ELEGY I.
The ARGUMENT.
In this
Elegy, under the representation of an
Old Man, the
Poet seems to repine at
Fate for imposing
Life on him too long, and aggravates the Miseries of his
Age, by giving a Character of himself, as he was when young, by the remembrance of those happy Days past; after which he describes the several Diseases and inconvenienc
[...]es attending him now
Old, concluding the Elegy with a reflection on the happiness of those who dye before their
Age becomes a burthen to them.
WHy, envious
Age, do'st with a ling'ring stay,
My
wasting Life to
growing Pains betray,
And the kind Stroak of welcome
Death delay?
[Page 2] Why wilt thou not inlarge my
Soul to Ease,
And the vext Pris'ner from his Jayl release?
To me 'tis worst of Punishments to live,
And
Death alone a
peacefull Rest can give.
Cold and Disease inhabit me all o'er,
And what I was in
Youth, I'm now no more;
A trembling Faintness loosens ev'ry Limb,
And dizz'd
Vertigoes through my Brains do swim:
Light, which to all the World do's Joy dispence,
To me, unhappy Mourner, gives Offence;
Ev'n
Mirth but serves my
Sorrows to inrage;
Mirth, which can Youthfull Griefs so well assuage,
Becomes th'
Antiperistasis of
Age.
But then to live of mere Necessity,
And wish for Death, is worse than 'tis to dye.
While gracefull
Youth remain'd, & vig'rous
sence,
The wond'ring
World prais'd my fam'd
Eloquence.
Oft with Success
Poetick Lyes I feign'd,
And sure Renown by pleasant Fictions gain'd:
[Page 3] Oft the contended
Lawrel was my own,
And the rich
Bays around my Temples shone.
But all these Pleasures, all these Joys are past,
And a dead Numbness all my Vitals wast.
Ah! what an uncouth part of
Life remains
To
Aged Men, fill'd with Disease, and Pains.
But
Nature to my Youth excessive kind,
With all these Gifts a gracefull
Beauty joyn'd.
Beauty, which of it self has Power to move,
And claim from Men
Respect, from Women
Love.
But I had
Vertue too, which do's out-shine
The brightest
Gold dug out of
Indian Mine,
And renders
Wit more noble and divine.
If e'er invited by the op'ning
Hound,
I did the Woods with eager
Chase surround;
The frighted
Game by me alone was slain,
And shunn'd the vigour of my Arms in vain;
[...]
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[Page 4] Or when with Youthfull heat and warmth inflam'd
I gave Pursuit to ruthfull Beasts untam'd.
Not without prais'd Success did I imploy
My deadly Arrows, certain to destroy.
Sometimes, when I beheld the brave Resort,
Where active
Wrestlers strove in manly sport.
The bold Engagements I would often chuse,
And artfull strength, with sinewie Limbs could use:
Sometimes I have with practis'd Racers run,
And oft the Goal from fleetest Coursers won.
Buskin'd sometimes, in
Sophoclean Verse,
I could a Noble Tragedy reherse.
While trading Players
blush't to be out-done
In gracefull Action, and a moving Tone.
Nor did I lose the least degree of Praise,
Because my Skill was good so many ways;
But rather found it heighten'd my Desert,
As various Works shews most the
Master's Art.
[Page 5] If in one
Grace alone we Pleasure find,
When 'tis with other noble
Vertues joyn'd,
Twill more exalt, and more affect the
Mind.
But then a hardy
Suff'rance there was found,
Which all my other manly
Vertues crown'd;
A
Suff'rance which invincible remain'd,
Against all Ills, and worst of Harms disdain'd;
For unconcern'd, from Injury secure,
With a bare Front all Storms I could endure.
Harmless as drops of Oyl
around my Head,
The violent Rain was innocently shed;
Ev'n roughest Winds assaulted me in vain,
Like sturdy Oaks,
I could their Rage sustain.
The
Sun in
Cancer, or in
Capricorn,
By me unprejudic'd alike was born.
And
Tybers colder Streams I durst invade
In hoary Frosts, fearless, and undismay'd:
Nor did the doubtfull Dangers of the
Sea,
From Voyages deter, or frighten me.
To me
short Sleeps could
long Refreshments give,
And mod'rate
Meals my
Hunger could relieve.
Yet if a jolly drunken Friend I found,
Inclin'd to pass the moving Goblets round,
And spend the happy hours of some smooth day,
In chasing with
brisk Wine,
dull Cares away.
My stronger Brains could undisorder'd bear,
Of strongest Liquors, an unmeasur'd share.
My sturdiest
Guest with Ease I overcame,
Though he, with others, gain'd a Victor's Fame.
Had Father
Bacchus ventur'd in for one,
Not Father
Bacchus had unconquer'd gon.
Thus 'tis no very easie thing to find,
Two Contrarieties within one Mind,
By the soft tye of Concord's bands confin'd.
And so 'tis fam'd, that the great
Socrates,
Possessing
opposite Varieties,
Was
gayly Pleasant, and
severely Wise.
[Page 7]
That he was skill'd, and that he could excell,
As well in drinking,
as in reas'ning
well.
And
Cato oft would rigid Thoughts decline,
To sate his Sences with delicious Wine;
Nought in it self is good, or bad, we know,
And Circumstances only make things so:
For what's perform'd with grace, with wit, and sence,
Cannot be call'd a vice
by no Pretence;
'Tis that can only Ill and Vicious be,
That's slubber'd o'er, and acted slovenlie.
Unmov'd, and fearless,
Fate's worst spite I bore,
And on my Brows no heavy Sorrows wore;
Pomp and
Adversitie to me were one,
No
Grief for this, no
Joy for that was shewn.
A gen'rous
Poverty I always lov'd,
And
Avarice by full
Content remov'd.
I all things had, because I nought desir'd,
Enjoy'd my own, my Neighbours ne'er requir'd.
[Page 8] Thou, dolefull
Age, alone do'st me subdue,
Who conquers all things else, must yield to you.
To thee we run, all sading things are thine,
And with thy Evil last all things decline.
Thus in my Youth adorn'd
Hetruria strove,
With her best
Beauties for my Nuptial
Love;
But
Hymen's Fetters I unfit to bear,
Did Liberty to golden Bonds prefer.
When e'er I walk't the stately Streets of
Rome,
Gay in my vernal Strength, and youthfull Bloom
Each longing
Maid gaz'd with a wishing Eye,
To see my prom'sing Parts as I past by:
Blushing a
Nymph, my Visits would receive,
Yet of her Joy many dear Tokens give;
And smiling, into some fly Corner run,
As if she would my gratefull Kindness shun;
Where, undiscover'd, long she could not be,
But laugh aloud to be found out by me;
[Page 9] More pleas'd with being caught, than close conceal'd,
And only hid,
that she might be reveal'd.
So I to all seem'd pleasing, kind, and fair,
A
Lover only, nor would more declare;
For kindly
Nature had bestow'd on me
A modest, and a chast Severitie.
No
Beauty of sufficient force could prove,
To make me with a wedded Life in love;
Nor any
Nymph appear'd so fair to me,
That I should buy her with my Libertie:
Howe'er a Face might charming seem before,
The thoughts of Hymen
made it so no more.
Thus while I was so nice in choice of one,
Exactly perfect, I remain'd alone.
The
Short I lov'd not, and the
Tall did hate;
The
Lean disdain'd, and loath'd the fulsome
Fat.
I only lik'd the
Medium of all these;
The
Middle still is best, and best do's please.
[Page 10] Soft
Luxury do's there the Body grace,
And there do's
Love his sacred Temple place.
I did i'th'
Slender, not the
Lean delight;
Flesh satiates best the
fleshy Appetite.
As Body is by Body gently prest,
The height of Pleasure then must be confest,
When the kind
Touch no meager Bones molest.
The
Pale, and clear Complexion I abhorr'd,
Unless with
Nature's
Roses richly stor'd;
For
Venus claims that Flower as her own,
Because in all her Votaries 'tis shewn.
The untry'd Virgin blushes forth a Rose,
And modestly a Shame for loving shews.
Experienc'd Lovers too this Flower bear,
And in their Cheeks after Joys tasted wear.
The golden
Hair, and white declining
Neck,
Denote a
Wit, and claim a just Respect.
Black Brows, a Forehead large, and sparkling Eyes,
Would oft my Heart with
Love, and
Awe surprize.
[Page 11] I lov'd the
Ruby, moist, and swelling
Lip,
Where I could Kisses tast, and Nectar sip.
A long round Neck made Gold appear more sine,
And Jewels with a double Lustre shine.
But all these Pleasures, which to
Youth were dear,
Offends distastfull
Age, but ev'n to hear;
For diff'rent Things, oblige our diff'rent Years,
What once was decent, now a Crime appears.
The wanton
Boy loves light
Inconstancie,
And
Age affects a settled
Gravitie.
But gracefull
Youth arriv'd to manly growth,
Remains the
Golden Mean betwixt 'em both.
This heedfull Silence best becomes, and that
Delights in noisie Mirth, and empty Chat.
Time conquers all things, and we must submit
To all the cruel Tyrannies of it.
He suffers nought in certain Paths to range,
But with himself do's ev'ry Being change.
[Page 12] Now therefore since my
Age do's burthen me,
And useless is, come
Death and set me free;
But oh! in vain I beg for Libertie!
On what hard terms poor Mortals
Life receive;
Who, when opprest, cannot themselves relieve,
By
Death at Pleasure, but must tortur'd live!
'Tis to the Miserable sweet to dye,
But courted
Death from them do's coyly fly,
And where unwelcome, there approaches nigh.
But I, while living, tread in Paths of
Death,
And faintly draw a meer departing Breath:
For Age
to me the Ʋse of Sence denies,
And grants but an imperfect Exercise,
Of all my Reasonable Faculties.
My
Hearing fails me, and do's each day wast,
Nor can my
Gust relish the best Repast,
With me ev'n balmy Kisses lose their tast.
My sunken
Eyes can scarce discover day,
The Sun methinks shines with a glimm'ring Ray.
[Page 13] Now not the most transporting
Bliss can be
By my unactive
Touch convey'd to me.
No Pleasure more in gratefull scents I take,
For
Smelling do's my frigid Nose forsake,
Me senceless thus, who'd not for Dead mistake!
No use have I of former
Memorie,
Ev'n what I was is now forgot by me;
As if of
Lethe I had drunk, each day
My
Mind do's with my languid
Corps decay.
No
Verses now I sing, that Pleasure's done,
And my sweet tunefull
Voice, alas, is gone.
Delicious
Poems I no longer feign,
To please an Audience with my
Commick Vein.
No more throng'd
Theatres (while I complain)
Applaud my Numbers, and my
Tragick strain;
But
Avarice for Gold, and worldly Care,
Draw me to scold at the
litigious Bar;
Which cruel Trouble makes me seem no more,
Than the faint Image of my self before;
[Page 14] For Death-like Paleness now takes up that Place,
Which White and Red before had in my Face;
Like gather'd Fruit my
Age dries up my Skin,
And shrinks, and stiffens ev'ry
Nerve within.
My
Eyes, which heretofore with
Love could smile,
And yielding Hearts of tender Maids beguile;
Now with continual flowing Rheums are sore,
And day and night in Tears, their
Fate deplore:
Now brisly Woods for Brows impending grow,
Which did before like Summer Garlands show.
Strangely methinks, and most imperfectlie,
My Eyes, I know not how, in Torment see:
For being dim'd with moist Rheumatick Tears,
Each thing to me so frightfully appears;
As what past by without, is sadly seen
By melancholy, and despairing Men,
From the deep Cavern of a darksome Den.
Thus poor
Old Men by their own Horrours fed,
Both to themselves, and others become dead;
For who'd not guess, when
Reason's gon,
Life fled?
[Page 15] If
Books I take, with hopes in them to find,
Something to ease, or to delight my Mind.
'Tis still in vain, for my deceitfull Eyes
Shows ev'ry Letter in a doubling size,
And ev'ry Leaf grows dull, and magnifies.
The clearest Light through Clouds I only see,
For ev'n those very Clouds are made by me:
An obscure Dusk deprives me of the Day,
And takes it unassisted by the Night away.
Thus I amidst
Tartarian Darkness dwell,
And ev'ry Object represents my
Hell.
Who then would live such a curst Wretch to be,
Like me tormented to that vast Degree,
To hope Relief from a worse Miserie?
I'm now possest of ev'ry Ill Disease,
Feasts, and Delights of
Epicure displease,
And that I still may live, to live I cease.
Me, whom no Hardship could abuse of old,
Want, or Excess of Food, of Heat, or Cold.
[Page 16] Now what should nourish me, do's cause my Pain,
And even Food becomes my certain Bane.
Would I be fill'd,
eating creates my Grief;
Would I
abstain, ev'n that gives no Relief.
The Dish that pleas'd my Palate just before,
Is now thrown by, and can delight no more.
No Pleasure more in gentle
Love I find,
Though
Venus self should offer to be kind;
Ev'n
Wine for me has no more Charms in store,
Which can relieve the bad, inrich the Poor.
Sick
Nature but remains weak, and opprest,
And with its own worst Evil is distrest.
Those Diet-drinks which cleans'd me heretofore,
And well-prov'd
Physick, now can work no more.
All which, to others
sick, some Ease can give,
Cannot the sad Disease of Age
relieve:
For how should
Physick in that Case prevail,
When even that do's with the Body fail;
And that same Cup from whence I Med'cines sip,
Receives Infection from my
putrid Lip.
[Page 17] These ineffectual Props are rais'd in vain,
A fierce precipitating Ruin to sustain.
No Shows or Triumphs can obleige my sight,
I cannot now ev'n counterfeit Delight.
Beauty, the chiefest Magazene of
Love,
And a good Dress, which
Beauty can improve;
To
Age becomes the object of his Rage,
But even
Life offends capricious
Age;
Nay Banquets, Singing, and gay Jests displease
Unhappy those, whose Pleasure is Disease!
What solid Bliss can unus'd
Riches grant,
For much, though I possess, yet more I want.
To me 'tis Pain to touch my own Estate,
And hoarded Gold a Crime to violate.
So
Tantalus do's in deep Water stand,
But for his
Thirst cannot one drop command▪
I make my self but
Custos of my own,
For others to enjoy when I am gon.
[Page 18] So was the
Dragon in the Garden plac'd,
To watch the
golden Fruit, but not to tast.
Thus I solicitous, with
Care opprest,
To my teiz'd Mind refuse a needfull Rest;
Still coveting, and craving still for more,
I ne'er abate, if not increase my Store,
And maugre all, imagine I am poor.
Nor are these all the Plagues that wait on me,
For I become my own worst Enemie.
Doubtfull, and trembling, credulous of Ill,
And fearfull of my own best Actions still.
Yet in my Notions obstinately wise,
I praise the
past, the
present Age despise;
None learn'd but me, or skilfull I believe,
O
[...] my own Prudence only positive,
By wilfull Doatage most my self deceive.
Much do I talk, and talk it o'er, and o'er,
And yet am troublesome by telling more.
[Page 19] I drivle out a slav'ring Speech so long,
You'd wish a present Palsie seiz'd my Tongue.
To
Death y'are tired, yet unweary'd I
Persist to kill you with
Garrulitie.
Oh miserable
Age, which canst but give,
Strength to Mankind to become talkative!
In ev'ry Place my loud Complaints are heard;
They're heard indeed, but never gain Regard.
Nothing can please me, nothing can suffice;
Now this I covet, that anon despise.
Old-men
to Infants
we may well compare,
Whose changing Wills
as fond, and peevish are.
When e'er I make my self a
Witty Fool,
And my
grave Tail is very
ridicule.
If my tir'd Audience do's but laugh aloud,
I'm mightily oblieg'd, and mighty proud;
I smile with them, and flatt'ring my
Conceit,
Heighten their
Laugh with the same strains of Wit.
A pleasing Joy o'er-spreads my wrinkled Face,
And I am tickled with my own Disgrace.
Thus these are the First Fruits of
Death, with these
Down to the
Grave I march by slow degrees.
My Form, my Dress, my Colour, Shape, and Meen,
Are not the same, which heretofore they've been.
My Body now inclin'd, and awkward grown,
Lets my large Coat slide from my shoulders down;
And what was short before, seems now a Gown.
I so contracted, and decreas'd appear,
You'd think my very Bones deminish't were.
I'm no more privileg'd to look on high,
To contemplate the rich, and spacious
Sky;
But prone to
Earth, from whence I came, I tend
To shew where I began, there I must end.
Three Feet I use, but streight I shall use four,
And brought to Childhood, crawl upon the Floor.
To its first
Principle each thing resolves,
What ris' from
Nought, to
Nought again devolves.
Hence 'tis that I, mould'ring to
Dust am found,
With my old Staff poking the lazy Ground;
[Page 21] And my short steps, moving with weakly pace,
But slowly quitting the
attractive Place;
Seem thus to mutter my
Complaints, and pray
With belching Jaws to
Earth against Delay.
Mother, receive thy
Child, pitty his pain,
And in thy Bosome cherish me again,
For hardly can my Leggs their Load sustain.
My loathsome Figure now moves no Delight,
And my sad gastly Looks the Boys affright,
For fear they shun me, and abhor my Sight.
Why to thy
Brood do'st shew such Crueltie,
To let me thus a common
Bugbear be?
My bus'ness now with
Mankind here is none,
The wretched Task of
Life by me is done;
With all its various Trouble, various Toyl:
Receive me therefore to my proper
Soil.
What Pleasure is't to see me undergo,
So many diff'rent Penalties of
Wo?
Is it a
Mother's part to use me so?
Scarce have I Strength thus even to complain,
And scarce my Staff my trembling Limbs sustain;
But with my Labour, and my Grief opprest,
Lolling upon my Couch, I seek for Rest.
Where stretch't along upon th' uneasie Bed,
I represent an Earthie
Body dead;
Such as it is, when once the
Soul is fled.
Thus when I loll, and stretch, who would believe
That I am sensible, at all, or live;
Though this indeed, what
Life I have, do's give.
My
Life is but one intire Punishment,
And all the World
but one whole Discontent.
Heat burns my Body,
Clouds offend my Sight;
Nor do's the cold, or clearer
Air delight:
The Summer Dews are hurtfull to my Head,
And as Infections,
April Showers I dread.
The chearfull Days of the gay blooming
Spring,
Nor
Autumn's jolly Vintage, nor any thing
To me the least reviving Joy can bring.
[Page 23] But, wretched I, with
Scurf, and
Scab o'er-run,
And with the
Ptisick, and
Chin-Cough undone;
My miserable
Age it self bemoans,
With never-ceasing, and continual Groans.
And can you think those
Creatures live, to whom
The
Air, by which we breath, and
Light become
Hatefull, and grievous, sad, and troublesome?
Ev'n
Sleep, Death's gentle, gratefull Imagerie,
Which, for a
Time, do's wretched Mortals free;
From the unquiet Thoughts of
Miserie,
Still flies away, and shuns unhappy me.
And if he do's vouchsafe, though late, to close
My heavy Eyes, he troubles my
Repose
With horrid frightfull Dreams, and dreadfull Sights,
Of fatal
Specters, and of murther'd
Sprights.
Down Beds, or Beds of
Stone are much the same,
And seem to me to differ but in name.
Though softest
Silks my thin light Cov'ring be,
Heavy they seem, and troublesome to me.
Often I rise to break imperfect Rest.
Thus urg'd by my weak
Bodies sad Defect,
I do those very things I would neglect;
And striving many Evils to avoid,
My Health by many Evils is destroy'd.
Thus
Age coming on unheeded, and unsought,
With multitudes of heavy Mischiefs fraught,
Submission to its own sad Weight is taught.
Who therefore would a tedious
Life desire,
And so by piece-meal painfully expire?
Then in the
Flesh the
Soul should bury'd lye;
And to live dying better once to dye.
Alas! I don't complain, because I'd give
A six't
Prescription how long Man should live.
'Tis an unpardonable Crime, I know,
To circumscribe great
Nature by my Law.
I only wish that I might meet my Fate,
E'er Age
should all my Pleasures captivate.
[Page 25]
E'er Time
with his rank Ills my Life
invade;
Time,
which makes all things wear away, and fade.
The sturdy
Bull by
Time deficient grows,
Nor use of former noble Courage knows.
The proud, gay, mettled
Horse, of late so good,
By
Age becomes the Scandal of the
Stud:
This can abate the furious
Lyon's Rage,
And the fierce
Tyger gentle grows with
Age.
Antiquitie makes even
Rocks decay,
And ev'ry thing, alas, to
Time gives way.
Wherefore I rather would
anticipate
My growing Miseries by
swifter Fate,
And all my Punishment at once would feel,
Nor wait in painfull Expectation still.
But who can tell the Sorrows, and the Pain,
VVhich not themselves, but others do sustain?
Thus poor Old men increase their grievous Care,
By minding how much they unpitty'd are,
Of those, who cannot in their Suff'rings share.
Hence 'tis that
Age, forsaken friendless
Age,
Do's in so many scolding Broyls engage.
[Page 26] Meeting with such Contempts, such Detriments,
While none, in his behalf, his Harms resents.
The rogu'ish Boys, and wanton Girls agree,
Both to despise, abuse, and laugh at me;
For Master, me, they think 'tis shame to own,
Because with Age I'm despicable grown.
They flout my Gate, my Face, and trembling Head,
Whose angry Nod they heretofore would dread.
Though my dim'd sight small help to me do's give,
Yet I shall certainly my
Shame perceive.
No rude affronts by me unseen can go,
But I must mark 'em to compleat my Woe.
Thrice happy, sure, is the deserving
He,
Who leads his
Life in calm Tranquillitie;
And e'er with
Age his Strength is quite decay'd,
Is from the
World by timely
Death convey'd;
For to remember former Happiness,
Do's but increase the wretched Man's Distress.
ELEGY II.
The ARGUMENT.
In this
Elegy the
Poet mourns the Inconstancy of his Mistriss, and seems to attribute the Cause of it to his being
Old: nevertheless he endeavours, by several Arguments, to perswade her to continue her
Love to him still; but despairing of Success, he ends the
Elegy with a Complaint.
BUT lo,
Lycoris, my inconstant
Fair,
To me too faithless, and to me too dear.
She whose
Desires, whose
Soul, and mine were one,
And long we undevided liv'd alone;
Secure, I thought, of such a lasting Love,
And Happiness,
as nothing could remove.
But now by strange Infatuations led,
The
stupify'd Ingrate avoids my Bed;
[Page 28] And from my aged, and enfeebl'd Arms,
To younger
Lovers bears her sprightly Charms.
Of former Joys forgetfull all the while,
Do's me decrepid, old, unable stile;
Nor recollects those many Pleasures past,
Which she with vast Delight so oft would tast,
And my unhappy
Age so much did hast:
Nay the ungratefull, the perfidious She,
To cast the
odium of her Crime on me,
Feigns that my Faults caus'd her Inconstancie.
Perhaps hereafter, when she may espy
Me, weaken'd with my
Age, as I pass by;
With Hood, or Fan, she'll seem to hide her Eyes,
And me, in these
opprobrious terms, despise.
Bless me! did I e'er love this antick Thing?
Could his Embraces any Pleasure bring?
Those rivell'd Jaws, or Lips, did I e'er kiss,
Or kindly grant him the
exalted Bliss?
[Page 29] She'll nauseate me, and in Contempt will seem,
To spew my
Love up like a loathsome Flegme.
Alas! what Comforts can
Old Age afford?
You see with what prime Blessings it is stor'd.
VVhat once could move Delight, and Love engage,
Becomes despis'd when sowr'd with crabbed
Age.
VVas't not enough, that I had liv'd to be,
To the full growth of manly Decencie?
VVhen all I did was acted with a Grace,
Active my Mind, and beautifull my Face.
E'er I became offensive, and despis'd,
Sordid, unpleasing, hatefull, and unpris'd.
VVhat e'er I've liv'd before, is nothing now,
In all the Circumstances where, or how.
Time with himself has taken all away,
That was e'er chearfull, pleasant, brisk, or gay.
VVhite falling Hairs are now around my Head,
And my pale Face would seem to speak me dead.
[Page 30] Yet bright, and beautifull she still appears,
Nor grows
less charming, tho'
more grown in Years;
Which she but too well sees, and too well knows,
Therefore, with inward heat of Pride she glows.
And, I confess, she still retains the Grace
And Influence of her once dearer Face.
And in the Embers still the hidden Flame
Of Love, do's both conceal'd, and warm remain.
So that I see
Age do's contrive to spare,
And favour too, as all things else, the Fair.
For all her Beauties are not quite decreast,
Sh' as still enough t' inflame the youngest Breast:
But
Old Men feed on Reliques of their Love,
And former Action but in Thought can prove.
Unable to perform as heretofore,
They all past
Joys to Memory restore;
Tickle with that, and grieve they can no more.
And after all, what can the wretched gain,
But the sad privilege, to entertain,
Their own Misfortunes, Misery, and Pain.
[Page 31] Thoughts of lost Happiness gives no Relief,
They only serve more to inrage the Grief.
But since of former Vigour I'm bereft,
Nor to give kind Embraces Strength have left.
Therefore my false Lycoris,
must not we
Sometimes remember past Felicitie?
Must former Joys be vanishing, and vain,
Like tracks of Cattle in a sandy Plain?
Must we forget all that was done before,
And think of happy Pleasures past no more?
Why, even
Brutes shun Pastures, new, and strange,
And
Sheep in unknown Walks refuse to range:
The
Bull his old frequented Shades do's love,
Nor will the
Flocks from their known Folds remove:
Sweetest in wonted Brambles
Philomel
Do's sing, and her sad mournfull Story tell.
But you alone experienc'd Friendship shun,
And to an untry'd Entertainment run.
[Page 32] Were it not better far that you confide
In Certainties, and things that you have try'd?
Various Events still Novelties attend,
As they begin, they very seldom end.
If you object my
Age, remember too,
That creeping
Age is stealing upon you.
Therefore let that instruct you to be wise,
And do not me, because I'm grey, despise.
Old Time
will silver
too thy golden
Hair,
For he
do's neither Sex nor Beauty spare.
We often find that
parity of Years,
Two Minds by
parity of
Love endears.
What though I cannot act as once I could,
Let it suffice that I did well of old.
The
Husbandman, whose Strength is lost in Years,
Still reverend to younger
Swains appears.
The
Young do's still the Courage, and the Fire,
Which in the
elder Souldier was admire.
[Page 33] The
Swain is griev'd to loose his expert Steer;
And, to the
Trooper, his
old Horse is dear.
But oh, alas, Love
only can subsist,
And live, and act within a Youthfull Breast:
And sprightfull blooming Youth
alone can prove,
The fittest Object for a perfect Love.
But yet sad
Age has not quite plundred me,
Of all my
Rhetorick, and Gayetie:
For still I can my dolefull Tale reherse,
In tunefull Numbers, and in flowing
Verse.
Slight not mature, and solid
Gravitie,
Nor venerable
Age, but let it be
Esteem'd, and valu'd, as desir'd by thee.
Condemn not in another what so fain,
You for your self would willingly obtain.
Seems it not strange in one, and foolish too,
To slight that
Voyage which themselves must go.
[Page 34] Call me your Brother, or your dearest Friend,
Or Father, either of 'em Love intend.
Let
Lust to
Honour yield, as now 'tis fit,
And to pure
Piety let
Love submit.
Thus I with tears lament my weak
Old Age,
But that cannot my troubl'd Thoughts assuage;
For long discourse of Grief, do's Grief enrage.
ELEGY III.
The ARGUMENT.
In this
Elegy the
Poet gives an account how he was very much in love, when but a
Boy; and that the young Creature, with whom he was so Enamour'd, return'd his Passion to the full: yet after all, when with much toyl and difficulty it was so brought about that he had Liberty to enjoy her, he would not, but was then (by having that privilege granted him) cured of his
Love.
BUT now perhaps it may in part Assuage,
The violent Griefs, of my tormented
Age;
A while the mournfull Story to suspend,
Of Ills which do my
present Days attend.
To recollect
things past, and call to mind
Those Years, which Time has left so far behind;
[Page 36]
Those tender Years wherein my Life
was free
From all Disquiets, Love!
but only thee!
For
Aquilina did my Heart invade,
And I ador'd the Fair, the Beaut'ous Maid.
To that degree I burnt, that I became
Pale, mad, and melancholy with the Flame:
Yet even then my childish Innocence,
Preserv'd me free from Scandal, and Offence;
For Ignorant of
Love, and quite unskill'd
In
Venus Arts, yet with Desire fill'd:
Something I wish't, but innocent of what,
Did my own Miserie the more create.
Nor was the excellent, the charming She
Less griev'd, or less disturb'd with
Love of me:
For though she conquer'd, yet she was o'er-come,
And could not carry perfect Triumphs home:
But heated with her Passion, and Desire,
In vain she strove to shun th' internal Fire:
[Page 37] Restless from place to place, for Ease she flew,
But with her, what she would avoid, she drew.
With Charms at distance we each other caught,
And lov'd unknowing what we either thought.
In Solitude we hop'd to find Redress,
And secret Love,
in Secret
to repress;
But that, alas! did but our Loves
increase.
Then we sought out a more obleiging way,
To feed, and feast our Passions ev'ry day,
By the Exchange of kind, and gentle
Words;
Words,
which to Lover's
Flames, Fuel affords;
Yet we could only cherish the dear
Fire,
With fruitless wishing
Looks, and vain
Desire.
To
me a cruel
Pedagogue gave law,
And
her a carefull
Mother kept in awe;
Thus we both lov'd, but no Success foresaw.
Our very
Eyes, our very
Nods they watch't,
And at all little Circumstances catch't:
Each change of Colour with a carefull Eye,
They mark't, by that our Passions to descry.
With Industry, and with deceitfull Arts,
A while the growing
Passions of our Hearts;
Ev'n from each other we kept unreveal'd,
And with much Pain our Sufferings conceal'd.
But then at last our
Love so fierce became,
That we no longer could suppress the
Flame.
We find it much too hard, and cruel too,
To hide
a Light which so apparent
grew;
For frequent Blushes, Sighs, and thousand things,
Declar'd our Wishes, and our Languishings.
But oh what Joys, what Ecstasies were shown,
When we to each durst our hid Passions own.
Then oft in private we together came,
And with Discourse blow'd up the pleasing Flame.
What cunning Plots we've us'd, what sly deceit,
To cheat our Spies, and undiscover'd meet.
Whole Nights in whisp'ring Murmurs, & soft Tread,
We've spent, while drowsie Watches snor'd in Bed.
[Page 39] And if we fail'd of such an Enterprize,
Too strictly guarded by our curious Spies,
We could, in spite, converse with
speaking Eyes.
In vain they strove our Glances to constrain,
They spoke our mutual Wishes, & our mutual Pain.
Disorder'd thus, not long unmark't I liv'd,
For my observing
Mother soon perceiv'd,
The sad, unusual, melancholy
Care,
Which did in all my Words, and Acts appear;
And quickly guest the fatal
Cause was
Love,
Whom she design'd by Rigour to remove.
She thought my
Passion with a Rod to quell,
But that provok't it, stubborn, to rebell▪
Her cruel Usage could effect no
Cure,
For Love,
alas! had taught me to endure.
All only serv'd more to inflame
Desire,
Like added
Fuel to increase the
Fire.
Nothing could chase the Stranger
from my Breast;
My Health decay'd,
but still my Love increast.
[Page 40] This rough Experiment she try'd in vain,
For
Love do's all Restraint, and Force disdain.
And I within was more severely vext,
Doubly with mingled
Fear, and
Love perplext.
Then with
Maternal Tenderness, she strove,
By Sighs, and Tears my wilfull Mind to move;
Believing that her
Sorrows might prevail,
On
filial Duty to relate the Tale:
But even that soft Stratagem
did fail.
At last, she thought, since nothing else could do,
To make pretence that she already knew;
And seeming pleas'd, and speaking smilingly,
Said, why do'st strive to keep ought hid from me?
Alas, canst thou believe that I am blind,
By all thy Words, and Actions not to find,
That secret
Love distracts thy tender Mind.
For did not I but very lately see,
Some wanton Songs, and Verses made by thee.
Then be obedient, let thy Mother know,
Who cruel Pains for thee did undergo.
[Page 41] Acquaint me freely, lay aside your Fear,
Tell me the naked Truth of all, my Dear.
What then must I thus beg, and sue in vain,
And is this all the Purchase I shall gain?
For Blood diffus'd, and lost to bring thee forth,
And am I, and my Woes, of no more worth?
But if thou do'st preserve thy Chastitie,
Keeping thy self from guilty Action free.
All may be well, and innocent as yet,
And
Time may wear away this fond
Love-sit.
Thus was I daily plagu'd, but yet the
Curse
Was, that I hop'd no
Cure, but still grew worse.
Not daring to discover the hid Pain,
I lov'd, I languish'd, and I griev'd in vain.
Nor needed I at last a
Tongue to tell,
What my consumptive
Paleness did reveal,
And doz'd
Stupidity declar'd so well.
Thou mighty Searcher of Mysterious things,
Whose certain Knowledge certain Succour brings.
Bobetius, you alone were truely kind,
Who div'd into the Secrets of my Mind,
And the hid Cause from dark Effects did find.
Well, I remember when you first perceiv'd,
How I was tortur'd, and how I was griev'd.
With gentle
Words you prob'd the tender Wound,
And by soft soothing the sad secret found;
Urging me to declare my Griefs, and Pain,
As the best means my Temper to regain.
With Ease did you my closed Breast unlock,
When gently arguing, thus to me you spoke;
For an unknown
Disease no
Cure can be,
Conceal your Grief,
and want a Remedie.
As
Fire, when in a Cellar closely pent,
Rages the more for want of
Air, and Vent:
So while your Passions
you with Force constrain;
To burn in secret, you increase the Pain.
Then I half willing, but o'er-rul'd with shame,
Blush't the sad Cause of all my
Griefs to name.
Darkly, at last, my trembling
Tongue exprest,
The rowling
Flames which warm'd my guilty Brest.
Enough, said you, I now enough have seen,
By these Effects to know the Cause within.
Be plain, and tell me all; lay by your Fear,
I cannot else a Remedy prepare.
Thus you prevail'd, I blush't, I wept, and sigh'd,
And nothing of the whole Intreigue could hide.
Down at your Feet to dye, I prostrate fall,
And in its native order told you all.
You ask't, would I possess the
Beautious She?
No, I reply'd, 'twere an
Impietie.
You laugh'd and cry'd; Oh, wonderfull Delight!
Had ever
Venus such a worthy
Wight?
What an unspeakable strange Prodigie,
In
Love, alas! would you appear to be,
Striving to keep a needless Chastitie.
[Page 44] 'Twould be a most unmanly Sin, and base
To spare a longing
Virgin in this Case.
Would you ridiculously strive to be
Pious herein, 'twere worst
Impietie.
Though when perhaps you try to tast the Joy,
She may seem angry, and unkindly coy.
Be not discourag'd at the gratefull Fight,
For Opposition
whets the Appetite;
Makes Love
more fierce, and heightens the Delight.
Young tender Loves are fed with peevish Rage,
And inn'cent Quarrels more the
Hearts ingage.
Virgins untry'd, half yielding, half afraid,
Are in their own Resistance best betray'd.
With secret Pleasure
to soft Force
they yield,
And seemingly displeas'd, give up the Field.
Melted at last, their striving is but weak,
And breathless, thus perhaps they faintly speak:
Ah, do not use a harmless Creature
so,
Still in the midst of Rapture
crying no;
And prithee let me, prithee let me go.
[Page 45]
Thus when he had incourag'd me to hope,
I gave my Wishes
an unbounded Scope.
In the mean time with
Gifts and
Gold he strove,
To bribe her
Parents to allow my
Love;
They easily consent; such strength do's lye,
In the prevailing Force of
Alchimy.
Their natural
Affection soon gave way
To the high
Worship, which to
Gold they pay.
Oh, sacred Metal!
Oh, resistless Gold!
Who can thy strange betwitching Charms
unfold.
'Tis thy unanswerable Eloquence,
Thy weighty Arguments,
and mighty Sence,
Which can perswade poor Mortals
to dispence,
With any Vice,
or Villanous Offence.
So much thou didst her
Parents move herein,
They did not barely suffer, but begin
To love, and so promote their
Daughter's
sin.
All privacies of
Place, all proper
Time,
We were allow'd to forward the sweet
Crime;
[Page 46] They put us hand in hand, and all the day,
A thousand Am'rous toying Tricks we play;
Nay ev'n at last the very
lushious Fact,
They gave us
Opportunity to act:
But there I baulk't, for when to do an Ill,
I
gain'd the Privilege, I
lost the Will.
My
hot Desire strait became
cool within,
When once it was permitted me to sin.
That
Lust which I before could not endure,
The very Power to fulfill did cure.
Then I, and not before began to find,
The miserable Sickness of my Mind.
The
Laws of
Love by me were disobey'd,
When near the wishing, blushing, yielding Maid,
I Languid, and unwillingly was laid.
But she with unexpected coldness us'd,
Blushing with Passion, and with shame confus'd,
Rose up incens'd to be so much abus'd.
And I (to salve the great affront I did)
Cry'd hail untouch't, and sacred
Maidenhead.
[Page 47] Be thou preserv'd for ever pure by me,
And ever spotless, and unblemish't be,
For nought regains a
lost Virginitie.
Thus when she saw all that young
Virgins hold,
More dear, than Userers their ill-got
Gold;
By me neglected, when I might enjoy,
And that my
Love I did my self destroy.
Oh, mighty
Youth, she cry'd, who hast the Pow'r,
Thy self to conquer thy own fierce Amour.
Take to thee all the Glory of the thing,
And be more great than a Triumphing King:
For since thou could'st thy own toil'd
Passions quell,
Ev'n when they were incourag'd to rebell;
Let
Venus Charms, and her Son
Cupid's Bow,
And brave
Minerva's Arms submit to you;
There's nothing now but what you can subdue.
Thus both displeas'd, and melancholy She
Parted, with an uninjur'd
Chastitie.
ELEGY IV.
The ARGUMENT.
In this
Elegy the
Poet gives an account of his loving a young
Maid, very privately, in his
Youth: but at last how in his
Sleep he discover'd what so carefully he conceal'd when
awake; and concludes the
Elegy with a Consideration of the Inconveniencies he lyes under by being Old.
ONE more Intreigue of
Youth I will reherse,
And sate my Genius with my soothing
Verse;
For empty
Tales, and idle
Poetrie,
Are a sit Task for doating
Age, and me.
And as in circling
Time Mankind is found,
With various Chances always turning round:
So to my far-spent
Life no
Joy appears,
Like the Remembrance of most distant
Years.
A
Virgin once there was, whom
Heav'n design'd,
Both by the Graces of her Face, and Mind,
To be adapted so, that she became
By
Nature Candid, as she was by
Name.
Her pure white
Hair, from her delicious
Head,
In flowing
Curls around her
Shoulders plaid.
But ev'ry
Part of her was bright, and fair,
And full as charming as her flaxen
Hair.
The tunefull
Lyre she touch't with such a Grace,
That it confirm'd the Conquests of her
Face.
While from the trembling Strings soft Tunes did slow,
With Love,
and Joy,
my Heart
did tremble too.
But if she utter'd some surprizing Song,
How many Cupids
sate upon her Tongue!
Each moving Word,
each Accent
sent a Dart,
And ev'ry Note
did melt my wounded Heart.
Then if she danc'd, her
Motion, and her
Air,
Made ev'ry Part appear more killing fair;
[Page 50] While I, with Pleasure, hug'd my golden Chain,
And silently indulg'd the gratefull Pain.
Thus one bright
Maid, with many Beauties arm'd,
From whom none scap'd unconquer'd, or uncharm'd,
In various Parts storm'd my defenceless
Mind,
Nor did one
Dart the least Resistance find.
And when by
Violence she was possest,
She ne'er for sook my entertaining
Breast.
Once seen her beautious
Form, still stay'd with me,
And day and night dwelt in my
Memorie.
How oft has my Imagination brought,
Her absent Image present to my Thought.
Fix'd, and intent, how oft (though far remov'd)
Have I suppos'd I talk'd with her I lov'd.
How oft, with Pleasure, would my Fancy bring,
Those
Songs to mind, which she was wont to sing;
And with delight my busie Voice, and Tongue,
Would imitate those Notes, and words she sung.
[Page 51]
Thus I my self, against my self took part,
And, like a Cheat,
play'd booty with my Heart.
How oft have I been thought with Madness seis'd?
How often has my Head been thought diseas'd,
While the wild Passions of my Breast encreas'd?
Nor can I think, that I was wholly void
Of Reason, or my Reason well enjoy'd.
But sure 'tis an intollerable pain,
To hide a stifled Passion, or restrain
The
Rage, 'tis what no mortal
Breast can bear,
For in the Countenance it will appear,
Though never so reserv'd, though never so severe.
The changing Colours show how we decay,
And ev'n the Silence of the Tongue
betray.
Th' affected Face
will the hid Thoughts
declare;
Blushing bespeaks a Shame,
and Paleness Fear.
But more my
Dreams disclos'd my Privacie:
My
Dreams unfaithfull to my
Love, and me,
Did my surpress'd
Anxieties reveal;
Nor could
Death's Image,
Sleep, my Cares conceal:
[Page 52] For when my Sences were inclin'd to Rest,
And by oblivious Slumbers all possest;
Ev'n then my Tongue unacted Guilt confest.
As on the Grass, sleeping I once was laid,
Close by the
Father of my lovely
Maid;
And while he thoughtless slumber'd by my Side,
Thus, in my
Dreams disturb'd, aloud I cry'd,
Hast, hast, my
Candida; hast, hast away,
Our
secret Love is ruin'd if you stay:
For see, already peeps the prying
Sun;
If w'are discover'd, we are both undone.
The envious
Light will our
stol'n Loves betray;
Hast, hast, my
Candida, my
Candida.
Awak'd at this, and in a strange surprize,
He started up, and scarce believ'd his Eyes:
But for his
Daughter, search'd the place around,
While I was only sleeping on the Ground;
[Page 53] Gasping, and panting, there he saw me lye,
Transported from my self with Ecstasy.
With what vain
Dreams, said he, art thou possest?
Or has a real
Love usurp't thy Breast?
Some waking Objects rather, I conclude,
Upon thy gentler Slumbers may intrude,
And thus thy Wishes fleeting Forms delude.
Astonish't! he my broken Murmurs watch't,
And each imperfect unform'd Sentence catch't.
Gently his right hand on my
Heart he lay'd,
And in soft
Whispers, more inquiries made:
For so apply'd, the sly Inquirer'
s Hand,
From sleeping Breasts
can any thing command;
And the loos'd Tongue
do's by that Charm
impart,
The very choicest Secrets
of the Heart.
Thus I, who had so long with Looks severe,
Kept from the prying Eye, and listning Ear,
The Cares of
Love, grown by Concealment dear,
My treach'rous Tongue did, when I slept, declare.
Yet still had my whole wretched
Life been free,
From impure
Actions, and
Impietie;
Not that so much I did those
Crimes prevent,
By perfect
Vertue, as by
Accident.
But now I'm
old, and want the Strength to sin,
It pleases me my
Youth has guiltless been.
Tho' no just Praise, that they from
Vice are free,
To superannuated Men can be,
Since 'tis not
Choice, but meer
Necessitie.
Strength only sleeps, their Inclinations wake;
And not they
Vice, but
Vice do's them forsake.
Pleasure deserts their unperforming Years,
And leaves them fill'd with painful Toils, & Cares,
And all their
Good in want of Power appears.
'Tis worth our while, if we consider too,
What Penalties in
Age we undergo;
How that, with it, a slow Repentance brings,
For all our Youthfull Faults, and Riotings;
[Page 55] How many Groans it pays! how many Tears,
For dear-bought
Luxury of younger Years!
And though Mankind will often strive in vain,
Youth's boyling Heats, and Follies to restrain;
Oft'ner with Knowledge, and Contrivance, we
Persist in some deluding Villanie.
W'are oft industrious, studious, wise, and nice,
In the performance of some witty
Vice.
Though
Vice sometimes bears us by force away,
Yet we too oft its easie Call obey:
Oft, though we cannot compass what we will,
We are
Well-wishers to some pleasing
Ill.
ELEGY V.
The ARGUMENT.
In this
Elegy, the
Poet shews the Folly and Weakness of
Old Men's being in
Love, who thereby do but discover their
Impotence and
Dotage, and can at best prove but unperforming Lechers, being incapacitated of imploying
Love's chief
Agent; the Praises of which, in its full Strength and Beauty, concludes the
Elegy.
WHen to the
East on Embassy I went,
With friendly Articles, by
Caesar sent:
While I design'd for others
Rest, and
Ease,
And Nations did from
me expect their Peace;
Lo, in my Breast,
Tumults and
Broils arose,
And cruel
Wars troubled my own Repose:
Ev'n I, on whom
Hetruria did rely,
And with such Aid her crafty Foes defy.
[Page 57] Whom she oppos'd to Publick Policie,
Could not from private Wiles, my self, keep free.
For one
Greek Dame's insinuating Art,
Well-practis'd, to enslave the bravest
Heart;
With such peculiar Vigour mine o'er-came,
It melted in the brisk
assaulting Flame:
For while she feign'd that I had smitten her,
She seiz'd me first, and took me Prisoner.
Wakefull each morning, with the
Dawn she rose,
Refusing to her Eyes a soft Repose;
And at my Windows, shining as the
Sun,
Darted in Light
before the Day begun.
And,
Gods, I knew not what it was she sung,
While
Grecian Tunes slow'd from her charming Tongue.
But such bewitching Force her Murmurs had,
That with Delight and Pleasure I was mad.
[Page 58]
Nor was this half her Cunning, half her Art,
By which she conquer'd, and enslav'd my Heart:
But strange resistless Charms she us'd, far more
To ruin me, and to confirm her Power.
She wept, she sigh'd, look't pale, and so complain'd,
As none could e'er believe it to be feign'd:
She shew'd what would a Stoick'
s Passion move,
Ev'n all the Signs of an unpractis'd Love;
So excellent she was in the dear Cheat,
That ev'n a Love
was due for the Deceit.
Thus while I pitty'd her feign'd Miserie,
And thought her tortur'd with the
Love of me;
The Miserable Object I became,
Of real Pity, by my real Flame.
But Heav'n ne'er fram'd a Creature more compact,
For she was to a Miracle exact.
Her shining Eyes and Face, (chearfull and gay,
Bright and serene as an unclouded Day.)
[Page 59] When e'er they did salute my wand'ring Eyes,
Mov'd me at once with Pleasure, and Surprize.
Nor was she less accomplish'd in her
Mind,
But that with noble
Arts was well resin'd:
She knew the Strength of conqu'ring
Eloquence;
And when she
talk't, could captivate each Sence.
Her Wit
was like her Beauty,
sweet, and clear,
As one the Eye,
the other fix'd the Ear.
The mighty force of
Poetry she knew,
And in that Art Apollo
could out-doe:
Not Orpheus
self was warm'd with nobler fire,
When his own Songs
he sung to his own Lyre,
And Beasts,
and Trees,
did with new life inspire.
Than this bright Nymph,
who with her Harp
& Quill,
Out-did Apollo'
s Verse, and Orpheus
Skill.
Her
Songs, like
Syrens, moving vast delight,
Were quite as charming, and as harmfull quite:
For while I listned to her fatal
Voice,
Ruin, or Safety, were not in my choice;
[Page 60] But wanting pow'r such Witchcrafts to avoid,
In that Surprize I yield to be destroy'd:
Upon those treach'rous Rocks I blindly run,
Whither
Love led, nor could the mischief shun:
Not so of Old
Ʋlysses fair'd, for he
Could miss those dangers, which he could foresee.
What need I mention her amazing gate;
Or how by practis'd steps she mov'd in state:
How swim along with such a sallying sweep,
Like well-trimm'd Sailers
on the smooth-fac'd Deep.
How ev'ry step was set with heedfull care,
That she as easie did, and soft appear,
As Goddess cutting through the yielding Air.
Bless me! what Pow'r lay in her well-set
Hair!
A trap was each white Lock, each Curl a snare.
Her two hard
Breasts, so round, and rarely fram'd,
That they, with strong Desire, my Heart inflam'd;
Neither of which to greater bigness swell'd,
Than what might be within one hand compell'd.
[Page 61] But when I near, and nicely view'd each part,
What Joys unspeakable surpriz'd my Heart!
How did I feast, and how delight my Eyes,
With ev'ry part, which next adjacent lyes,
To Love's delicious nameless Paradise?
How to
Embrace, how did I long to
touch
Each
Limb that charm'd, and melted me so much!
What mighty Ecstasies did I suppose,
Would quite transport me if I were more close!
I wish't, I ask't, and gain'd the Beautious She;
But, oh! what Witchcraft did Enervate me!
Lifeless I on that mass of Beauty
lay,
Nor the due debts of Sacred Love
could pay.
All vigorous warmth my languid Limbs forsook,
And left me cold, like an old sapless Oak.
My chief, yet basest
Nerve, did then prove lank,
And, like a
Coward, from the
Battle shrank;
Shrivell'd, and dry, like a dead wither'd flow'r,
Depriv'd, and void of all
vivifick pow'r.
[Page 62] No fertile Moisture, no
prolisick Juice,
Could the enfeebled
Instrument produce;
No unctious Substance, no kind Balm emit;
Balm, nourishing as Milk, as Honey sweet.
At last cry'd out the Disappointed Fair,
Thy dull unactive weight I cannot bear;
Thy heavy Limbs press me with joyless pain,
And all thy faint Endeavours are in vain.
Useless, I must confess, I then did lye,
O'er-come of
Thuscan grave Simplicitie;
And in soft
Graecian Dalliance unskill'd,
To
Age's
Impotence was forc'd to yield.
Those very Arts, those Stratagems of
Love,
(Which did, of old,
Troy's sad Destruction prove,
And, maugre
Hector's Courage, could prevail,)
Us'd to one Old defective Man, did fail:
Nay, though a Beauty,
ev'n as Hellen
bright,
Did to the mighty Task of Love
invite.
[Page 63] Yet in the vain performance did I tire,
Though giv'n up to th' Empire of
Desire.
Nor need I blush to own, or be asham'd,
That I by such a
Beauty was inflam'd;
For
Jove himself, had he my
Goddess seen,
Ev'n
Jove himself her
Captive must have been.
Yet ne'ertheless, such was my first sad Night,
That I could neither give nor take Delight.
But a base conscious shame possest each sence,
Nor left me pow'r to make the least defence,
Dash'd with the Guilt of my own
Impotence.
But lo, the next ensuing Night came on,
And lo, my
vig'rous heat again was gon;
Void of all warmth, and strength did I remain,
And as before was dull, and slow again.
But she much vex'd, that I would not fulfill
Her Expectation, but deceive her still:
Blam'd my neglectfull sloath, and angry too,
Claim'd the just
Tribute which to
Love was due;
[Page 64] And wond'ring why her
Charms no more could move,
Said, Sluggard pay thy Debts to
me, &
Love.
But her just Anger, with me, nothing weigh'd,
Nothing her soothing Language could perswade.
In vain with either did she me assail,
'Gainst my unconquer'd Impotence
both fail.
For what, alas, can those
Defects supply,
Which weaken'd
Nature do's to
Age deny?
But then I blush't, and stupify'd became,
Much more
debilitated by my Shame.
A conscious Terrour did possess my
Mind,
And took away all pow'r of being kind.
Yet with her soft and
active Hand she strove,
The
frigid Member to adapt for
Love:
But she the
fainting thing did try in vain,
B'y
inspiring touch to call to
life again;
Nor answer'd it her Toil, nor my desire,
But cold remain'd i'th' midst of such a Fire:
So the starv'd Wretch in Northern Scythia
sees,
Th' ungratefull Pot ev'n o'er the Fire to freeze.
What cruel Woman, thou unkind, said she,
Has snatch'd thy
Love, my Due alone from me?
Where hast thou been ungrateful? and with whom?
From whose
Embraces do'st thou tir'd come?
I swore 'twas her mistake, and did protest,
No other
Passion could invade my Breast;
She, only
She was of my
Heart possest.
And that it was
excess of
Love and
Care,
Dash't me with such a trembling
Awe, and
Fear;
As render'd me uncapable to give,
Those Acts of Kindness, which she should receive.
Yet maugre this, the bright expecting Dame,
Believ'd 'twas all but a pretended Sham.
Thou ly'st, the much-offended Fair One cry'd,
For thou some other
Nymph do'st love beside,
And art with me alone unsatisfy'd.
Variety affects thy Appetite,
And thou do'st in a frequent
Change delight,
Why else would you my tendred Kindness slight?
[Page 66] Do's
Sorrow damp you? then try to remove
Such
heavy Griefs by the
brisk Joys of
Love.
Be not o'er-come by any sad Excess,
But intermit such Cares as over-press;
For Burthens oft laid down become the less.
Then I uncover'd in the
Naked Bed,
To the inquiring
Nymph thus weeping said,
Alas, Fair
Greek, I am constrain'd to own,
What I endeavour'd to have kept
unknown;
And lest you might suspect it want of
Love,
Am forc'd by sad Defects my
Age to prove.
Unhappy I, whose
Vigour is quite dead;
Alas, my Will and Wishes are not fled:
Unfortunate, that I am judg'd to be
Unkind, because of my
Debilitie.
Lo, I have brought you
Arms, with Shame I own,
By a long lazy Rest defective grown,
Yet
Arms devoted to thy Use alone.
[Page 67] Do what thou canst, all thy Endeavours try,
To move me, I submit most willingly:
Yet still I fail'd the more, the more I strove,
Desire's excess did
Impotence improve.
Streight she began, with many
Graecian Art,
To give new Courage to the
drooping Part:
But she, in vain, the cold
dead thing, did strive,
With her gay Flames to quicken, and revive.
When she at last its Ruin did perceive,
And that the dear-lov'd
Nerve no more could live;
But of its Resurrection all hopes lost,
On which she had bestow'd such pains, such cost.
Erected in the Bed, she mournfull sate,
Griev'd and tormented with her wretched state,
And thus deplor'd her miserable
Fate.
Ah,
fallen Member! who wert once to Me,
The
best Improver of
best Luxurie;
And at each sacred celebrated Feast,
My only Entertainment, only Guest;
[Page 68] My sweetest Darling, my Delight, my Health,
My dearest Honour, and my chiefest Wealth.
How thy dejected state shall I lament;
And in what Floods of Tears my
sorrows vent?
Where shall I find equal, and worthy
Verse,
Thy mighty
Acts, and
Prowess to reherse?
Oft, when inflam'd, with my too hot
Desire,
Thou didst allay the raging of that
Fire.
And oft didst thou (then when thou couldst be kind)
Charm the Diseases of my troubled
Mind:
My dear Companion many tedious Nights,
Partaker of my
Griefs, and my
Delights;
To thee my choicest Secrets were disclos'd;
And with much Safety in thy trust repos'd.
Still wert thou watchfull, and wert still at hand,
To answer, and obey my least Command.
Whither! oh, whither is thy
Fervour fled!
Why do'st thou hang thy cold, thy drooping Head?
[Page 69]
What envious Power
has depriv'd thee quite,
Of all that vigour,
all that former spright,
Which made thee heretofore so bold in fight?
Frequent
Engagements pleas'd thee heretofore,
But now thy
Courage fails, and is no more;
For, lo, no more a lively chearfull Red,
Do's
thee, as once it did, with warmth o'er-spread;
But pale and wan thou do'st dejected lye,
Nor dar'st look up to face thy Enemy;
The kindest, most endearing Words to
thee,
Are lost, and altogether useless be.
The pow'rfull Charms of
Verse, which can relieve
Sorrowfull
Minds, to thee
no life can give.
Thee therefore justly I as
dead bewail,
Since in all
active Motion thou do'st sail.
But as she still run on, I was constrain'd
To interrupt her, while she yet complain'd;
And of her sad impatience much asham'd,
Her needless
Sorrows chiding thus, I blam'd.
[Page 70] Thus to bemoan my
languid Member's Case,
Argues thy self vex'd by a worse
Disease.
And whilst thou do'st lament his sad
Defect,
I must accuse you of a worse Neglect.
Begone from miserable unperforming Me,
To some young
Lover more deserving thee.
Go, happy
Nymph, for happy
Joys design'd;
Go where thy
Love equal Returns may find;
Go where fresh
Youth, & blooming
Strength invites,
Thy springing
Beauty to more fit
Delights.
Make use of all thy Youth,
while Youth
thou hast,
And don't with me thy pretious Minutes wast;
For Time unseen goes by, and flies too fast
For Mortals ever to o'er-take when past.
But she inrag'd, said,
Fool, thou do'st not know
The real
Cause of all my real
Woe;
And why such floods of
Tears my Eyes o'er-flow.
Be not so fond and vain as to believe,
That thy peculiar
Fate I only grieve:
[Page 71] No, this to my distracted Fancy, brings
The sad Estate of all Created things:
For if the
gen'tive Pow'r were tane away,
How soon, alas, would this vast World decay?
And oh thou needfull
Engine, without
Thee,
All things that breath would quickly cease to be!
Mankind, Beast, Fish and Fowl, and all that live,
From
Thee their first Beginnings must receive.
What Concord, or Agreement, could be made,
In diff'rent Sexes, if without thy
Aid;
And if of thy most gratefull Favours void,
The chiefest Good of
Marriage is destroy'd.
With such strong Leagues of Kindness thou canst bind,
That of two diff'rent, thou mak'st up one
Mind.
So much thou do'st to
Ʋnitie incline,
And
separate Bodies can't so
closely joyn,
That
Two grow into
One by
Am'rous Twine.
Though to a
Nymph Nature all
Beauty grants,
She wants her chief
Reward, if
Thee she wants:
[Page 72] In
Thee alone
Valour and
Vertue lyes,
And thou of
Beauty art the only Prize:
Manhood by
Thee alone is made compleat,
Which, without
Thee, were but a sordid Cheat.
No sparkling
Gems, nor yellow shining
Gold,
Can to thy solid real Worth be told;
Not the most sordid Miser
would, to be,
Master of all the Wealth
sunk in the Sea,
Or yet on shore, sell or dispose of Thee.
In vain, as Ornaments, such Toys are worn,
If thou as well do'st not the Man adorn:
Unlike those empty Trisles very much,
Thy
kind increases by
productive Touch;
But they by using, still the more decay,
And with a frequent rubbing wear away.
With Thee is Credit, and Fidelitie,
And
Secrets told are safely lodg'd in
Thee.
Oh! only true
Reward of perfect
Love,
To which thou do'st both kind and fruitfull prove:
[Page 73] To
Thee both great things, and sublime give way,
And all thy mighty
Mandates must obey.
All yield, and all submit without a Grief,
From the sweet Bondage wishing no Relief.
Thy angry
Wounds are not so terrible,
But such as ev'n thy Friends desire to feel:
Ev'n that same
Wisdom, which the
World do's guide,
Declares her
self of thy more equal side;
And to thy Rule and Governance thinks fit,
That all its Force and Power should submit.
To
Thee the trembling, conquer'd, yielding
Maid,
Desiring that of which she seems
afraid:
Prostrate falls down, just ready to receive
Those gratefull
Wounds, which thou prepar'st to give.
And when broke up, she still, and silent lyes,
Sheds her glad
Blood, and with the Pleasure dyes.
Mangled, some
Tears she drops, but more do's smile,
And
stronger Joys her
weaker Griess begulle.
[Page 74] Pleas'd with the sweet
Defeat, she clings more close,
And hugs the
Conquerour that gives the murth'ring Blows.
Soft easie ways thou do'st not always chuse,
But sometimes acts of Force and Manhood use:
Thy toying Plays, and pretty gamesome Wiles,
Are sometimes mix't with more laborious
Toils.
Oft Stratagems of
Wit are your best course,
And sometimes you thrive best by down-right
Force.
The cruel
Hearts of Tyrants
fierce, and
wild,
Thou often canst convert to
kind, and
mild:
Ev'n thou the stubborn
God of War canst move,
And melt, and soften into
gentle Love.
Thou the enrag'd, and anger'd
Jove canst charm,
And of his dreadfull
Thunder quite disarm;
Nay, after the bold Gyant's overthrow,
Could'st clear his clouded, and incensed Brow.
The
hungry Tyger, by thy strange Effects,
Grows
tame, and the pursuit of Beasts neglects.
The
humble Lover, courteous, meek, and mild,
By thee grows
fierce, and, like a
Lyon, wild.
[Page 75] Thy
Vertue, and thy
Patience wonders doe,
For all your
Victims are belov'd by you;
And when you conquer, you are conquer'd too.
Triumphs you scorn, but love the active
Fight,
And more in
War than
Conquest you delight.
O'ercome, you re-assume new Strength, new Life,
With double
Courage to renew the
Strife.
And then the
Battle thus again renew'd,
You only
fight to be again
subd
[...]'d.
Short is thy
Rage, but
Zeal do's
longer live,
And
Strength decay'd do's very oft revive.
And though thy
Pow'r to doe and act is done,
Yet thy
Good-will and
Wishes are not gone.
Thus she (as if she mourn'd the
Obsequies
Of some dead
Friend, as dear as her own Eyes)
Ended her long Complaint, and rose from me,
Abandon'd o'er to
Grief, and
Miserie.
FINIS.