life was as sweete to them, as to vs; their bodies were as sensible [Page 6]of paine as ours; we goe to the same heauen with them. How comes it then, that they were so couragious in abiding such torments in their death, as the very mention strikes horror into any reader; and we are so cowardly in encountring a faire and natural death? If this valour had beene of themselues, I would neuer haue looked after them in hope of imitation. Now, I know it was he for whom they suffered, & that suffred in thē, which sustained them: They were of thēselues [Page 7]as weak as I; and God can be as strong im me, as he was in thē. O Lord thou art not more vnable to giue me this grace; but I am more vnworthy to receiue it: and yet thou regardest not worthines, but mercie. Giue mee their stength, and what end thou wilt.
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Our first age is all in hope: Whē we are in the womb, who knows whether we shall haue our right shape & proportion of body, being neither mōstrous nor deformed? Whē we are born, [Page 8]who knowes whether with the due features of a man, we shall haue the faculties of reason and vnderstanding? when yet our progresse in yeeres discouereth wit or folly; who knowes, whether with the power of reason wee shall haue the grace of faith to be christians? and when wee begin to professe well, whether it be a temporary, and seeming, or a true & sauing faith? Our middle age is halfe in hope for the future, and halfe in proofe for that is past: Our olde age is [Page 9]out of hope, and altogether in proofe. In our last times therefore wee knowe, both what wee haue been, and what to expect. It is good for youth to looke forward, and still to propound the best things vnto it selfe; for an old man to looke backward, and to repent him of that wherein hee hath fayled, and to recollect himselfe for the present: But in my middle age, I will looke both backward and forward; comparing my hopes with my proofe; redeeming the time ere it bee [Page 10]all spent, that my recouery may preuent my repentance. It is both a folly & misery to say, This I might haue done.
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It is the wonderfull mercie of God, both to forgiue vs our debts to him in our sinnes, and to make himselfe a debter to vs in his promises: So that now both wayes the soule may be sure; since hee neither calleth for those debts which hee hath once forgiuen; nor withdraweth those fauours, and that heauen which he hath promised: [Page 11]But as hee is a mercifull creditor to forgiue, so is hee a true debter to pay whatsoeuer he hath vndertaken: whence it is come to passe, that the penitent sinner owes nothing to God but loue and obedience; and God owes still much and all to him: for hee owes as much as hee hath promised; and what hee owes by vertue of his blessed promise, we may challenge. O infinite mercie! Hee that lent vs all that wee haue, and in whose debt-bookes we run hourely [Page 12]forward till the summe be endlesse; yet owes vs more, and bids vs looke for paiment. I cannot deserue the least fauour he can giue; yet I will as confidently challēge the greatest, as if I deserued it: Promise indebteth no lesse then loane or desert.
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It is no small commendation to manage a little well: He is a good Waggoner, that can turn in a narrow roome. To liue well in abundance, is the praise of the estate, not of the person. [Page 13]I wil studie more how to giue a good account of my little, then how to make it more.
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Many Christians doe greatly wrong themselues with a dull and heauy kind of sullēnesse; who, not suffering themselues to delight in any worldly thing, are thereupon oft times so hartlesse, that they delight in nothing: These men, like to carelesse guests, when they are inuited to an excellent banquet, lose their dainties, for want of a stomacke; and lose [Page 14]their stomacke for want of exercise A good conscience keepes alwayes good cheere, he cannot chuse but fare well that hath it, vnlesse hee lose his appetite with neglect and slouthfulnesse. It is a shame for vs Christians not to finde as much ioy in God, as worldlings doe in their forced merriments; and lewde wretches in the practise of their sinnes.
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A wise Christian hath no enemies. Many hate and wrong him: but hee loues all men, & all pleasure [Page 15]him. Those that professe loue to him, pleasure him with the comfort of their society, and the mutuall reflection of friendship; those that professe hatred, make him more warie of his wayes; shew him faults in himselfe, which his friends would either not haue espied, or not censured; send him the more willingly to seeke fauour aboue: And as the worst doe bestead him, thogh against their willes; so he againe doth voluntary good to them. To doe euill for euill, [Page 16]as Ioab to Abner, is a sinfull weakenesse: To doe good for good, as Ahasuerus to Mordecai, is but natural iustice: To doe euill for good, as Iudas to Christ, is vnthankfulnesse and villany: Only to doe good for euill, agrees with Christian profession. And what greater worke of friendship then to doe good? If men will not bee my friends in loue, I wil perforce make them my friendes in a good vse of their hatred. I will bee their friend, that are mine, and would not be.
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All temporall things are troublesome: For if we haue good things, it is a trouble to forgoe them; and when we see they must be parted frō, either we wish they had not been so good, or that wee neuer had enioyed thē. Yea, it is more trouble to lose them, than it was before ioy to possesse them. If contrarily, wee haue euill things, their very presence is troublesome; and still we wish that they were good, or that we were disburdened of them: So [Page 18]good things are troublesome in euent, euill things in their vse. They in the future, these in present: they, because they shall come to an end, these because they doe continue. Tell mee, thy wife, or thy childe lyes dying, and nowe makes vp a louing and dutifull life, with a kinde and heauenly parture; whether hadst thou rather, for thy owne part, she had been so good, or worse? would it haue cost thee so many heartie sighes and teares, if shee had beene peruerse and [Page 19]disobedient? Yet, if in her life time I put thee to this choyce, thou thinkest it no choyce at all, in such inequalitie. It is more torment (sayest thou) to liue one vnquiet moneth, then it is pleasure to liue an age in loue. Or if thy life be yet dearer: Thou hast liued to graye hayres, not hastened with cares, but bredde with late succession of yeeres. Thy table was euer couered with varietie of dishes: Thy backe softly and richly clad. Thou neuer gauest denyall [Page 20]to either skinne or stomacke; Thou euer fauouredst thy selfe, and health, thee. Now death is at thy threshold, and vnpartially knocks at thy doore, doest thou not wish thou hadst liued with crusts, and beene clothed with ragges? Wouldest thou not haue giuen a better welcome to death, if he had found thee, lying vpon a pallet of straw, and supping of water gruell; after many painfull nights, and many sides changed in vain? Yet this beggerly estate thou detestest in health, [Page 21]and pitiest in others as truely miserable: The summe is; A begger wisheth he might be a Monarch while he liues; and ye great Potētate wisheth he had liued a begger, when hee comes to die; &, if beggery be to haue nothing, he shall be so in death, though he wished it not. Nothing, therefore, but eternitie can make a man truely happy; as nothing can make perfect misery but eternitie: for as temporall good things afflict vs in their ending, so temporall sorrowes afford vs [Page 22]ioy in the hope of their ende: What folly is this in vs to seeke for our trouble, to neglect our happinesse? I can be but well; and this that I was well, shall one day bee grieuous: Nothing shall please me, but that once I shall bee happie foreuer.
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The eldest of our forefathers liued not so much as a day to God; to whome a thousand yeeres is as no more; we liue but as an houre to the day of our forefathers; for if nine hundreth [Page 23]and sixty were but their day, our fourescore is but as the twelfth part of it: and yet of this our houre we liue scarce a minute to God: For, take away all that time that is consumed in sleeping, dressing, feeding, talking, sporting; of that little time there can remaine not much more than nothing: yet the most seeke pas-times to hasten it: Those which seeke to mend the pase of Time, spurre a running horse. I had more neede to redeeme it with double care and [Page 24]labor, then to seeke how to sell it for nothing.
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Each day is a new life, and an abbridgement of the whole. I will so liue as if I accounted euery day my first, and my last: as if I began to liue but then, and should liue no more afterwards.
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It was not in vaine, that the ancient founders of languages vsed the same word in many tongues, to signifie both Honor and charge; meaning therein to teach vs the inseparable connexion [Page 25]of these two. For there scarce euer was any charge without some opinion of honour: neither euer was there honour without a charge; which two, as they are not without reason ioyned together in name by humane institution, so they are most wisely coupled together by God in the disposition of these worldly estates: Charge without honor, to make it amēds, would be too toylesome, and must needes discourage and ouerlay a man. Honour without charge [Page 26]would bee too pleasant, and therfore both would bee too much sought after, and must needes carie away the mind in the enioying it. Now many dare not bee ambitious, because of the burden; chusing rather to liue obscurely & securely: And yet on the other side those that are vnder it, are refreshed in the charge with the sweetenesse of honour: seeing they cannot bee separated; it is not the worst estate to want both: They whome thou enuyest for honour, perhaps [Page 27]enuy thee more for thy quietnesse.
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Hee that taketh his owne cares vpon himselfe, loades himselfe in vaine with an vneasie burden. The feare of what may come, expectation of what will come, desire of what will not come, and inability of redressing all these, must needes breede him continuall torment. I will cast my cares vpon GOD, hee hath bidden mee; they cannot hurt him; he can redresse them.
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Our infancie is full of folly; youth, of disorder and toyle; age, of infirmity: Each time hath his burden, and that which may iustly worke our wearinesse: yet infancie longeth after youth; and youth, after more age; and hee that is very old, as he is a child for simplicitie, so he would be for yeeres. I account olde age the best of three; partly, for that it hath passed thorow the folly and disorder of the other; partly, for that the inconueniences [Page 29]of this are but bodily, with a bettered estate of the minde; and partly, for that it is neerest to dissolution. There is nothing more miserable then an old man that would bee yong againe. It was an answere worthy the commendations, of Petrarch, and that which argued a minde truely philosophicall of him, who when his friend bemoned his age appearing in his white temples, telling him he was sorry to see him looke so olde, replyed: Nay, be sory rather [Page 30]that euer I was yong to be a foole.
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There is not the least action or euent (whateuer the vaine Epicures haue imagined) which is not ouer-ruled, and disposed by a prouidence, which is so far from detracting ought from the maiestie of God, for that the things are small, as that ther can be no greater honor to him then to extend his prouidence & decree to them because they are infinite: Neither doth this hold in natural things onely, which are [Page 31]chained one to another by a regular order of succession; but euen in those things which fall out by casualty & imprudence: whence that worthy father, when as his speach digressed beside his intētiō to a confutatiō of the errors of the Manichees, could presētly gesse, that in that vnpurposed turning of it, God intēded the conuersion of some vnknown auditor; as the euēt proued his cōiecture true ere many daies; whē ought fals out cōtrary to that I purposed, it shall content me, that GOD [Page 32]purposed it as it is fallen out: So the thing hath attained his owne ende, whiles it missed mine. I know what I would, but GOD knoweth what I should will. It is enough that his will is done, though mine be crossed.
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It is the most thankelesse office in the world, to be a mans Pandar vnto sin. In other wrongs, one man is a wolf to another; but in this, a diuel. And, though at the first this damnable seruice cary away reward, yet in conclusion, it is requited [Page 33]with hatred and curses. For, as the sicke man extreamly distasted with a loathsome potion, hateth the very cruze wherin it was brought him; so doeth the conscience once soundly detesting sinne, loathe the meanes that induced him to cōmit it. Contrarily, who withstands a man in his prosecution of a sinne, while he doteth vpon it, beares away frownes, and hart-burnings for a time: but when the offending partie comes to himselfe, and right reason, hee recompenseth [Page 34]his former dislike with so much more loue, and so many more thankes. The franticke man returned to his wits, thinks him his best friend, that bound him, & beate him most. I will doe my best to crosse any man in his sinnes: If I haue not thankes of him; yet of my conscience I shall.
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God must be magnified in his very iudgements: Hee lookes for praise, not onely for heauen, but for hell also: His iustice is himselfe, as well as his mercie. As [Page 35]heauen then is for the praise of his mercie; so hell for the glory of his iustice. We must therefore bee so affected to iudgements as the author of them is, who delighteth not in blood as it makes his creature miserable, but as it makes his iustice glorious. Euery true Christian then must learne to sing that compound dittie of the Psalmist: Of mercie and iudgment. It shal not only ioy mee to see God gratious and bountifull in his mercies, & deliuerances of his owne; but [Page 36]also to see him terrible in vengeance to his enemies. It is no cruelty to reioyce in iustice. The foolish mercie of men is cruelty to God.
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Rarenesse causeth wonder; and more then that, incredulitie, in those things which in themselues are not more admirable, than the ordinary proceedings of nature If a blazing starre be seene in the skie, euery man goes forth to gaze, and spendes euery euening, some time in wondering at the beames [Page 37]of it. That any foule should bee bred of corrupted wood resolued into wormes, or that the Cameleon should euer change his colours, and liue by ayre; that the Ostrich should digest yron; that the Phoenix should burne her selfe to ashes, and from thence breed a successor; wee wonder, and can scarce credite: Other things more vsuall, no lesse miraculous, wee knowe, and neglect. That there should bee a birde that knoweth, and noteth the houres of day and [Page 38]night, as certainely as any Astronomer by the course of heauen; if we knowe not, who would beleeue? Or that the load-stone should by his secret vertue so drawe iron to it selfe, as that a whole chaine of needles should all hang by insensible points at ech other, onely by the influence that it sends down from the first, if it were not ordinarie, would seeme incredible; who would beleeue when hee sees a foule mounted as hie as his sight can descrie it, that there were an engin [Page 39]to be framed, which could fetch it downe into his fist? Yea, to omit infinite examples, that a little despised creature should weaue nets out of her owne entrailes, and in her platformes of building should obserue as iust proportions as the best Geometrician, we would suspect for an vntrueth, if we saw it not dayly practised in our owne windowes. If the Sun shuld arise but once to the earth, I doubt euery man would be a Persian, and fall downe and worship it: whereas [Page 40]now it riseth and declineth without regard. Extraordinary euēts ech man can wonder at: The frequence of Gods best workes causeth neglect; not that they are euer the worse for commōnesse; but because we are soon cloyed with the same conceit, and haue contempt bred in vs through familiarity. I wil learne to note Gods power and wisedome, and to giue him praise of both in his ordinary works: so those things which are but triuiall to the most ignorant, shall be wonders to [Page 41]me; and that not for nine dayes, but for euer.
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Those that affect to tell nouelties and wonders fal into many absurdities, both in busie enquirie after matters impertinent, and in a light credulitie, to what-euer they heare; and in fictions of their owne, and additions of circumstances to make their reports the more admired. I haue noted these men, not so much wondred at for their strange stories, while they are telling, as derided afterwards, whē [Page 42]the euent hath wrought their disproofe & shame. I will deale with rumors, as graue men doe by strange fashions, take them vp when they are growen into cōmon vse before; I may beleeue, but I wil not relate them but vnder the name of my author; who shall either warrant me with defence, if it be true; or if false, beare my shame.
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It was a wittie and true speach of that obscure Heraclitus, that all men awaking are in one common worlde, but [Page 43]when we sleep, ech man goes into a seueral world by himself; which thogh it bee but a world of fancies, yet is the true image of that little worlde, which is in euery mans heart. For the imaginations of our sleepe, shewe vs what our dispositon is awaking. And as many in their dreams reueale those their secrets to others, which they would neuer haue done awake: so all may and doe disclose to themselues in their sleep those secret inclinations, which after much [Page 44]searching, they could not haue found out waking. I doubt not therefore, but as God heretofore hath taught future things in dreames (which kind of reuelation is now ceased) so still hee teacheth the present estate of the heart this way. Some dreames are from our selues, vaine and idle like our selues: Others are diuine, which teach vs good, or mooue vs to good; & others diuelish, which solicite vs to euil. Such answere cōmonly shal I giue to any tēptation in the day as I doe by [Page 45]night. I will not lightly passe ouer my verie dreams: They shal teach me somewhat; so neither night nor day shalbe spēt vnprofitably; ye night shal teach me what I am; the day what I should be.
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Men make difference betwixt seruants friends, and sonnes: Seruants, though neer vs in place, yet for their inferioritie, are not familiar. Friends, though by reason of their equalitie, and our loue, they are familiar; yet still wee conceiue of them as others from our [Page 46]selues: But children wee thinke of, affectionately, as the diuided peeces of our owne bodies: But all these are one to God; his seruants are his friends, his friends are his sonnes; his sonnes, his seruants. Manie clayme kinred of GOD, and professe friendship to him (because these are priuiledges without difficultie, and not without honor) all the triall is in seruice. The other are most in affection, and therefore secret, and so may be dissembled; this consisting [Page 47]in action must needs shew it selfe to the eyes of others. Ye are my friends if ye doe whatsoeuer I commaund you: friendship with God is in seruice, and this seruice is in action. Many weare Gods cloth, that knowe not their Master, that neuer did good chare in his seruice: so that God hath many retainers that weare his Liuery, for a countenance, neuer waite on him; whom he will neuer owne for seruants either by fauour, or wages; few seruants, and therfore few sonnes. [Page 48]It is great fauour in God, and great honour to me, that he will vouchsafe to make mee the lowest drudge in his familie; which place if I had not, and were a Monarch of men, I were accursed. I desire no more but to serue; yet, Lord, thou giuest mee more, to bee thy sonne: I heare Dauid say, Seemeth it a small matter to you, to bee the sonne in lawe to a King? What is it then, oh what is it, to be the true adopted sonne of the King of glory? Let mee not now say as Dauid of Saul, but [Page 49]as Sauls grand-childe to Dauid; Oh, what is thy seruant, that thou shouldest looke vpon such a dead dogge as I am?
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I am a stranger here belowe, my home is aboue; yet I can thinke too well of these foraine vanities, and can not thinke enough of my home. Surely, that is not so farre aboue my head, as my thoughts; neither doth so farre passe me in distance, as in comprehension: and yet I would not stand so much vpon conceiuing, if I could admire [Page 50]it enough: but my straight heart is filled with a little wonder; and hath no roume for the greatest part of glorie that remaineth. Oh God what happines hast thou prepared for thy chosen? What a purchase was this, worthy of the blood of such a Sauiour? As yet I doe but looke towardes it afarre off: But it is easie to see by the outside how goodly it is within. Although as thine house on earth; so that aboue hath more glorie within than can bee bewrayed by the [Page 51]outer appearance. The outer part of thy Tabernacle heere belowe is but an earthly and base substance; but within it is furnished with a liuing, spirituall, and heauenly guest: so the outer heauens, though they be as gold to all other materiall creatures; yet they are but drosse to thee: Yet how are euen the outmost walles of that house of thine beautified with glorious lightes, whereof euery one is a world forbignes, and as an heauen for goodlines: Oh teach mee by this to [Page 52]long after, and wonder at the inner part, before thou letst mee come in to behold it.
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Riches or beauty, or what-euer worldly good that hath been, doth but grieue vs; that which is, doth not satisfie vs; that which shall be, is vncertaine. What follie is it to trust to any of them?
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Securitie makes worldlings merrie: and therefore are they secure, because they are ignorant. That is onely solide ioy, which ariseth from a resolution; [Page 53]when the hart hath cast vp a full account of all causes of disquietnesse, and findeth the causes of his ioy more forceable: thereupon settling it selfe in a stayed course of reioycing: For the other, so soone as sorrow makes it selfe to be seene, especially in an vnexpected forme, is swallowed vp in despaire; whereas this can meet with no occurrence, which it hath not preuēted in thought: securitie & ignorance may scatter some refuse morsels of ioy, sawced with [Page 54]much bitternesse; or may be like some boasting housekeeper, which keepeth open doors for one day with much cheer, & liues staruedly al the yeer after. There is no good ordinary but in a good cōscience. I pitie that vnfoūd ioy in others, & wil seek for this sound ioy in my selfe. I had rather weepe vpon a iust cause, than reioyce vniustly.
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As loue keepes the whole law, so loue onely is the breaker of it; being the ground, as of all obedience, so of all sinne; for [Page 55]whereas sinne hath been commonly accounted to haue two rootes, Loue, and Feare; it is plaine, that feare hath his originall from loue, for no man feares to lose ought but what he loues. Here is sinne and righteousnesse brought both into a short summe, depending both vpon one poore affection: It shall be my onely care therefore to bestowe my loue well; both for obiect, and measure. All that is good I may loue, but in seuerall degrees; what is simply good, absolutely; [Page 56]what is good by circumstance onely with limitation. There bee these three things that I may loue without exception, God, my neighbour, my soule; yet so as each haue their due places: My body, goods, fame, &c. as seruants to the former. All other things I will either not care for, or hate.
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One would not think, that pride, and base mindednesse should so well agree; yea, that they loue so together, that they neuer goe asunder. That [Page 57]enuie euer proceedes from a base minde, is graunted of all: Now the proud man, as hee faine would bee enuied of others, so he enuieth all men. His betters he enuies, because hee is not so good as they: He enuies his inferiours, because hee feares they should prooue as good as he: His equals, because they are as good as hee. So vnder a big lookes, he beares a base minde, resembling some Cardinals mule, which to make vp the traine beares a costly portemātle, [Page 58]stuffed with trash. On the contrary, who is more proud than the basest (The Cynicke tramples on Platoes pride, but with a worse) especially if hee bee but a little exalted; wherein we see base men so much more hauty, as they haue had lesse before what they might bee proud of. It is iust with God, as the proud man is base in himselfe, so to make him basely esteemed in the eyes of others; and at last to make him base without pride. I will contemne a proud man [Page 59]because hee is base, and pitie him because hee is proud.
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Let me but haue time to my thoughts; but leasure to thinke of heauen, & grace to my leasure, & I can be happy in spight of the world: Nothing, but God that giues it, can bereaue me of grace; and he will not, for his gifts are without repentance. Nothing but death can abbridge mee of time; and when I begin to want time to thinke of heauen, I shall haue eternall [Page 60]leasure to enioy it. I shall bee both wayes happy, not from any vertue of apprehension in mee (which haue no peere in vnworthinesse) but from the glory of that I apprehend; wherin the acte and obiect are from the author of happinesse. Hee giues mee this glory, let me giue him the glory of his gift. His glory is my happinesse, let my glory be his.
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God bestowes fauors vpon some in anger; as he strikes other some in [Page 61]loue. The Israelites had better haue wanted their Quailes, then to haue eaten thē with such sawce. And sometimes at our instancie remoouing a lesser punishment, leaues a greater, though insensible, in the roume of it. I will not so much striue against affliction, as displeasure. Let mee rather be afflicted in loue, than prosper without it.
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It is strange that wee men, hauing so continuall vse of God, and being so perpetually beholding to him, should [Page 62]bee so strange to him, and so little acquainted with him since wee account it a peruerse nature in any man, that beeing prouoked with many kinde offices, refuies the familiaritie of a worthy friend, which doeth still seeke it, and hath deserued it. Whēce it comes that wee are so loath to thinke of our dissolution and going to God: for naturally where wee are not acquainted, wee list not to hazard our welcome; chusing rather to spend our money at a simple [Page 63]Inne, then to turne in for a free lodging to an vnknowen Host, whome wee haue onely heard of, neuer had friendship with; whereas to an entire friend, whose nature and welcome wee know, & whom we haue elsewhere familiarly cōuersed withall, we goe as boldly and willingly as to our home, knowing that no houre can bee vnseasonable to such a one. Whiles on the other side wee scrape acquaintance with the world, that neuer did vs good, euen after many [Page 64]repulses. I will not liue with God, and in God, without his acquaintāce, knowing it my happines to haue such a friend. I will not let one day passe without some acte of renewing my familiarity with him, not giuing ouer til I haue giuen him some restimony of my loue to him, and ioy in him; and till he hath left behind him some pledge of his continued fauour to mee.
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Men, for the most part, would neither die nor be [Page 65]old. When we see an aged man that hath ouerliued all the teeth of his gummes, the haire of his head, the sight of his eyes, the taste of his palate, wee professe, wee would not liue till such a cumbersome age, wherin wee prooue burdens to our dearest friendes, and our selues: Yet if it bee put to our choyce what yeer we would die, we euer shift it off till the next; and want not excuses for this prorogation, rather than faile alledging wee would liue to amend; when yet we [Page 66]doe but adde more to the heape of our sinnes by continuance. Nature hath nothing to pleade for this folly; but, that Life is sweet: Wherein wee giue occasion of renewing that auncient checke, or one not vnlike to it; whereby that primitiue vision taxed the timerousnes of the shrinking Confessors; Yee would neither liue to be old, nor die ere your age: what should I doe with you? The Christian must not thinke it enough to endure the thought of death with patiēce, whē [Page 67]it is obtruded vpon him by necessitie; but must voluntarily call it into his mind with ioy; not only abiding it should come, but wishing that it might come. I will not leaue till I can resolue, If I might die to day, not to liue till to morrow.
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As a true friend is the sweetest contentment in the worlde: so in his qualities, he well resembleth honie, the sweetest of all liquors: Nothing is more sweete to the taste, nothing more sharpe [Page 68]and cleansing, when it meetes with an exulcerate sore. For my selfe, I know I must haue faults; and therefore I care not for that friend, that I shal neuer smart by: For my friends, I know they can not bee faultlesse: and therefore as they shall finde me sweete in their prayses and incouragements, so sharpe also in their censure. Either let them abide me no friend to their faults, or no friend to themselues.
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In all other things we [Page 69]are led by profit; but in the maine matter of all, wee shew our selues vtterly vnthriftie; & whiles wee are wise in making good markets in these base commodities, wee shewe our selues foolish in the great match of our soules. God and the world come both to one shop, and make profers for our soules. The world like a frank chapman, sayes, All these wil I giue thee, shewing vs his bagges, and promotions, and thrusting them into our hands. God offers a crowne of glorie, [Page 70]which yet he tels vs wee must giue him day to performe, and haue nothing in present, but our hope, and some small earnest of the bargaine. Though we know there is no cōparison betwixt these two in value; finding these earthly things vaine, and vnable to giue any contentment; and those other of inualuable worth and benefite: Yet wee had rather take these in hande, than trust GOD on his word for the future; While yet in the same kinde we chuse rather to take some rich [Page 71]Lordships in reuersion, after the long expectation of three liues expired, than a present summe much vnder foote: As contrarily, when God & the world are sellers, and we come to the Mart, The worlde offers fine painted wares, but will not part with thē vnder the price of our torment: God proclaimes, Come yee that want, buy for nought. Now we thriftie men, that trie all shops for the cheapest penniworth, refuse GOD, profering his precious cōmodities for nothing & pay [Page 72]an hard price for that which is worse than nothing, painefull. Surely, wee are wise for any thing but our soules: and not so wise for the body as foolish for them. O Lord, thy paiment is sure, and who knowes how present? Take the soule that thou hast both made, and bought: And let mee rather giue my life for thy fauour, than take the offers of the world for nothing.
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There was neuer age that more bragged of knowledge, and yet neuer [Page 73]any that had lesse soundnesse. Hee that knowes not God, knoweth nothing; and he that loues not God, knowes him not: For hee is so sweete, and infinitely full of delight, that whoeuer knowes him, cannot chuse but affect him. The little loue of God then argues the great ignorance euen of those that professe knowledge. I will nor suffer my affections to run before my knowledge: for then I shall loue fashionably onely, because I heare God is worthy of loue, [Page 74]and so bee subiect to relapses: But I wil euer lay knowledge as the groūd of my loue. So, as I grow in diuine knowledge, I shal still profit in an heauenly zeale.
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Those that trauell in long pilgrimages to the holy Land, what a number of weary pases they measure? what a number of hard lodgings, and knowen daungers they passe? and at last when they are come within view of their iourneys end, what a large tribute pay they at the Pisan [Page 75]Castel, to the Turkes? And when they are come thither, what see they but the bare Sepulchre wherein their Sauiour lay? and the earth that hee trode vpon, to the increase of a carnall deuotion? What labour should I willingly vndertake in my iourney to the true Land of promise, the celestiall Ierusalem; where I shall see and enioy my Sauiour himselfe? What tribute of paine or death should I refuse to pay for my enterance, not into his Sepulchre, [Page 76]but his palace of glory; and that not to looke vpon, but to possesse it.
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Those that are all in exhortation, no whit in doctrine, are like to them that snuffe the candle, but powre not in oyle. Againe, those that are all in doctrine, nothing in exhortation, drowne the wike in oyle, but light it not; making it fit for vse, if it had fire put to it; but as it is, rather capable of good, than profitable in present: Doctrine, without exhortation, makes men all braine, no heart. [Page 77]Exhortatiō, without doctrine, makes the heart full, leaues the braine emptie. Both together make a man: One makes a man wise; the other good. One serues that wee may know our duetie, the other that wee may perfourme it. I will labour in both: but I know not in whether more. Men cannot practise, vnlesse they know; and they know in vaine, if they practise not. There be two things in euery good worke; Honour and profite. The later God bestowes vpon [Page 78]vs, the former hee keepes to himselfe. The profit of our workes redoūdeth not to God. My wel-doing extendeth not to thee. The honour of our work may not be allowed vs. My glory I will not giue to another. I wil not abridge God of his part, that he may not bereaue me of mine.
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The proud man hath no God; the enuious man hath no neighbor; the angry man hath not himselfe. What can that man haue, that wants himselfe? What is a man [Page 79]better, if he haue himself, want all others? What is hee the neerer, if hee haue himselfe, and others, and yet want God? What good is it then to bee a man, if hee bee either wrathfull, proud, or enuious?
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Man that was once the soueraigne Lord of all creatures, whō they seruiceablie attended at all turnes; is now sent to the very basest of al creatures to learn good qualities, Goe to the Pismire, &c. And sees ye most contēptible creatures preferr'd [Page 80]before him: The asse knoweth his owner; wherein we, like the miserable heire of some great Peer, whose house is decayed through the treason of our progenitors, heare and see what Honours and Lordships we should haue had; but nowe finde our selues below many of the vulgar: wee haue not so much cause of exaltation, that we are men, and not beasts; as we haue of humiliation, in thinking how much wee were once better then we are; and that nowe in many [Page 81]dueties we are men inferiour to beastes: so as those whome wee contemne, if they had our reason, might more iustly contemne vs; and as they are, may teach vs by their example, and do condemne vs by their practise.
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The idle man is the diuels cushion, on which hee taketh his free ease: who as hee is vncapable of any good, so he is fitly disposed for all euill motions. The standing water soone stinketh; wheras the current euer keeps [Page 82]cleere and cleanly: conueying down all noysom matter that might infect it, by the force of his streame. If I doe but little good to others by my endeuours, yet this is great good to mee, that by my labour I keepe my selfe from hurt.
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There can bee no neerer coniunction in nature, than is betwixt the bodie and the soule; yet these two are of so contrary dispositiō, that as it fals out in an ill matched man and wife, those seruants which the [Page 83]one likes best, are most dispraised of the other; so heere, one still takes part against the other in their choice: What benefites the one, is the hurt of the other. The glutting of the body pines the soule; and the soule thriues best when the bodie is pinched. Who can wonder, that there is such faction amongst others, that sees so much in his very selfe? True wisdom is to take, not with the stronger, as the fashion of the world is, but with the better: following herein, not vsurped [Page 84]power, but iustice. It is not hard to discerne, whose the right is; whether the seruaunt should rule or the mistresse. I will labour to make & keepe the peace, by giuing each part his owne indifferently: but if more be affected with an ambitious contention, I will rather beate Hagar out of doors, than shee shall ouer-rule her mistresse.
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I see iron first heated red hote in the fire, and after beaten and hardened with colde water. [Page 85]Thus will I deale with an offending friend: first heat him with deserued praise of his vertue, and then beat vpon him, and coole him with reprehension: so good nurses when their children are fallen, first take them vp and speake them faire, chide them afterwards: Gentle speach is a good preparatiue for rigor; He shall see that I loue him, by my approbation; and that I loue not his faults, by my reproofe. If hee loue himselfe, hee will loue those that mislike his vices; and if he loue [Page 86]not himselfe, it matters not whether he loue me.
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The liker we are to God, which is the best & only good, the better & happier we must needes be. All sins make vs vnlike him, as being contrary to his perfect holinesse: but some shew more direct contrariety: such is enuy; For, whereas God bringeth good out of euill; the enuious man fetcheth euill out of good: wherin also his sin proues a kind of punishment; for wheras to good men euen euil things work together to [Page 87]their good; contrarily, to the enuious, good things work togither to their euil. The euil, in any man, though neuer so prosperous, I will not enuy, but pity: The good graces, I will not repine at, but holily emulate; reioycing that they are so good: but grieuing that I am no better.
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The couetous man is like a Spider, as in this that he doth nothing but lay his nets to catch euery flie, gaping onely for a bootie of gaine; so yet more, in that whiles hee [Page 88]makes nets for these flies, he consumeth his owne bowels: so that which is his life is his death. If there bee any creature miserable, it is hee; and yet he is least to bee pitied, because hee makes himselfe miserable; such as hee is I will account him; and will therefore sweepe downe his webs and hate his poyson.
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In heauen there is all life, and no dying; in hell is all death and no life; In earth there is both liuing and dying; which, as it is betwixt both, so [Page 89]it prepares for both. So that hee which here below dies to sin, doth after liue in heauen; and contrarily hee that liues in sinne vpō earth dies in hell afterwards. What if I haue no part of ioy here below, but still succession of afflictions? The wicked haue no part in heauen, and yet they enioy the earth with pleasure: I would not change portions with them. I reioyce, that seeing I cannot haue both, yet I haue the better. O Lord, let me passe both my deaths here vpon [Page 90]earth. I care not how I liue or die, so I may haue nothing but life to looke for in another world.
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The conceipt of proprietie hardens a man against many inconueniences, and addeth much to our pleasure: The mother abides many vnquiet nights, many painfull throwes, and vnpleasant sauors of her child, vpon this thought, It is my own. The indulgent father magnifies that in his own sonne, which he would scarce like in a [Page 91]stranger. The want of this to God-ward makes vs so subiect to discontentment, & cooleth our delight in him, because we think of him aloofe, as one in whō we are not interessed: If wee could thinke, It is my God that cheereth mee with his presence, and blessings, while I prosper; that afflicteth mee in loue, whē I am deiected; my Sauiour is at Gods right hand: my Angels stand in his presence, It could not be but Gods fauour would bee sweeter, his chastisements more easie, his [Page 92]benefits more effectuall. I am not my own, while God is not mine: and while he is mine, since I do possesse him, I wil enioy him.
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Nature is of her owne inclination froward, importunately longing after that which is denied her; and scornefull of what she may haue. If it were appointed that we should liue alwaies vpon earth, how extreamly would wee exclaime of wearinesse, and wish rather that wee were not? Now it is appointed we [Page 93]shal liue here but a while, and then giue roome to our successors, each one affects a kind of eternity vpon earth. I will labour to tame this peeuish and fullen humor of nature, & will like that best that must be.
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All true earthly pleasure forsooke man when he forsooke his creator; what honest and holy delight he before tooke in the duetifull seruices of the obsequious creatures; in the contemplation of that admirable varietie, and strangenes [Page 94]of their properties; in seeing their sweete accordance with each other, and all with himselfe? Nowe most of our pleasure is to set one creature together by the eares with another; sporting our selues onely with that deformitie, which was bred through our owne fault. Yea, there haue been, that haue delighted to see one man spill anothers blood vpon the sand; and haue shouted for ioy at the sight of that slaughter, which hath fallen out vpon [Page 95]no other quarell but the pleasure of the beholders: I doubt not but as wee solace our selues in the discorde of the inferiour creatures; so the euill spirits sporte themselues in our dissensions. There are better qualities of the creature, which we passe ouer without pleasure. In recreations I vvill choose those which are of best example and best vse; seeking those by which I may not onely bee the merryer, but the better.
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There is no want for which a man may not find a remedy in himself. Doe I want riches? Hee that desires but little, cannot want much. Doe I want friends? If I loue God enough, & my selfe but enough, it matters not. Do I want health? If I want it but a little, & recouer. I shall esteeme it the more, because I wanted. If I be long sicke and vnrecouerably, I shal be the fitter and willinger to die; & my paine is so much lesse sharpe, by how much more it [Page 97]lingreth. Doe I want maintenance? A little and course will content nature. Let my minde bee no more ambitious then my backe and belly. I can hardly complaine of too little. Doe I want sleepe? I am going whither there is no vse of sleepe: where all rest, and sleepe not. Doe I want childrē? Many that haue them, wish they wanted: It is better to be childlesse, than crossed with their miscariage. Doe I want learning? Hee hath none, that sayth he hath enough. The next [Page 98]way to get more, is to finde thou wantest. There is remedie for all wants in our selues, sauing onely for want of grace: and that a man cannot so much as see and complaine that hee wants, but from aboue.
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Euery vertuous action (like the Sunne eclipsed) hath a double shadowe; according to the diuers aspects of the beholders: One of glory, the other of enuie. Glorie followes vpon good deserts; Enuie vpon glorie. [Page 99]Hee that is enuyed may thinke himselfe well: for hee that enuies him, thinkes him more then well: I know no vice in another wherof a man may make so good and comfortable vse to himselfe. There would bee no shadowe, if there were no light.
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In meddling with the faultes of friendes, I haue obserued many wrongfull courses; what for feare, or selfe-loue, or indiscretiō: some I haue [Page 100]seen, like vnmerciful and couetous Chirurgians, keepe the wound rawe, which they might haue seasonably remedied, for their own gaine: Others that haue layd healing plaisters to skin it aloft, when there hath beene more neede of corasiues to eat out the dead flesh within: Others, that haue galled and drawen when there hath beene nothing but solid flesh, that hath wanted onely filling vp. Others that haue healed the fore, but left an vnsightly scarre of discredite behind them: [Page 101]He that would do good this waye must haue fidelitie, courage, discretion, patience. Fidelity, not to beare with; courage, to reprooue them; discretion, to reprooue them well; patience, to abide the leasure of amendement; making much of good beginnings, and putting vp many repulses, bearing with many weakenesses; still hoping; still soliciting; as knowing that those who haue beene long vsed to fetters cannot but halt a while, whē they are taken off.
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God hath made al the worlde, and yet what a little part of it is his? Diuide the worlde into foure parts; but one, and the least containeth all that is worthy the name of Christendome? The rest ouer-whelmed with Turcisme, and Paganisme: And of this least part, the greater halfe yet holding aright concerning God and their Sauiour in some common principles, ouerthrow the trueth in their conclusions; and so leaue the lesser part of the least [Page 103]part for God. Yet lower; of those that hold aright concerning Christ, how fewe are there, that doe otherwise then fashionably professe him? And of those that doe seriously professe him, howe fewe are there that in their liues deny him not, liuing worthy of so glorious a calling? Wherein I doe not pitie God, who wil haue glory euen of those that are not his: I pitie miserable men that do reiect their Creator and Redeemer, and themselues in him. And I enuie Satā, that he ruleth [Page 104]so large. Since God hath so few, I will bee more thankefull that hee hath vouchsafed mee one of his; and be the more zealous of glorifying him, because wee haue but a few fellowes.
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As those that haue tasted of some delicate dish, finde other plaine dishes but vnpleasant; so it fareth with those which haue once tasted of heauenly things, they cannot but cōtemne the best worldly pleasures: As therefore some daintie guest knowing there [Page 105]is so pleasant fare to come, I will reserue my appetite for it, and not suffer my selfe cloyed with the course diet of the world.
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I finde many places where God hath vsed the hand of good Angels for the punishmēt of the wicked; but neuer could yet find one wherein he employed; an euill Angel in any direct good to his children. Indirect I finde many, if not all, through the power of him that brings light out of darkenesse, and turnes [Page 106]their euill to our good: In this choice GOD would and must be imitated. From an euill spirit I dare not receiue ought, if neuer so good; I will receiue as little as I may from a wicked man. If he were as perfectly euill as the other, I durst receiue nothing; I had rather hunger then wilfully dippe my hand in a wicked mans dish.
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We are ready to condemne others for that which is as eminently faulty in our selues. If [Page 107]one blinde man rush vpon another in the way; either complaines of others blindnesse, neither of his owne. I haue heard those which haue had most corrupt lungs cōplayne of the vnsauory breath of others. The reason is because the minde casteth altogether outward, and reflecteth not into it selfe. Yet it is more shamefull to be either ignorant of, or fauorable to our own imperfections. I will censure others vices fearefully, my own cōfidently, because I know thē; and [Page 108]those I know not I will suspect.
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Hee is a very humble man that thinks not himselfe better then some others; and hee is very meane, whome some others doe not account better than themselues: so that vessell that seemed very small vpon the maine, seemes a tall ship vpon the Thames. As there are many better for estate then my selfe; so there are some worse; and if I were yet worse, yet would there be some lower: and if I were so [Page 109]low that I accounted my selfe the worst of all; yet some would accoūt thēselues in worse case. A mans opiniō is in others; his being is in himselfe. Let me know my self, let others ghesse at me. Let others either enuie or pitie mee. I care not so long as I enioy my selfe.
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He can neuer wonder enough at Gods workemanship, that knowes not the frame of the world: for he can neuer els cōceiue of the hugenes, & strange proportion of the creatures. And [Page 110]he that knowes this can neuer wonder more, at any thing else. I will learne to knowe, that I may admire; and by that little I knowe, I will more wonder at that I know not.
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There is nothing he lowe, but toyling, grieuing, wishing, hoping, seuring; and wearinesse in all these. What fooles are wee to bee besotted with the loue of our own trouble, and to hate our liberty and rest. The loue of misery is much worse than miserie it selfe. We [Page 111]must first pray that God would make vs wise, before wee can wish hee would make vs happy.
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If a man referre all things to himselfe, nothing seemes enough: If all things to GOD, any measure wil content him of earthly things; but in grace hee is infatiable: worldlings serue themselues altogether in GOD, making Religion but to serue their turns as a colour of their ambition, and couetousnes: The Christian seeks GOD onely in seeking [Page 112]himselfe, vsing all other things but as subordinately to him; not caring whether himselfe win or lose, so that God may win glory in both. I will not suffer mine eyes and mind to be boūded with these visible things; but will looke through all these matters, at GOD which is the vtmost scope of them: Accounting them onely as a through-fare to passe by, not as an habitation to rest in.
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He is wealthy enough that wanteth not: He is [Page 113]great enough that is his owne master: He is happy enough, that liues to dye well. Other things I will not care for; nor too much for these, saue onely for the last which alone can admit of no immoderation.
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A man of extraordinary parts makes himselfe by strange and singular behauiour more admired; which if a man of but common faculty doe imitate, hee makes himselfe ridiculous: for that which is construed as naturall to the one, is [Page 114]descried to be affected in the other. And there is nothing forced by affectation can be comely. I wil euer striue to go in the common rode: so while I am not notable, I shall not bee notorious.
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Gold is the best metall, & for the puritie not subiect to rust, as all others; and yet the best gold hath somedrosse. I esteeme not that man that hath no faults; I like him well that hath but a fewe, and those not great.
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Many a man marres a good estate, for want of skill to proportion his carriage answerably to his abilitie. A little sayle to a large vessell riddes no way, though the winde bee faire; A large sayle to a little Barke drownes it; A topsaile to a ship of meane burden in a rough weather is daungerous; A lowe fayle in an easie gale yeelds little aduantage: This disproportion causeth some to liue miserably in a good estate; and some to make a [Page 116]good estate miserable. I will first knowe what I may doe for safety, and then I will trie what I can doe for speede.
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The rich man hath many friends; although in truth riches haue thē, and not the man: As the Asse, that carried the Egyptian Goddesse, had many bowed knees, yet not to the beast, but to the burden. For, separate the riches from the person, and thou shalt see friendship leaue the man, & follow that which was euer her obiect: while [Page 117]he may command, and can either giue, or control, he hath attendance, and profer of loue at all hāds; but which of these da [...]es acknowledge him, when he is going to prison for debt? Then these Waspes, that made such musick about this Gallypot, shew plainely that they came onely for the hony that was in it. This is the misery of the wealthie, that they cannot knowe their friendes: Whereas those that loue the poore man, loue him for himselfe. Hee that would chuse a true friēd, [Page 118]must search out one that is neither couetous nor ambitious; for such a one loues but himself in thee. And if it be rare to finde any not infected with these qualities, the best is to entertaine all, and trust few.
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That which the French Prouerbe hath of sicknesses, is true of all e [...]ls, that they come on horsbacke, and go away on foot: We haue oft seen a sudden fal, or one meales surfet hath stuck by many to their graues: wheras pleasures come like [Page 119]oxen, slowe and heauily; and goe away like posthorses, vpon the spurre. Sorowes, because they are lingering guests, I will entertaine but moderately; knowing that the more they are made of, the longer they will continue: And for pleasures, because they stay not, and doe but call to drinke at my doore, I will vse them as passengers, with sleight respect. He is his owne best friend, that makes least of both of them.
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It is indeed more commendable [Page 120]to giue good example, than to take it; yet imitation, how-euer in ciuil matters it be condemned of seruilitie, in Christiā practise hath his due praise; and though it be more naturall for beginners at their first imitation, that cannot swim without bladders; yet the best proficient shal see euer some higher steps of those that haue gone to heauen before him, worthy of his tracing: wherin much caution must be had, that wee follow good men, and in good: Good men, for if wee [Page 121]propoūd imperfect patternes to our selues, wee shall be constrained first to vnlearne those ill habits we haue got by their imitation, before we can be capable of good: so besides the losse of labor, we are further off from our end: In good; for, that a man should be so wedded to any mans person that he can make no separation from his infirmities, is both absurdly seruile and vnchristian. He therefore that would follow well, must knowe to distinguish well, betwixt good men & euill, [Page 122]betwixt good men and better, betwixt good qualities and infirmities. Why hath God giuen me educatiō not in a desert alone, but in the cōpany of good & vertuous men; but that by ye sight of their good cariage I should better my owne? Why should we haue interest in the vices of men and not in their vertues? And although precepts be surer, yet a good mans action is according to precept, yea, is a precept it self. The Psalmist compares the law of God to a lanterne; good exāple [Page 123]beares it. It is safe folowing him that carries the light. If he walke without the light, hee shall walke without me.
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As there is one cōmon end to all good men, saluatiō; and one author of it, Christ: So there is but one way to it, dooing well, and suffering euill. Doing wel (me thinks) is like the Zodiack in the heauen, the hie-way of the Sun, through which it dayly passeth; suffering euill is like the Eclipticke line that goes through the midst of it. [Page 124]The rule of doing well, the law of God, is vniforme and eternall; and the copies of suffering euill in all times agree with the originall; No man can either doe well, or suffer ill without an example: Are we sawen in pieces? so was Esay; Are we headed? so Iohn Baptist; Crucified? so Peter; Throwen to wild beasts? so Daniel; Into the fornace? so the three children; Stoned? so Steuen; Banished? so the beloued disciple; Burnt? so millions of Martyrs; Defamed and flandered? [Page 125]what good man euer was not? It were easie to bee endlesse both in torments and sufferers: whereof each hath begunne to other, all to vs. I may not hope to speede better than the best Christians; I cannot feare to fare worse. It is no matter which way I goe, so I come to heauen.
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There is nothing beside life of this nature, that it is diminished by addition: Euery moment wee liue longer then other, and each moment that we liue longer is so [Page 126]much takē out of our life. It increaseth and diminisheth onely by minutes; and therefore is not perceiued: The shorter steppes it taketh, the more slily it passeth. Time shall not so steale vpon me that I shall not discerne it, and catch it by the fore-lockes; nor so steale from me, that it shall carry with it no witnesse of his passage in my proficiencie.
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The prodigall man, while hee spendeth, is magnified; when hee is spent is pitied: and that [Page 127]is all his recompence for his lauisht Patrimonie. The couetous man is grudged while he liues, and his death is reioyced at: for, when he endes, his riches begin to bee goods. Hee that wisely keepes the meane betweene both, liueth wel, and heares well; neither repined at by the needie, nor pittied by greater men. I would so manage these worldly commodities, as accounting them mine to dispose, others to partake of.
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A good name (if any [Page 128]earthly thing) is worth seeking, worth striuing for; yet to affect a bare name, when we deserue either ill, or nothing, is but a proud hypocrisie: And to be puffed vp with the wrongful estimation of others mis-taking our worth, is an idle and ridiculous pride. Thou art well spoken of vpon no desert: what then? Thou hast deceiued thy neighbours, they one another; & al of thē haue deceiued thee: for thou madest thē thinke of thee otherwise than thou art; and they haue made thee think of [Page 129]thy selfe as thou art accounted: The deceit came frō thee the shame will ende in thee. I will account no wrong greater, than for a man to esteeme and report mee aboue that I am; not reioycing in that I am wel thought of, but in that I am such as I am esteemed.
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It was a speach worthy, the commendation, & frequent remembrāce of so diuine a Bishop as Augustine, which is reported of an aged father in his time, who when [Page 130]his friendes comforted him on his sicke bed, and told him, they hoped he shuld recouer, answered; If I shall not die at all, well: but if euer, why not now? Surely, it is folly what we must doe to do vnwillingly. I wil neuer thinke my soule in good case, so long as I am loth to thinke of dying; and will make this my comfort; Not, I shall yet liue longer, but I shall yet do more good.
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Excesses are neuer alone: Commonly those that haue excellēt parts, [Page 131]haue some extreamly vicious qualities: great wits haue great errors; & great estates haue great cares: whereas mediocrity of gifts or of estate, hath vsually but easie inconneniences: Else the excellent would not knowe themselues, and the meane would bee too much deiected. Now those whom we admire for their saculties, wee pity for their infirmities; and those which finde themselues but of the ordinary pitch, ioy that as their vertues so their vices are not eminent. [Page 132]So the highest haue a blemished glory, and the meane are contentedly secure. I wil magnifie the highest, but affect the meane.
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The body is the case, or sheath of the minde: yet as naturally it hideth it; so it doth also many times discouer it: For although the forehead, eyes, and frame of the countenance doe some times belie the disposition of the heart, yet most cōmonly they giue true general verdicts. An angry mans browes are [Page 133]bent together, & his eyes sparkle with rage, which when he is well pleased, looke smooth & chearefully. Enuy hath one look; desire another; sorow yet another; contentment, a fourth, different from all the rest. To shewe no passion is too Stoical, to shew all is impotent; to shew other than we feel, hypocriticall. The face & gesture do but write, and make commentaries vpon the heart. I wil first endeuor so to frame and order that, as not to entertaine any passion, but what I need not care to [Page 134]haue layed open to the worlde: and therefore will first see that the Text be good; then that the glosse bee true; and lastly that it be sparing. To what ende hath God so walled in the heart, if I should let euery mans eyes into it by my countenance?
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There is no publique actiō which the world is not ready to scan; there is no action so priuate, which the euil spirits are not witnesses of: I wil endeuor so to liue, a [...] knowing that I am euer in the [Page 135]eyes of mine enemies.
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When we our selues, and all other vices are old, then couetousnes alone is yong, and at his best age. This vice loues to dwell in an olde ruinous cotage: Yet that age can haue no such honest colour for niggardlines & insatiable desire. A young man might plead the vncertainty of his estate & doubt of his future need; but an old man sees his set period before him. Since this humor is so necessarily annexed to this age, I will [Page 136]turne it the right way, and nourish it in my self. The older I growe, the more couetous I wil be; but of the riches, not of the world that I am leauing, but of the world I am entring into. It is good coueting what I may haue, and cannot leaue behind me.
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There is a mutuall hatred betwixt a Christian, and the world: for on the one side, the loue of the worlde is enmitie with God; and Gods children cannot but take their fathers part. On the other, [Page 137]The world hates you because it hated mee first. But the hatred of the good man to the wicked is not so extream, as that wherewith hee is hated. For the Christian hates euer with commiseration and loue of that good hee sees in the worst; knowing that the essence of the very diuels is good & that the lewdest man hath some excellēt parts of nature, or common graces of the Spirit of God, which hee warily singleth out in his affection. But the wicked man hates him for goodnes, [Page 138]and therefore findes nothing in himselfe to moderate his detestation. There can be no better Musicke in my eare, than the discord of the wicked. If he like me. I am afraid he spies some qualitie in me like to his own; If hee sawe nothing but goodnes, he could not loue me, and be bad himselfe. It was a iust doubt of Phocion, who when the people praised him, asked, What euill haue I done? I will striue to deserue ill of none: but not deseruing ill, it shall not grieue mee to heare [Page 139]ill of those that are euil. I knowe no greater argumēt of goodnes, than the hatred of a wicked man.
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A man that comes hungry to his meale, feedes heartily on the meate set before him, not regarding the metal, or form of the platter, wherein it is serued; who afterwards whē his stomack is satisfied, begins to play with the dish, or to read sentēces on his trēcher. Those auditors which can find nothing to doe, but note elegant words & phrases, or rhetorical colours, [Page 140]or perhaps an il grace of gesture in a pithie and materiall speach, argue themselues full ere they came to the feast: and therefore goe away with a little pleasure, no profit. In hearing others, my onely intention shall be to feede my minde with solide matter: if my eare can get ought by the way, I will not grudge it, but I will not intend it.
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The ioy of a Christian in these worldly things is limited, and euer awed with feare of excesse, but recompensed abundantly [Page 141]with his spirituall mirth: wheras the worldling giues the reignes to his minde, and powres himselfe out into pleasure, fearing only that he shall not ioy enough. He that is but halfe a Christian, liues most miserably; for he neither enioyeth God, nor the world. Not God, because hee hath not grace enogh to make him his own: Not the world, because hee hath some taste of grace; enough to shew him the vanitie and sinne of his pleasures. So the sound Christiā hath his heauen [Page 142]aboue, the worldling here below; the vnsetled Christian no where.
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Good deeds are very fruitfull; & not so much of their nature, as of Gods blessing multipliable: We thinke ten in the hundred extreame and biting vsury; God giues vs more then an hundred for tenne: Yea, aboue the increase of the grain which wee commend most for multiplication. For out of one good action of ours, God produceth a thousand; the haruest whereof is perpetuall: [Page 143]Euen the faithfull actions of the olde Patriarkes, the constant suffrings of ancient Martyrs liue still, and still doe good to all successions of ages by their example. For publique actions of vertue, besides that they are presently confortable to the doers, are also exemplary to others: & as they are more beneficiall to others, so are more crowned in vs. If good deedes were vtterly barren & incommodious, I would seeke after them for the cōscience of their own goodness: how much [Page 144]more shall I now bee incouraged to performe them, for that they are so profitable both to my selfe, and to others, and to mee in others? My principall care shall be, that while my soule liues in glory in heauen, my good actions may liue vpon earth; and that they may be put into the bank and multiplie, while my body lies in the graue and consumeth.
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A Christian for the sweete fruit he beares to God and men, is compared to the noblest of all [Page 145]plants, the Vine. Now as the most generous Vine if it bee not pruned, runs out into many superfluous stemmes, & growes at last weake & fruitlesse: so doeth the best man if he be not cut short of his desires, and pruned with afflictions. If it be painefull to bleede, it is worse to wither. Let me be pruned that I may grow, rather thā cut vp to burne.
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Those, that do but superficially taste of diuine knowledge, finde little sweetnesse in it; and are ready for the vnpleasant [Page 146]rellish to abhorre it: whereas if they would diue deepe into this sea, they should finde fresh water neere to the bottome: That it sauors not well at the first, is the fault not of it, but of the distempered palate that tastes it. Good metals & minerals are not found close vnder the skinne of the earth, but below in the bowels of it: No good Miner casts away his mattocke because he findes a veine of tough clay, or a shelfe of stone; but still delueth lower, & passing through many [Page 147]changes of soile, at last comes to his rich treasure. Wee are too soone discouraged in our spirituall gaines. I will still perseuere to seeke; hardening my selfe against all difficulty. There is comfort euen in seeking, hope; & ther is ioy in hoping, good successe; & in that successe, is happines.
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He that hath any experiēce in spiritual matters, knowes that Satan is euer more violēt at the last; then raging most furiously, whē he knowes hee shall rage but a [Page 148]while. Hence of the persecutions of the first Church, the tenth and last vnder Dioclesian, and Maximinian, and those other fiue tyrants was the bloodiest Hence this age is the most dissolute, because neerest the conclusion. And as this is his course in the vniuersall assaults of the whole Church: so it is the same in his conflicts with euery Christian soule. Like a subtil orator hee reserues his strongest force til the shutting vp: And therefore miserable is the follie of those men who [Page 149]deferre their repentance till then; when their onset shall be most sharpe, and they through paine of body, and perplexednesse of minde, shall bee least able to resist. Those that haue long furnisht themselues with spirituall munition, find worke enough in this extreame brunt of tentation; how then should the carelesse man, that with the helpe of al opportunities could not find grace to repent, hope to atchieue it at the last gaspe, against greater force, with lesse means, more distraction, [Page 150]no leasure? Wise princes vse to prepare tenne yeeres before, for a field of one day: I will euery day lay vp somewhat for my last. If I win that skirmish, I haue enough. The first & second blow begins the battel, but the last onely wins it.
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I obserue three seasons wherein a wise man differs not from a foole; In his infancie, in sleepe, and in silence: For in the two former wee are all fooles, and in silence [Page 151]all are wise. In the two former yet, there may bee concealment of folly; but the tongue is a blabbe: there cannot bee any kinde of folly, either simple, or wicked, in the heart, but the tongue will bewray it. Hee cannot bee wise that speakes much, or without sense, or out of season: nor hee knowen for a foole that sayes nothing. It is a great miscrie to bee a foole: but this is yet greater, that a man cannot bee a foole, but hee must shew it. It were well for [Page 152]such a one, if he could be taught to keep close his foolishnesse: but then there should be no fools. I haue heard some which haue scorned the opinion of folly in themselues, for a speach wherein they haue hoped to shew most wit censured of follie, by him that hath thought himselfe wiser: and another, hearing his sentence againe, hath condemned him for want of wit in censuring. Surely he is not a foole that hath vnwise thoughts, but he that vtters them. Euen concealed [Page 153]folly is wisedom; and sometimes wisedom vttered is folly. While others care how to speak, my care shall be how to hold my peace.
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A worke is then onely good and acceptable, when the action, meaning, and maner are all good: For, to doe good with an ill meaning (as Iudas saluted Christ to betray him) is so much more sinfull, by how much the action is better; which being good in the kind is abused to an ill purpose: To doe ill [Page 154]in a good meaning (as Vzza in staying the Arke) is so much amisse, that the good intention cannot beare out the vnlawfull acte: which although it may seeme some excuse, why it should not be so ill, yet is no warrant to iustifie it. To meane well, and doe a good action, in an ill manner (as the Pharisee made a good prayer, but arrogantly) is so offensiue, that the ill manner depraueth both the other. So a thing may bee euill vpon one circumstance, it cannot be [Page 155]good but vpon all. In what euer busines I go about, I wil inquire What I doe for the substance, Howe for the manner, Why for the intention: For the two first I will consult with God, for the last with my owne heart.
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I can do nothing without a million of witnesses: The conscience is as a thousand witnesses; and GOD is as a thousand consciences. I wil therefore so deale with men, as knowing that God sees mee; and so [Page 156]with God, as if the world sawe mee; so with my selfe, and both of them, as knowing that my conscience seeth me: and so with them all, as knowing I am alwayes ouerlooked by my accuser, by my iudge.
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Earthly inheritances are diuided oft times with much inequalitie: The priuiledge of primogeniture stretcheth larger in many places now, than it did among the auncient Iewes. The younger many times [Page 157]serues the elder; and while the eldest aboundeth, all the later issue is pinched. In heauen it is not so: All the sonnes of God are heires, none vnderlings; and not heires vnder wardship, and hope, but inheritors; and not inheritors of any little pittance of land, but of a kingdome; Nor of an earthly kingdome, subiect to danger of losse, or alteration, but one glorious and euerlasting. It shall content mee here, that hauing right to all things, yet I haue possession of [Page 158]nothing but sorrowe. Since I shall haue possession aboue, of all that, whereto I haue right belowe, I will serue willingly, that I may reigne; serue for a while, that I may reigne for euer.
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Euen the best things ill vsed become euils; and contrarily, the worst things vsed wel prooue good: A good tongue, vsed to deceit; a good wit, vsed to defend error; a strong arme, to murder; authoritie, to oppresse; a good profession, to dissemble; are all [Page 159]euil: Yea, Gods owne worde is the sworde of the spirit; which if it kill not our vices, killes our soules. Contrariwise (as poysons are vsed to wholesom medicine) afflictions and sinnes, by a good vse, prooue so gainefull, as nothing more. Wordes are as they are taken: and things are as they are vsed. There are euen cursed blessings: O Lord, rather giue mee no fanours, than not grace to vse them. If I want them, thou requirest not what thou doest not giue; but [Page 160]if I haue them, and want their vse; thy mercie prooues my iudgement.
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Man is the best of al these inferiour creatures; yet liues in more sorow and discontentment, then the worst of them: whiles that reason wherin he excels them, and by which hee might make aduantage of his life, hee abuses to a susspicious distrust. How many hast thou found of the foules of the ayre, lying dead in thy way for want of prouision? They [Page 161]eate, and rest, and sing, and want nothing. Man, which hath better meanes to liue comfortably, toyleth, and careth, & wanteth; whom yet his reason alone might teach, that hee which careth for these lower creatures made onely for man, will much more prouide for man, to whose vse they were made. There is an holy carelesnesse, free from idlenesse, free from distrust. In these earthly things, I will so depend on my maker, that my trust in him may not exclude [Page 162]my labour; and yet so labour (vpon my confidence on him) as my indeuour may be voide of perplexitie.
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The precepts, & practise of those with whō we liue, auaile much on either part. For a man not to bee ill where hee hath no prouocations to euill, is lesse commendable; but for a man to liue continently in Asia (as hee sayd) where he sees nothing but allurements to vncleannesse; for Lot [Page 163]to bee a good man in the midst of Sodom; to be abstemious in Germany, & in Italy chaste; this is truly praise-worthy. To sequester our selues from the cōpany of the world, that we may depart from their vices, proceedes from a base and distrusting minde: as if wee would so force goodnes vpon our selues, that therfore only we would bee good, because wee cannot bee ill. But for a man so to bee personally, and locally in the throng of the worlde, as to withdrawe his [Page 164]affections from it, to vse it, and yet to contemne it at once, to compell it to his seruice without any infection, becomes well the noble courage of a Christian. The worlde shall bee mine, I will not be his; and yet so mine, that his euill shall be still his owne.
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He that liues in God, cannot bee wearie of his life, because hee euer findes both somewhat to doe, and somewhat to solace himselfe [Page 165]with; cannot bee ouerloath to part with it, because hee shall enter into a neerer life and societie with that God in whom he delighteth: Whereas hee that liues without him, liues many times vncōfortably here, because partly he knows not any cause of ioy in himselfe; and partly hee findes not any worthy employment to while himselfe withall; Dyes miserably, because hee either knowes not whither hee goes, or knowes hee goes to torment. There is no true life, but [Page 166]the life of faith. O Lord let mee liue out of the world with thee (if thou wilt) but let mee not liue in the worlde without thee.
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Sinne is both euill in it selfe, and the effect of a former euill, and the cause of sinne following; a cause of punishment, and lastly a punishment it selfe. It is damnable iniquitie in man, to multiplie one sinne vpon another; but to punish one sinne by [Page 167]another, in GOD is a iudgemēt both most iust, and most feareful: So as all the storehouse of God hath not a greater vengeance: with other punishmēts the body smarteth, the soule with this. I care not how God offends mee with punishments, so he punish me not with offending him.
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I haue seene some afflict their bodies with wilfull famine, and scourges of their owne [Page 168]making; God spares me that labour; For hee whips mee daylie with the scourge of a weake bodie; and sometimes with ill tongues. Hee holds mee short many times of the feeling of his cōfortable presence, which is in trueth so much more miserable an hunger then that of the bodie, by how much the soule is more tender, and the foode denied more excellent. He is my father; infinitely wise to proportion out my correction according to my estate; and [Page 169]infinitely louing in fitting mee with a due measure. Hee is a presumptuous childe that will make choyce of his owne rodde. Let mee learn to make a right vse of his corrections, and I shall not neede to correct my selfe. And if it should please GOD to remit his hand a little; I will gouerne my body, as a master, not as a tyrant.
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If God had not sayd, Blessed are those that hunger; I know not what [Page 170]could keep weake Christians from sinking in despaire: Many times all I can doe, is to finde and complaine that I want him; and wish to recouer him: Now this is my stay, that hee in mercie esteemes vs not onely by hauing, but by desiring also; and after a sort accounts vs to haue that which we want, and desire to haue: and my soule assuming, tels me I doe vnfainedly wish him, and long after that grace I misse. Let mee desire still more, and I knowe I shall not desire [Page 171]alwayes. There was neuer soule miscaried with lōging after grace. O blessed hunger that endes alwaies in fulnesse. I am sory that I can but hunger; and yet I would not bee full; for the blessing is promised to the hungry: Giue me more, Lord, but so as I may hunger more. Let mee hunger more, & I knowe I shall be satisfied.
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There is more in the Christian than thou seeest. For hee is both an [Page 172]entire bodie of himselfe, and hee is a limme of another more excellent; euen that glorious mysticall bodie of his Sauiour; to whom hee is so vnited, that the actions of either are reciprocally referred to each other. For, on the one side, the Christian liues in Christ, dyes in Christ, in Christ fulfils the Law, possesseth heauē: on the other, Christ is persecuted by Paul in his members, and is persecuted in Paul afterwards by others: hee suffers in vs, he liues in vs, he workes [Page 173]in and by vs: So thou canst not do either good or harme to a Christian, but thou doest it to his redeemer; to whom he is inuisiblie vnited. Thou seest him as a man, and therefore worthy of fauour for humanities sake: Thou seest him not as a Christian, worthy of honor for his secret and yet true vnion with his Sauiour. I will loue euery Christian, for that I see; honour him, for that I shall see.
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Hell it selfe is scarce a more obscure dungeon [Page 174]in comparison of the earth, than earth is in respect of heauen. Heere, the most see nothing, and the best see little: Heere, halfe our life is night; and our verie day is darkenesse, in respect of GOD. The true light of the worlde, and the Father of lights dwelleth aboue: There is the light of knowledge to informe vs, and the light of ioy to comfort vs; without all change of darkenesse. There was neuer any captiue loued his dungeon, and complained [Page 175]when hee must be brought out to light, & liberty: Whence then is this naturall madnesse in vs men, that wee delight so much in this vncleane, noysome, darke and comfortlesse prison of earth? and thinke not of our release to that lightsome and glorious Paradise aboue vs, without griefe and repining? Wee are sure that wee are not perfectly well heere: If wee could bee as sure, that wee should bee better aboue, wee would not feare changing. Certainly our sense [Page 176]tells vs, wee haue some pleasure heere; and wee haue not faith to assure vs of more pleasure aboue, and hence wee settle our selues to the present, with neglect of the future, though infinitely more excellent: The heart followes the eyes: and vnknowen good is vncared for; O Lord, doe thou breake through this darkenesse of ignorance, and faithlesnesse, wherewith I am compassed. Let me but see my heauen, and I knowe I shall desire it.
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To bee caried away with an affectation of fame is so vaine, and absurd, that I wonder it can bee incident to any wise man: For what a mole-hill of earth is it, to which his name can extend, when it is furthest carried by the wings of report? And how short a while doth it continue where it is once spread? Time (the deuourer of his owne broode) consumes both vs and our memories; [Page 178]not brasse, nor marble, can beare age. How many flattering Poets haue promised immortalitie of name to their Princes, who now together are buried long since in forgetfulnesse. Those names and actions, that are once on the file of Heauen, are past the daunger of defacing: I will not care whether I bee knowen, or remembred, or forgotten amongst men, if my name and good actions may liue with God in the records of Eternitie.
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There is no man, nor no place free from spirits, although they testifie their presence by visible effects but in fewe. Euerie man is an host to entertain angels, though not in visible shapes as Abraham and Lot. The euil ones doe nothing but prouoke vs to sin; & plot mischiefe against vs; by casting into our way daungerous obiects, by suggesting sinfull motiōs to our mindes, stirring vp enemies against vs amongst men, by frighting vs with terrors in our [Page 180]selues, by accusing vs to God. On the contrary, The good Angels are euer remouing our hinderances from good, and our occasions of euill, mitigating our tentations; helping vs against our enemies; deliuering vs from dangers; cōforting vs in sorowes; furthering our good purposes; and at last carrying vp our soules to heauen. It would affright a weake Christian that knowes the power and malice of wicked spirits, to consider their presence, and number; [Page 181]but when, with the eyes of Elishaes seruant, hee sees those on his side as present, as diligent, more powerfull, he cannot but take heart again: Especially, if hee consider, that neither of them is without God, limiting the one the bounds of their tentation, directing the other in the safegard of his children. Whereupon it is comn to passe, that though there be many legions of diuels, and euery one more strong than many legions of men, and more malicious than strong, yet the [Page 182]little flocke of Gods Church liueth and prospereth: I haue euer with me inuisible friends, and enemies: The consideration of mine enemies shall keepe me from securitie, and make mee fearfull of doing ought to aduantage them. The consideration of my spirituall friends shall comfort mee against the terror of the other; shall remedy my solitarinesse; shall make mee warie of dooing ought indecently; grieuing me rather, that I haue euer heretofore made them [Page 183]turne away their eyes, for shame of that whereof I haue not beene asnamed; that I haue no more enioyed their societie; that I haue been no more affected with their presence. What though I see them not? I beleeue them. I were no Christian, if my faith were not as sure as my sense.
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There is no worde or action, but may be taken with two handes; either with the right hand of charitable cōstructiō, or [Page 184]the finister interpretation of malice, and suspicion: and all things doe so succeede, as they are taken. I haue noted, euill actions well taken, passe currant for either indifferent, or commendable: Contrarily, a good speech or action ill taken, scarce allowed for indifferent; an indifferent one, censured for euill; an euill one for notorious: So fauor makes vertues of vices; and suspicion makes vertues, faults; and faults, crimes. Of the two I had rather my right hand should [Page 185]offend: It is alwayes safer offending on the better part. To construe an euill act well, is but a pleasing and profitable deceite of my selfe: But to misconstrue a good thing is a treble wrong; to my self, the action, the author. If no good sense can be made of a deed, or speach, let the blame light vpon the author: If a good interpretation may bee giuen and I chuse a worse, let mee bee as much censured of others, as that misconceit is punishment to my selfe.
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I knowe not how it comes to passe, that the minde of man doth naturally both ouer-prize his owne in comparison of others, and yet contemne and neglect his owne in comparison of what he wants. The remedie of this later euill is to compare the good things we haue, with the euils which we haue not, and others grone vnder: Thou art in health and regardest it not; Looke on the miserie of those which on their bed of sicknes, through extreamity [Page 187]of paine & anguish, intreat death to release them. Thou hast cleare eye-sight, sound lims, vse of reason; and passest these ouer with slight respect: Thinke how many there are, which in their vncomfortable blindnes, would giue all the world for but one glimpse of light. How many that deformedly crawle on all foure, after the maner of the most loathsom creatures; how many that in mad phrensies are worse than blutish, worse than dead: thus thou mightest be, and art not. If I be not [Page 188]happie for the good that I haue, I am yet happie for the euils that I might haue had, and haue escaped: I haue deserued the greatest euill; euery euill that I misse, is a new mercie.
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Earth, which is the basest element, is both our mother that brought vs foorth, our stage that beares vs aliue, and our graue where in at last we are entombed; giuing to vs both our original, our harbour, our sepulchre: Shee hath yeelded her back to beare thousands [Page 189]of generations; and at last opened her wombe to receiue them; so swallowing them vp, that she still both beareth more, and lookes for more; not bewraying any change in her selfe, while shee so oft hath changed her broode, and her burden. It is a wonder we can be proud of our parentage, or of our selues, while wee see both the basenesse, and stabilitie of the earth, whence we came. What differēce is there? Liuing earth treads vpon the dead earth, which afterwards descends into [Page 190]the graue, as senselesse and dead, as the earth that receiues it. Not many are proud of their soules; and none but fooles can bee proud of their bodies. While we walke and looke vpon the earth, we cannot but acknowledge sensible admonitions of humilitie; and while we remember them, we cannot forget our selues. It is a mother-like fauour of the earth, that she beares and nourishes me, and at the last entertaines my dead carcasse: but it is a greater pleasure, that she teacheth [Page 191]mee my vilenesse by her owne, and sends me to heauen, for what she wants.
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The wicked man carrieth euery day a brand to his hell, till his heape be comne to the height: then he ceaseth sinning, and begins his torment. Whereas the repentant, in euery fit of holy sorrowe, carries away a whole faggot from the flame, and quencheth the coales that remaine, with his teares. There is no [Page 192]tormēt for the penitent; no redemption for the obstinate. Safety consisteth not in not sinning, but in repenting: neither is it sin that condemnes; but impenitence. O Lord I cannot be righteous? let me be repentant.
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The estate of he auenly and earthly things is plainely represented to vs, by the two lights of heauen, which are appointed to rule the night and the day. Earthly things are rightly resembled [Page 193]by the moon, which being neerest to the region of mortalitie, is euer in changes, and neuer lookes vpon vs twise with the same face, and when it is at the full, is blemished with some darke blots, not capable of any illuminatiō: Heauenly things are figured by the Sun, whose great & glorious light is both naturall to it selfe, and euer constant. That other fickle and dimme starre is fit enough for the night of miserie, wherein we liue here belowe. And this firme and [Page 194]beautifull light is but good enough for that day of glory, which the Saints liue in. If it bee good liuing here, where our sorrowes are changed with ioyes; what is it to liue aboue, where our ioyes change not? I cannot looke vpon the body of the Sunne: and yet I cannot see at all without the light of it. I cannot behold the glory of thy Saints, O Lord; yet without the knowledge of it, I am blinde. If thy creature be so glorious to vs here belowe; how glorious shall thy [Page 195]selfe be to vs, when wee are aboue this Sun? This Sunne shal not shine vpward; where thy glory shineth: the greater light extinguisheth the lesser. O thou Sunne of righteousnesse (which shalt only shine to mee, when I am glorified) doe thou heate, inlighten, comfort me with the beames of thy presence, till I be glorified.
Amen.