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LESSING     WILDERNESS     TAPE 1
"1013
+  WHAT A MESS.  GOD, WHAT A MESS<
.
"1014
+  OH, NO, NO.  YES.  IT <S
ME, TONY.  NO, I <M NOT ON LEAVE.  I DONT KNOW WHERE MY
MOTHER IS.  I HAVENT SEEN HER YET.  YES, PHILIP.  I <LL TELL HER.  WHO
DID YOU SAY!  WHO <S ROSEMARY!  O.K.
\  WHERE ARE YOU
, DARLING!
+  WELL, MOTHER, HOW ARE YOU!
\  TONY<
.  YOU MIGHT HAVE LET ME KNOW.
+  DO WE HAVE TO HAVE THAT GLARE!
\  HAVE YOU GOT LEAVE!
+  I DIDNT IMAGINE IT WAS NECESSARY TO REMIND
YOU OF THE DATE MY NATIONAL SERVICE FINISHED.
\  OH, I SEE.
+  BUT, OF COURSE, IF MY COMING IS IN ANY WAY INCONVENIENT TO
YOU, I <LL GO AWAY AGAIN.
\  OH, TONY.  COME ON, GET UP OUT OF THAT SOFA.
"1015
\  OH<
.  WHAT AN ICEBERG<
.
OH, DARLING, IT IS LOVELY TO HAVE YOU HOME.  WE MUST HAVE A PARTY
TO CELEBRATE.
+  OH, NO.
\ WHAT <S THE MATTER!
+  A PARTY.  I KNEW YOU <D SAY A PARTY.
\  OH, VERY WELL.  FOR GOD<S
SAKE GET OUT OF THAT GHASTLY UNIFORM.  IT MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A ...
+  WHAT!
\  A SOLDIER.
+  I <VE BEEN ONE FOR TWO YEARS.
\  ISNT THAT LONG ENOUGH!
+  I THINK I <M RATHER SORRY TO PART WITH IT.
RATHER NICE, THE ARMY @ BEING TOLD WHAT TO DO, EVERYTHING
IN ITS PLACE, EVERYTHING TIDY .
\  TIDY<
.  IT <S LUCKY YOU WERENT IN CYPRUS OR KENYA OR SUEZ
KEEPING ORDER.  KEEPING EVERYTHING TIDY.
+  WELL!
\  YOU DONT BELIEVE IN IT.  YOU MIGHT HAVE
BEEN KILLED FOR SOMETHING YOU DONT EVEN BELIEVE IN.
+  YOU <RE SO DELIGHTFULLY OLD@FASHIONED.  GETTING KILLED FOR SOMETHING
YOU BELIEVE IN IS SURELY A BIT OF A LUXURY THESE DAYS!  SOMETHING
YOUR GENERATION ENJOYED.  NOW ONE JUST @ GETS KILLED.
\  ALL THE SAME, GET OUT OF THOSE CLOTHES.
+  ALL RIGHT @
BUT WHAT DO YOU SUPPOSE YOU LOOK LIKE!
\  OH, THE CHAR, I KNOW.  BUT I <VE BEEN CLEANING THE
STAIRS.  IF I <D KNOWN YOU WERE COMING ...
+  OH, I KNOW, YOU <D HAVE CHANGED YOUR TROUSERS.
\  I MIGHT EVEN HAVE WORN A DRESS.
"1016
+  REALLY, MOTHER, WHEN YOU LOOK SO CHARMING
WHEN YOU TRY, DO YOU HAVE TO LOOK LIKE THAT!
\  OH, DONT BE SUCH A LITTLE @ NO ONE CAN
LOOK CHARMING CLEANING THE STAIRS.
+  SO YOU WERE CLEANING THE STAIRS.  AND WHO DID
YOU EXPECT TO FIND SITTING HERE!
\  WHY NO ONE.
+  YOU CAME CREEPING DOWN.  WERE YOU GOING TO PUT YOUR
HANDS OVER MY EYES AND SAY> <PEEKABOO<!
\  IT WAS DARK, I COULDNT SEE WHO IT WAS.  IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN
ANYBODY.
+  OF COURSE, ANYBODY.  WHY DONT YOU PUT YOUR HANDS OVER MY
EYES NOW AND SAY <PEEKABOO<!  HOW DO YOU KNOW!  I MIGHT RATHER
LIKE IT.  THEN YOU COULD BITE MY EAR, OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT.
\  TONY, YOU <VE JUST COME HOME.
+  WELL, AND WHY DID YOU COME CREEPING DOWN THE STAIRS!
\  I CAME DOWN BECAUSE THE TELEPHONE WAS RINGING EARLIER.  I CAME
TO SEE.  DID YOU TAKE IT!
+  SO IT WAS.  YES.  I FORGOT.
\  YOU <RE A BLOODY BOOR, TONY.
+  DO YOU HAVE TO SWEAR!
\  WELL, NOW YOU <RE HOME I SUPPOSE I <LL HAVE TO STOP.
THERE ARE TIMES, DEAR, WHEN YOU DO RATHER IRRITATE
ME.

+  I <VE ALREADY SAID THAT I <M QUITE PREPARED TO GO SOMEWHERE
ELSE IF IT <S INCONVENIENT FOR YOU TO HAVE ME AT SUCH SHORT
NOTICE.
WELL!  WHO IS THAT YOU <VE GOT UPSTAIRS WITH YOU!  WHO IS IT THIS
TIME!
\  HOW DO YOU KNOW I <VE GOT ANYONE UPSTAIRS WITH ME!
+  WHO IS IT UPSTAIRS!
\  SANDY.
"1017
+  SANDY WHO!
\  DONT BE SILLY.  SANDY BOLES.
+  BUT HE <S MY AGE.
\  WHAT OF IT!
+  HE <S MY AGE.  HE <S 22.
\  I DIDNT ASK TO SEE HIS BIRTH CERTIFICATE WHEN I ENGAGED HIM.
+  ENGAGED HIM!
\  HE <S AT A LOOSE END.  I WANTED SOMEONE TO HELP ME.
HE <S HERE FOR A WHILE.
+  HE <S STAYING HERE!
\  WHY NOT!  THIS EMPTY HOUSE ... WHEN YOU <RE NOT HERE IT <S
SO EMPTY.
+  HE <S IN MY ROOM!
\  YES.  HE CAN MOVE OUT.
+  THANKS.
\  WELL, WHAT IS IT!
+  PERHAPS YOU <D RATHER I MOVED OUT.
\  TONY, MIND YOUR OWN BLOODY BUSINESS.  I <VE NEVER INTERFERED
WITH ANYTHING YOU DID.
+  NO, YOU NEVER DID.  YOU NEVER HAD
TIME.
\  THAT <S UNFAIR.
+  AND WHERE <S DEAR SANDY<S MAMMA!
\  MILLY IS IN JAPAN.
+  AND WHAT IS DEAR SANDY<S ERRANT MAMMA DOING IN JAPAN!
\  SHE <S GONE WITH A DELEGATION OF WOMEN.
OH I SEE.  THEY ARE CONVEYING THE GREETINGS OF THE
BRITISH NATION, WITH AN APOLOGY BECAUSE OUR GOVERNMENT USES THEIR
PART OF THE WORLD FOR H@BOMB TESTS.
\  IS IT REALLY SO FUNNY!
+  HILARIOUS.  AND WHY ARENT YOU WITH THEM!
\  BECAUSE I WAS EXPECTING YOU.
+  BUT YOU <D FORGOTTEN I WAS COMING.
\  I MIGHT HAVE FORGOTTEN THAT YOU WERE EXPECTED
HOME AT FOUR O<CLOCK ON TUESDAY THE 18TH MARCH, 1958, BUT I WAS
"1018
EXPECTING YOU.  OTHERWISE, OF COURSE, I WOULD HAVE GONE WITH
MILLY.
+  BUT MILLY DIDNT DENY HERSELF THE PLEASURE ON SANDY<S ACCOUNT.
HE COULD FEND FOR HIMSELF.
\  YOU TALK AS IF ... SANDY <S 22.  HE <S NOT A LITTLE BOY WHO
NEEDS HIS MOTHER TO WIPE HIS NOSE FOR HIM.  HE <S A MAN.
+  THAT MUST BE NICE FOR YOU.  I AM SO GLAD.
\  MY GOD, TONY.
+  WHERE ARE YOU GOING!
\  I <M GOING TO DEMONSTRATE ABOUT THE HYDROGEN BOMB OUTSIDE
PARLIAMENT WITH A LOT OF OTHER WOMEN.  YES, LAUGH,
DO.
+  OH, I <M NOT LAUGHING.  I DO REALLY ADMIRE YOU, I SUPPOSE.  BUT
WHAT USE DO YOU SUPPOSE IT <S GOING TO BE!  WHAT GOOD IS IT!
\  OH, TONY, BUT OF COURSE IT <S SOME GOOD.  SURELY YOU THINK
SO!
+  YOU <VE BEEN DEMONSTRATING FOR GOOD CAUSES ALL YOUR LIFE.  SO
MANY I <VE LOST COUNT.  AND I <M SURE YOU HAVE ... AND WHERE ARE
WE NOW!
\  HOW DO YOU KNOW THINGS MIGHTNT HAVE BEEN WORSE!
+  HOW COULD THEY POSSIBLY BE WORSE!  HOW COULD THEY!
ONE MIGHT ALMOST THINK YOU WERE PLEASED TO SEE ME.
\  BUT OF COURSE I AM.
OF COURSE.  TONY, I MUST TELL YOU
ABOUT WHAT I <M DOING.  YOU KNOW WE <VE GOT THAT BIG MEETING
THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW.

+  ACTUALLY, NOT.
\  WE <VE ADVERTISED IT IN ALL THE PAPERS.
+  I NEVER READ NEWSPAPERS.
\  OH.  WELL, IT <S TOMORROW.  AND I <VE WORKED OUT A SIMPLY

"1019
MARVELLOUS ... WAIT, I <LL SHOW YOU.
+  DO YOU HAVE TO!  I THOUGHT YOU SAID YOU HAD TO GO TO YOUR
DEMONSTRATION!
\  YES, I MUST RUSH.  I <LL JUST DO THE END BIT.  ITS A SORT OF SYMPOSIUM @
YOU KNOW, BITS OF IDIOTIC SPEECHES BY POLITICIANS @ LIKE
THIS....
+  PEOPLE WHO OBJECT TO THE HYDROGEN BOMB ARE
SIMPLY NEUROTIC<
.
\  AND THIS @
+  THE HYDROGEN BOMB UST BE REGARDED BY TRUE
CHRISTIANS AS PART OF GOD<S PLAN FOR HUMANITY.
\  AND THEN WAR EFFECTS, YOU KNOW.
+  WAR EFFECTS!
\  LISTEN.
+  FOR GOD<S SAKE STOP IT.
\  WHAT <S THE MATTER!  YOU SEE, THE THING IS,
PEOPLE HAVE NO IMAGINATION.  YOU <VE GOT TO RUB THEIR NOSES IN IT.
THERE.  NOT BAD, IS IT!  WHERE ARE YOU!
OH, THERE YOU ARE.  DONT YOU THINK IT <S A GOOD IDEA!
I <M REALLY VERY PLEASED WITH IT.
I MUST GO AND GET DRESSED AND GO OUT.  I DO WISH YOU
YOUNG PEOPLE WOULD JOIN IN THESE DEMONSTRATIONS.  WHY DONT YOU!
@ WE <RE SUCH A MIDDLE@AGED LOT.  WHY DO YOU LEAVE IT ALL TO US!
WELL, I <LL FINISH THE WORK ON THE TAPE TONIGHT.
+  I FORGOT TO TELL YOU, THERE WAS A TELEPHONE MESSAGE.  FROM
PHILIP.  HE SAYS HE WANTS YOU TO PUT UP ROSEMARY.  TONIGHT.
"1020
\  WHO <S ROSEMARY!
+  DIDNT YOU KNOW!  HE <S GETTING MARRIED.  TO ROSEMARY.
\  PHILIP IS GETTING MARRIED!
+  SO HE SAID.
\  AND HE WANTS ME TO PUT HER UP!
+  WHY NOT!  YOU <RE OLD FRIENDS, ARENT
YOU!
\  OLD FRIENDS!
+  WELL, ARENT YOU!
\  OF COURSE.  OLD FRIENDS.  AS YOU KNOW.
+  BUT YOU SURELY DONT MIND.  ITS BEEN
YEARS SINCE ...
\  SINCE HE THREW ME OVER @ QUITE.
+  THREW YOU OVER!  YOU <RE GETTING VERY EMOTIONAL ALL OF A
SUDDEN, ARENT YOU @ ALL THESE OLD@FASHIONED ATTITUDES AT THE DROP
OF A HAT @ I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT YOU PARTED BECAUSE YOUR
FUNDAMENTAL PSYCHOLOGICAL DRIVES WERE NOT COMPLEMENTARY<
.
THREW YOU OVER<
.  I <VE NEVER SEEN YOU
LIKE THIS.
\  IF YOU <VE LAIN IN A MAN<S ARMS EVERY NIGHT FOR
FIVE YEARS AND HE <S THROWN YOU OVER AS IF YOU WERE A TART HE <D
PICKED UP IN BRIGHTON FOR THE WEEK@END, THEN THE WORD FRIEND HAS
TO BE USED WITH @ A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF IRONY, LET <S SAY.
WE <VE BEEN GOOD FRIENDS EVER SINCE, YES.
+  WHY DO YOU TALK LIKE THAT TO ME!
\  WHAT <S THE MATTER NOW!  OH, I SEE.
YOU <RE NOT FIVE YEARS OLD.  WHY DO YOU EXPECT ME TO TREAT YOU AS
IF YOU WERE FIVE YEARS OLD!
+  PERHAPS I AM FIVE YEARS OLD.  BUT THIS IS AFTER ALL AN
EXTRAORDINARY OUTBURST OF EMOTION.  DEAR UNCLE PHILIP HAS BEEN IN AND
OUT OF THIS HOUSE FOR YEARS.  WHENEVER HE <S IN LONDON HE MIGHT
JUST AS WELL BE LIVING HERE.  I CANT REMEMBER A TIME WHEN YOU AND
"1021
UNCLE PHILIP IN ANIMATED CONVERSATION WASNT A PERMANENT FEATURE
OF THE LANDSCAPE.
\  I AM THE WOMAN PHILIP TALKS TO, YES.
+  WHY ALL THIS EMOTION, SUDDENLY!
\  HE HAS NOT BEFORE ASKED ME TO PUT UP HIS PROSPECTIVE WIFE.
+  FOR GOD<S SAKE, WHY SHOULD YOU CARE!  YOU <VE LAIN IN MEN<S
ARMS SINCE, HAVENT YOU!  WELL, ISNT THAT HOW YOU WANT ME TO
TALK, LIKE A BIG BOY!
\  I SUPPOSE YOU WILL GROW UP SOME DAY.
WHEN <S SHE COMING!
+  SOME TIME LATER THIS EVENING, HE SAID.  AND HE <S COMING, TOO.
WE <RE GOING TO HAVE A JOLLY FAMILY EVENING.
\  YOU <LL HAVE TO LOOK AFTER HER UNTIL I GET BACK.  WE MUST BE
PERFECTLY CHARMING TO HER.
+  I DONT SEE WHY YOU SHOULD BE IF YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT.
\  YOU DONT SEE WHY!
+  NO.  I <M REALLY INTERESTED.  WHY!
\  PRIDE.
+  PRIDE.
<  YOU<
.
\  OH, GO TO HELL, YOU BLOODY LITTLE ...
+  HULLO, TONY.
   HULLO, SANDY.
   I SEE YOU <VE DISPOSED OF THE WAR PAINT ALREADY.
"1022
   YES.
   THAT <S A VERY ELEGANT SWEATER.
   YES, IT <S RATHER NICE, ISNT IT ... DONT CARE WHAT
I WEAR.
   I <LL MOVE MY THINGS OUT OF YOUR ROOM.  SORRY, BUT WE DIDNT
EXPECT YOU TODAY.
   NEXT TIME WE WILL GIVE YOU GOOD WARNING.
   CIGARETTE!
   THAT <S A VERY SMART CIGARETTE CASE.  NO THANKS.
   MOTHER BROUGHT IT BACK FROM CHINA LAST YEAR.  YOU REMEMBER
SHE WENT!
   YES, I REMEMBER.  MOTHER WENT, TOO.  I SUPPOSE ONE DOES HAVE
TO GO TO CHINA FOR ONE<S CIGARETTE CASES.
   I <M RATHER FOND OF IT MYSELF.  DID YOU KNOW I WAS
HELPING MYRA WITH HER WORK!
   AS A MATTER OF INTEREST, WHAT WORK ARE YOU DOING!
   FORMALLY, SECRETARIAL.  BUT IN PRACTICE @ YOUR MOTHER HAS
EVERY TALENT IN THE WORLD BUT ONE.
   A SENSE OF TIMING!
   YOU WOULDNT EXACTLY CALL HER TIDY.
   PERHAPS THAT <S THE SAME THING.
   SHE DOES NEED SOMEONE TO SORT THINGS OUT FOR HER.
   LUCKILY SHE REALIZES IT.  IN FACT SHE MAKES A POINT OF HAVING
SOMEONE AROUND FOR THAT PURPOSE.
DO YOU REMEMBER JAMES!
   JAMES!  THE BOY WITH THE GOLDEN GLOVES!  OF COURSE.  ACTUALLY
YOUR MOTHER TOLD ME SHE HAD HIM HERE FOR A TIME LAST YEAR WHEN HE
WAS OUT OF A JOB.
   HE WASNT ACTUALLY LIVING HERE.
JAMES IS WORKING FOR SHEPHERDS NOW AND DOING VERY NICELY, THANK
YOU.  YOU KNOW, THE NEW PUBLISHERS.
"1023
   YOUR MOTHER HAS BEEN PULLING STRINGS FOR ME, TOO.
I <M STARTING IN WITH MIKE FERRIS NEXT WEEK.
   WHAT!  I DIDNT KNOW YOUR POLITICS WERE LEFT WING.
   AS MUCH LEFT AS ANYTHING, I SUPPOSE.  BUT THESE LABELS ARE ALL
RATHER VIEUX JEU, ARENT THEY!
   OH, QUITE SO @ THAT <S JUST THE PHRASE I WAS LOOKING FOR.  WELL,
PERHAPS SHE CAN FIX ME UP IN MIKE FERRIS<S OFFICE, TOO.  AFTER ALL, I
DONT FIND THE POLITICAL LABELS JUST A LITTLE VIEUX JEU.
   I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION YOU WERE GOING TO FINISH STUDYING
FOR YOUR DEGREE.
   YOU WERE!  WHY!
   I IMAGINED ... WELL, I SUPPOSE I GOT THE IDEA FROM MYRA.
I THINK SHE EXPECTS YOU TO.
   REALLY!  I <M QUITE IN THE DARK.  WHY SHOULD SHE!
   IT WAS RATHER ODD, YOUR THROWING IT ALL UP THREE WEEKS BEFORE
THE FINAL EXAM.  TRAINING TO BE AN ARCHITECT IS AN EXPENSIVE BUSINESS,
AND THEN YOU THREW IT ALL UP.
   MOTHER SAID ALL THAT!  SHE SAID ALL THAT TO YOU!  SHE <S DISCUSSED IT
WITH YOU!
   NO.  BUT SURELY ONE IS BOUND TO THINK IT!  IT <S NOT EVERYONE
WHO CAN AFFORD TO SPEND FOUR YEARS STUDYING AND THEN THROW IT ALL
UP WITH THREE WEEKS TO GO.
   MOTHER CERTAINLY COULDNT AFFORD IT.  AND SHE QUITE RIGHTLY TOLD
ME I WOULD HAVE TO STAND ON MY OWN FEET FROM THEN ON.  OF COURSE
SHE DIDNT REPROACH ME.  ONE CAN SCARCELY IMAGINE MOTHER REPROACHING
ONE FOR THAT SORT OF THING.  FREEDOM OF CHOICE IS EVERYTHING.  MY
MUM IS A GREAT ONE FOR FREEDOM.  ODD, ISNT IT!
NO, SHE MERELY SAID, IN HER INIMITABLE WAY>
<WELL, IF YOU <RE DETERMINED TO BE ILLITERATE, YOU <D BETTER LEARN SOMETHING
USEFUL.  LIKE MENDING THE ELECTRIC LIGHTS.<  SO I TOOK HER AT HER
WORD.  I <M NOW A QUALIFIED ELECTRICIAN.  JOIN THE ARMY AND LEARN A
TRADE.
   I DONT THINK SHE EXPECTS YOU TO SETTLE FOR
BEING AN ELECTRICIAN.

"1024
   NO!  WHY NOT!  IT WAS HER SUGGESTION.  WHAT HAS
SHE BEEN SAYING TO YOU!
   NOTHING.
   I EXPECT SHE <LL DROP INFORMATION ABOUT HER PLANS FOR MY
FUTURE IN HER OWN GOOD TIME.  WHEN SHE HAS A MOMENT TO SPARE
FROM THE H@BOMB, PERHAPS.
WE ARE REPRESSING A DESIRE TO APPLAUD.
\  OH, DONT REPRESS IT.  PLEASE DONT.
WHERE <S MY HAT!  WHERE DID I LEAVE MY HAT!
+  WHAT <S YOUR HAT DOING DOWN HERE, ANYWAY!
\  OBVIOUSLY I LEFT IT HERE WHEN I TOOK IT OFF.
+  WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LEAVE IT IN THE HALL!
   DARLING, IT <S IN THE CUPBOARD.
\  OF COURSE I DID.  YOU CANT LEAVE YOUR BATTLE@GEAR IN HERE.  IT <S
MY CHINA CUPBOARD.
+  WHY DO YOU HAVE TO KEEP YOUR HAT AND YOUR CHINA IN A JUNK
CUPBOARD IN THE HALL!  OH, LORD, MOTHER<
.
   DARLING, YOU LOOK BEAUTIFUL.
   FOR GOD<S SAKE, YOU ARENT GOING TO WEAR THAT FOR A DEMONSTRATION
OUTSIDE THE HOUSE OF COMMONS!  WHY DONT YOU CHAIN YOURSELF
TO THE RAILINGS AND BE DONE WITH IT!
\  WHY NOT!  I <VE BEEN TELLING THE COMMITTEE THAT IT IS GRAVELY
UNDERRATED AS A POLITICAL WEAPON.  IT IS TIME IT WAS REVIVED.
+  CHRIST, AND YOU WOULD, TOO.
\  YES, AND IT WOULD BE SO UNLADYLIKE, WOULDNT IT!
HOW THE HELL DID I COME TO HAVE SUCH A TENTH@RATE LITTLE SNOB FOR A
SON ...!  OH, I <M SORRY.  COME ON, GIVE ME A KISS.
"1025
I SUPPOSE YOU <LL GROW OUT OF IT.  BUT IF YOU ONLY WERENT SO GLOSSY.
+  ME, GLOSSY<
.
\  YOU <RE SUCH A BEAUTIFUL BOY.
ISNT HE A BEAUTIFUL BOY!  OH<
.  SUCH
A BEAUTIFUL, GLOSSY, WELL@GROOMED BOY, AND SO NEAT IN HIS HABITS.
+  WHY ARE YOU SO CROSS!  YOU KNOW
QUITE WELL YOU LOOK DEVASTATING AND I <M BOWLED OVER.  DO YOU WANT
ME TO PAY YOU COMPLIMENTS!
\  WHY NOT!
+  I THOUGHT THAT WAS WHAT SANDY WAS HERE FOR.
AND NOW KISS SANDY TOO.  ON THE CHEEK.
\  I WAS GOING TO.  DEAR SANDY.
AND NOW I MUST RUN LIKE THE WIND.
+  DEAR MYRA.  I <VE NEVER KNOWN ANY WOMAN WITH
SUCH A SENSE OF GESTURE.
   REALLY!  GESTURE!  SHE <S SINCERE ABOUT THIS.  SHE <S
GOING TO BE AT LEAST AN HOUR LATE.  AND SHE <LL BE TICKED OFF BY THE
COMMITTEE AGAIN.  REALLY UNJUST, THE WORK SHE PUTS INTO IT.  SHE
WAS UP TILL FOUR THIS MORNING WORKING OUT THIS TAPE@RECORDING THING
WITH ME.
   SHE WAS UP TILL FOUR!  REALLY!  YOU WERE BOTH UP
TILL FOUR.
   IT <S A MAGNIFICENT JOB, IT REALLY IS.  BITS OF SPEECHES @ SHE
SMUGGLED A TAPE RECORDER INTO THE HOUSE.  THAT TOOK A BIT OF DOING.
   ILLEGAL, OF COURSE.
   OH, SHE <S WONDERFUL.  REALLY WONDERFUL PROPAGANDA.  ASININE
REMARKS FROM POLITICIANS, AND WAR EFFECTS.  SHE <S WORKED IN A TERRIFIC
BIT FROM JAPAN @ YOU KNOW, PEOPLE DYING AS A RESULT OF THE FIRST
ATOM BOMB.  AND THEN CHILDREN.  THAT SORT OF THING.
"1026
   CHILDREN.
   CHILDREN CRYING DURING A BOMBARDMENT.  THEN MACHINE
GUNS AND BOMB NOISES.  YOU REALLY MUST HEAR IT.
I <LL PUT IT ON FOR YOU.
   NO.
   I THINK YOU <D BE IMPRESSED.  IT <S A SPLENDID JOB.
   I <VE NO DOUBT IT IS.  SPLENDID.  BUT I
RATHER DOUBT WHETHER SHE <S GOING TO GET NEAR ENOUGH TO THE HOUSE
OF COMMONS EVEN TO GET TICKED OFF FOR BEING LATE.  BECAUSE SHE <S IN
ANIMATED CONVERSATION WITH UNCLE MIKE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE
STREET @ SHE <S JUST MISSED BEING RUN OVER.  DEAR MOTHER.
   AND WHO <S UNCLE MIKE!
   WHY, MIKE FERRIS @ YOUR PROSPECTIVE SPONSOR FOR YOUR LIFE AS
A FIGHTER FOR THE PEOPLE.
   WHY UNCLE!
   I <VE HAD SO MANY UNCLES.  WELL, UNCLE SANDY!  OH, DONT
BOTHER TO GET OUT YOUR BOXING GLOVES SO AS TO DEFEND MUM<S
HONOUR.  YOU DONT WANT MIKE TO FIND US BRAWLING, DO YOU!
BESIDES, IN THESE MATTERS AT LEAST, I AM A PACIFIST.
DEAR MIKE.  THE VERY IMAGE OF A POLITICIAN.  THE OLD TYPE OF
POLITICIAN @ THE PLATFORM RATHER THAN THE COMMITTEE MAN.
AND WHICH ARE YOU SETTLING FOR, UNCLE SANDY!  OF COURSE,
YOU <RE THE COMMITTEE MAN.  ONE MUST KEEP UP WITH THE TIMES,
MUSNT ONE!  SANDY BOLES, M.P., BACKROOM BOY>
, SANDY BOLES,
CENTRE OF CENTRE OF THE LABOUR PARTY.  YES, YOU <RE RIGHT, SANDY, IT <S
THE LABOUR PARTY FOR YOU @ THE ROAD TO MINISTERIAL POSITION WITH THE
TORIES IS LONG AND ARDUOUS AND YOU HAVENT GOT THE CONNEXIONS.
OH YES, I CAN SEE YOU.  MR SANDY BOLES, M.P. FOR LITTLE PUDDLEDITCH,
CENTRE OF CENTRE.  A SOUND MAN.  GETTING SOUNDER AND SOUNDER AS
MATURITY SETS IN AND YOU BECOME CERTAIN THAT THERE ARE EVER SO MANY
SIDES TO EVERY QUESTION.
   HAVE A CIGARETTE, TONY.
   NO THANKS.  HE <S COMING IN.
WHY AM I ON TO OLD MIKE!  I LIKE HIM.  I ALWAYS HAVE.  HE <S
THE SALT OF THE EARTH AND ALL THAT.  AND I <M SURE HE <S NEVER SAID ONE
"1027
THING AND MEANT ANOTHER IN THE WHOLE OF HIS LIFE.  WELL, HARDLY
EVER.  HE <LL NEVER BE MINISTER FOR ANYTHING.  NOT EVEN AN UNDER
SECRETARY.  WITHOUT PEOPLE LIKE HIM THE WHOLE SHOW REALLY WOULD
BE A BLOODY CIRCUS.  BUT HE <S SO @ BLOODY INNOCENT.  WHEN HE STARTS
TALKING IT MAKES ME FEEL A THOUSAND YEARS OLD.  SOMETIMES I THINK
HE <S PARODYING THE ORDINARY KIND OF POLITICAL POMPOSITY, AND THEN,
GOD HELP ME, I SEE THAT HE MEANS EVERY WORD.  EVERY SWEET SILLY
WORD OF IT.7 WELL ... SUPPOSE AFTER ALL THE SIMPLE@MINDED DO@
GOODERS DO TURN UP TRUMPS.  WE <D LOOK SILLY THEN, WOULDNT WE @
MR SANDY BOLES, M.P.!  WELL, WHY SHOULDNT THEY!  THERE <S NOTHING
LEFT BUT SIMPLE@MINDED HONESTY @ AND FAITH.
   FAITH IN WHAT!
   I DONT
KNOW.  WELL!  YOU CANT POSSIBLY BE PREPARED TO GO THROUGH ALL THE
SLOT@MACHINES!  YOU CANT BE.
   WHAT <S THE ALTERNATIVE!
   OH, CHRIST<
.  SEVEN YEARS OR SO OF ESTABLISHING ONESELF AS A SOUND
YOUNG AN.  MARRIAGE @ FOR LOVE, OF COURSE.  THEN DIVORCE.  PERHAPS
SEVERAL DIVORCES.  WHO ARE WE TO THINK OURSELVES BETTER THAN OUR
PARENTS!  OH WELL.  YOU <LL BE ALL RIGHT, UNCLE SANDY.  THE GLORIOUS
BATTLE FOR SOCIALISM INSIDE THE LABOUR PARTY WILL SAVE YOU FROM ALL
THAT, WONT IT! OH, CHRIST<
.  LOOK AT MOTHER<S LOT @ FIRE@EATING
SOCIALISTS, EVERY ONE OF THEM, AND HERE THEY ARE, ALL SORTED OUT INTO
NEAT LITTLE BOXES.

   AS A MATTER OF INTEREST, WHAT LABEL WOULD YOU STICK ON THE
BOX MYRA IS IN!  OR MY MOTHER!
   THE DILETTANTE DAUGHTERS OF THE
REVOLUTION!
   COME, COME.  DILETTANTES DONT WORK.
   OH, THEY <RE WOMEN WHO HAVENT SUCCEEDED IN
GETTING OR STAYING MARRIED.
   WELL, WELL.  HAVE A DRINK, TONY, DO.
   THE ONLY PEOPLE I THINK I REALLY ADMIRE ARE TRAMPS.  SOMETHING
LIKE THAT.  I HITCH@HIKED FROM CAMP.  THERE WERE TWO OF US.  THE OTHER
CHAP WAS A MAN WHO THREW UP HIS JOB TEN YEARS AGO AND HE HASNT
"1028
WORKED SINCE.  EARNS ENOUGH TO KEEP EATING.  AND DRINKING @ HE <S A
SOAK.
   SOUNDS ALL RIGHT.
   WE NEED A NEW FORM OF @ INNER EMIGRATION.  DRUGS.  DRINK.
ANYTHING.  I WANT TO OPT OUT.  I DONT WANT ANY PART OF IT.
WELL, WHAT ARE YOU SUGGESTING!  THAT I <LL SETTLE
DOWN!
   OF COURSE.
   I <M IN A BAD MOOD<
.  YOU SOUND LIKE MOTHER.  I <LL GET OVER IT,
I SUPPOSE.  WELL, I SUPPOSE I WILL.  ALL THE SAME, WHAT I THINK NOW
IS THE TRUTH, NOT THE LIES I <LL BE TELLING MYSELF IN FIVE YEARS< TIME
WHEN I <VE PUT DOWN THE FIRST DEPOSIT ON MY FUTURE.  IF THERE IS A
FUTURE.
     MY DEAR CHAP, YOU REALLY HAD BETTER GET DRUNK.
   DRINKING BORES ME.  AND SMOKING,
AND WOMEN.
   WOMEN TOO!
   WHAT ON EARTH DO YOU TALK TO THEM ABOUT!  ALL THEY <RE INTERESTED
IN IS @ OH, HELL<
.  YOU CANT POSSIBLY SIT THERE AND TELL ME YOU
REALLY LIKE WOMEN.
   BUT I ADORE WOMEN.
   THAT <S WHAT I MEAN.  OH, HELL @ THE TRUTH IS I DONT
CARE FOR ANYTHING IN THE WORLD EXCEPT THIS HOUSE.
   ARE YOU GOING TO TAKE IT ON YOUR BACK WITH YOU WHEN YOU
GO TRAMPING!
   LOOK OUT, HERE <S MIKE.
MY DEAR MIKE, HOW NICE TO SEE YOU.
   WELL, TONY, OLD CHAP.  HOW NICE TO SEE YOU BACK IN CIVILIZED
CLOTHES.
"1029
   DO SIT DOWN, MIKE.  CAN I GET YOU A
DRINK!
   NO THANKS.  I JUST POPPED IN TO SAY
HULLO.  YOUR MOTHER SAID YOU WERE BACK, AND I SAID I <D POP IN TO
HAVE A LOOK AT YOU.  IT REALLY IS SO GOOD TO HAVE YOU HOME AGAIN.
   SIT DOWN, MIKE.
DONT RUSH OFF.  YOU MUST HAVE A DRINK.
   IT <S VERY KIND OF YOU.  JUST FOR A MINUTE THEN.  AND
WE ARE ALL LOOKING FORWARD VERY MUCH TO HAVING YOU IN THE OFFICE.
YOU <RE JOINING US AT AN INTERESTING TIME, YOU KNOW.
   I <M LOOKING FORWARD TO IT, TOO.
   THOUGH WHEN YOU THINK OF THE BIG ISSUE, THE HYDROGEN BOMB
BUSINESS, NOTHING ELSE SEEMS TO MATTER SO MUCH, DOES IT!
THE MORE I THINK ABOUT IT, THE MORE I AM CONVINCED
IT IS MUCH MORE SIMPLE THAN WE THINK.  SIMPLY A QUESTION OF
GETTING THE GOVERNMENTS TO AGREE, THAT <S ALL.
   THAT <S ALL!
   WELL, IT REALLY IS HARD TO BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE WILL BE PREPARED
TO DO THINGS THAT WILL AFFECT THEIR OWN CHILDREN, ISNT IT!  I REALLY
CANT BELIEVE, WHEN IT COMES TO THE POINT, THAT COMMON SENSE WONT
PREVAIL.
   YOU REALLY BELIEVE THAT THE MEN IN POWER CARE ABOUT OTHER
PEOPLE GETTING HURT!
   MY DEAR BOY @ WELL, NO.  AFTER A LIFETIME IN PLITICS @ NO.  BUT
EVERYTHING <S SO CRITICAL @ OBVIOUSLY WE CAN GET AGREEMENT IF WE TRY.
ARE YOU SUGGESTING THAT THE VOICE OF THE PEOPLE WILL PREVAIL!
OR, TO COIN ANOTHER PHRASE, THAT THE PEOPLE ARE ON THE MARCH!
   IF THE VOICE OF THE PEOPLE DOESNT PREVAIL, WHAT WILL!  I REALLY
CANT BELIEVE @ I CANT BELIEVE THAT AFTER ALL WE <VE DONE, ALL THE
GLORIOUS ACHIEVEMENTS OF HUMANITY, WE ARE GOING TO CONSENT TO
BLOWING IT ALL UP.
   YOU CANT!
   QUITE OBVIOUSLY,
THE FIRST STEP IS TO STOP TESTS EVERYWHERE, AND THEN WE CAN PROCEED
TO A GENERAL DISCUSSION ON DISARMAMENT.
"1030
   OH, HEAR, HEAR<
.
   IF THE TESTS ARE STOPPED WE STILL HAVE THE LORD KNOWS HOW MANY
HYDROGEN BOMBS STORED HERE AND THERE, WAITING FOR SOME MADMAN
TO SET THEM OFF.  BUT I CANT BELIEVE HUMANITY WILL BE SO STUPID.
   WHY CANT YOU BELIEVE IT!
   BUT, MY DEAR BOY, WE DO SEEM TO GET THROUGH SOMEHOW  WE
GET THROUGH THE MOST APPALLING MESSES.
   NO, I REALLY DO WANT TO KNOW.  WHY CANT YOU BELIEVE
IT!  THIS IS WHAT INTERESTS ME.  MOTHER CANT BELIEVE IT EITHER.  SPEAKING
FOR MYSELF, I CAN BELIEVE IT ONLY TOO READILY.
   OH, I CANT BELIEVE IT.
   I <M SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT, SANDY.  BECAUSE, GENERALLY SPEAKING,
YOU YOUNG PEOPLE ... WELL, WELL.
   WHY CANT YOU AND MOTHER AND THE REST OF YOU BELIEVE IT!
AND YOU, OF COURSE, SANDY.  YOU
SEEM TO BE CONSTITUTIONALLY INCAPABLE OF BELIEVING IN THE ULTIMATE
HORRORS.  WHY!  YOU <VE LIVED THROUGH ENOUGH, HAVENT YOU!  IT GIVES
ME THE CREEPS TO LISTEN TO ANY OF YOU WHEN YOU <RE IN ONE OF YOUR
REMINISCING MOODS @ A RECORD OF MURDER AND MISERY.  YET ON YOU
GO, ALL JOLLY AND OPTIMISTIC THAT RIGHT WILL PREVIL.
   IT <S A QUESTION OF GETTING AGREEMENT
BETWEEN MEN OF GOOD WILL EVERYWHERE.
   GOOD.  LET <S DRINK TO THAT> THE GLORIOUS
ACHIEVEMENTS OF HUMANITY.
   YES.
YOU <RE NOT LOOKING TOO WELL, YOUNG TONY.  AND
YOUR MOTHER <S NOT LOOKING TOO WELL EITHER.
   MOTHER <S NOT LOOKING WELL!
   WHY, MYRA <S ON TOP OF HER FORM.
   I THOUGHT SHE WASNT LOOKING TOO WELL.  SHE REALLY
DOES NEED SOMEONE TO LOOK AFTER HER.
   I <M SORRY YOU THINK I <M SO INADEQUATE.
   YES.  WELL.  BUT IF YOU <RE GOING TO START STUDYING AGAIN @
   BUT I <M NOT.
   YOU <RE NOT!  WHAT!  BUT ... I SEE.  BUT,
"1031
TONY, YOUR MOTHER ... YOU DO SEEM TO HAVE SUCH A LOT OF PROBLEMS,
YOU YOUNG PEOPLE.  OF COURSE ONE IS RATHER BOUND TO FEEL
INSECURE WITH THAT GOVERNMENT WE <VE GOT.
   WE CAN ALWAYS LOOK FORWARD TO THE BLISSFUL SECURITY WE <LL HAVE
UNDER THE NEXT LABOUR GOVERNMENT.  THERE ARE
ALSO THE AMERICAN GOVERNMENT AND THE RUSSIAN GOVERNMENT.  AND
HOW STAND THE RUSSIANS THESE DAYS, MIKE!  IN THE RIGHT OF IT AS USUAL!
   TONY, I DO HOPE YOU <RE NOT GETTING AT YOUR MOTHER OVER THIS
BUSINESS @ SHE <S FEELING VERY BAD ABOUT IT, YOU KNOW.  A LOT OF
PEOPLE ARE.  I AM MYSELF.  IT WOULD BE EASY TO SAY WE WERE WRONG.
BUT WHEN IT <S A QUESTION OF KNOWING YOU WERE BOTH RIGHT AND
WRONG, AND HAVING TO DECIDE WHERE YOU WERE WRONG @ I WISH YOU
WOULDNT GET AT MYRA JUST NOW.
   MIKE.  I CANT REMEMBER A TIME WHEN THE WHOLE LOT
OF YOU WERENT TORTURED BY SOMETHING HAPPENING THOUSANDS OF
MILES AWAY.  I DONT SEE THAT ANYTHING <S CHANGED MUCH.
   SHE <S REALLY SO WORRIED ABOUT EVERYTHING.
   OH, I KNOW SHE DOESNT SPARE HERSELF.  BUT THEN SHE NEVER HAS.
   NO, SHE NEVER HAS.  AND SHE HAS HAD RATHER A TOUGH TIME OF IT.
IT <S ODD HOW SOME PEOPLE<S LIVES @ WELL, WELL.  I OFTEN THINK OF HOW
YOUR MOTHER USED TO BE WHEN YOUR FATHER WAS ALIVE.  THEY WERE SO
HAPPY.  I LOVED BEING WITH THEM.  THEY WERE SUCH A HAPPY COUPLE.
AND THEN HE WAS KILLED THAT NIGHT.
   IT IS THE NIGHT MOTHER REFERS TO IN HER INIMITABLE WAY AS THE
NIGHT THE BOMB FELL.
   YES.  AND YOUR FATHER WAS KILLED AND YOU AND YOUR MOTHER
WERE BURIED ALIVE FOR HOURS.
YES.  PERHAPS YOU COULD PERSUADE YOUR MOTHER
TO GO AWAY WITH YOU FOR A HOLIDAY SOMEWHERE.
   WITH ME!  MOTHER!  WITH ME!
   THERE <S THAT COTTAGE OF MINE IN ESSEX.  IT <S EMPTY.
   I SHOULDNT IMAGINE THAT A COTTAGE IN ESSEX WITH ME IS MOTHER<S
IDEA OF FUN AT ALL.  DO YOU FANCY THE IDEA OF A HOLIDAY IN
ESSEX, UNCLE SANDY!
   KNOWING THAT MONEY IS A BIT SHORT AT THE MOMENT.
"1032
   YES, SO I GATHER, BUT WHY!
   OH, ONE THING AND ANOTHER.  FOR ONE THING SHE GAVE
UP HER JOB TO DO THIS HYDROGEN BOMB WORK AND OF COURSE IT <S NOT
PAID.  AND ... VARIOUS THINGS.  I GOT THE IMPRESSION MONEY WAS A
BIT SHORT.  AND THERE <S THE COTTAGE, EMPTY.
   IT <S VERY GOOD OF YOU.  THANKS, MIKE.
   THE FLAT CAN WAIT.  THERE <S NO PROBLEM ABOUT THAT.
   THE FLAT!
   I MEANT TO TELL MYRA THAT IT WAS ALL FIXED UP WHEN I SAW HER IN
THE STREET, BUT IT SLIPPED MY MIND.
   WHAT FLAT!
   AS IT HAPPENED, WHEN MYRA ASKED ME IF I COULD HELP, I COULD.
IT <S AN ILL WIND THAT BLOWS NOBODY ANY GOOD.  JOAN @ MY DAUGHTER,
YOU KNOW @ IS LEAVING HER HUSBAND.  I DONT KNOW WHY.  I THOUGHT IT
WAS A RATHER GOOD MARRIAGE.  BUT IT <S BROKEN UP.  VERY SAD.  WELL,
WELL.  AND THERE <S THE FLAT.  JUST RIGHT FOR YOU.
   FOR ME!  A FLAT!
   DIDNT YOU KNOW!  MYRA SEEMED TO THINK YOU <D BE WANTING A
PLACE OF YOUR OWN WHEN YOU CAME OUT OF THE ARMY.
   I SEE.  I SEE.
   WHAT <S WRONG!
   HE <LL GET OVER IT.
   MYRA THOUGHT HE <D PREFER TO BE BY HIMSELF.  SHE <S ALWAYS BEEN
VERY ANXIOUS ABOUT BEING THE POSSESSIVE MOTHER, YOU KNOW.  SHE
SAID SHE HAD TO FIGHT TO LEAVE HOME, AND SHE DOESNT WANT TONY TO
FEEL HE SHOULD STAY AT HOME JUST BECAUSE SHE <S LONELY.
   MYRA <S LONELY!  BUT SHE <S NEVER ALONE.
   YES, WELL.  IT MUST BE NICE TO HAVE
YOU HERE.
   AND NICE FOR ME.
   YES, BELIEVE ME, I <M GLAD.  IT <S SO NICE TO MEET A YOUNG MAN
WHO ... THERE <S MY ELDER SON.  AS FAR AS I CAN MAKE OUT HE <S A
HOMOSEXUAL.  OR IF HE <S NOT, HE MIGHT JUST AS WELL BE.
   I ASSURE YOU, IF IT RELIEVES YOUR MIND, THAT I <M NOT.
"1033
   OH IT DOES.  AND I <M PLEASED FOR BOTH MYRA AND YOURSELF
THAT ... NOT THAT I <M NOT JEALOUS, I AM.
   MIKE, YOU REALLY ARE WONDERFUL.
   WHEN I WAS YOUNG I HAD SUCH A GOOD TIME.  I DO BELIEVE THAT
YOUNG PEOPLE SHOULD HAVE A GOOD TIME.  BUT THEY DONT SEEM TO.
AT LEAST, NONE OF MY CHILDREN SEEM TO.  THEY TALK IN THE MOST
SOPHISTICATED WAY, BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THE POINT ... AND THERE <S
YOUNG TONY.  OH DEAR, HE IS IN A MOOD.  WELL, THAT <S ONE OF THE
REASONS MYRA WOULD LIKE HIM TO HAVE HIS OWN FLAT.  SO HE <D FEEL FREE.
I THINK IT WOULD BE BETTER NOT TO MENTION IT AGAIN.  SO THERE <S A
PERFECTLY GOOD FLAT GOING BEGGING.
   BUT HE LOVES THIS HOUSE @ OR SO HE SAYS.  GOD KNOWS WHY.  IT <S
SUCH A MESS.  BESIDES, HE SAYS HE WANTS TO BE A TRAMP.
   HE DOES, DOES HE!  WELL, WELL.  THAT <S INTERESTING.
   IN ORDER TO ESCAPE THE CORRUPTIONS OF MODERN LIFE.
   OH.  I MUST TELL MYRA.  SHE <LL BE DELIGHTED.  WELL, SO I SUPPOSE
YOU DONT WANT A FLAT!
   I LIVE AT HOME WITH MY MAMMA QUITE HAPPILY, THANK YOU.
I HAVE THE BOTTOM HALF AND SHE HAS THE TOP HALF.
   THAT SOUNDS REASONABLE.  BUT YOU <VE NEVER HAD THE URGE TO
LEAVE HOME!  TO CAST ITS DUST OFF YOUR FEET!
   GOOD LORD, WHY SHOULD I!  BESIDES, MOTHER <S SUCH A GOOD
COOK.  ALMOST AS GOOD AS MYRA.
   DONT YOU WANT TO REVOLT AGAINST US!  IT WAS MY FIRST IDEA.  AND
MYRA<S TOO.  AND SHE HAS BEEN SO LOOKING FORWARD TO THE MOMENT
WHEN TONY WOULD REVOLT AGAINST HER.
   BUT HOW COULD ONE REVOLT AGAINST MY MOTHER OR AGAINST
MYRA!  THEY ARE BOTH PERFECTLY DELIGHTFUL.  AND BESIDES, YOU <VE
DONE ALL THE REVOLTING, HAVENT YOU!  THERE <S NOTHING LEFT FOR US.
   SURE THERE MUST BE SOMETHING ... A TRAMP.  GOOD FOR HIM.
   MOTHER AND PHILIP ARE COMING.  PHILIP, BUT NO ROSEMARY.
DO YOU KNOW WHO ROSEMARY IS!
   ROSEMARY!  THE ONLY ROSEMARY I KNOW IS ROSEMARY PAINE.
   WHO IS ROSEMARY PAINE!
"1034
   SHE USED TO BE MARRIED TO OLD PADDY @ SECRETARY FOR @ I FORGET
NOW.  SHE <S INTERESTED IN HOUSING.  YES.  NICE WOMAN.  VERY EFFICIENT.
   WELL, PHILIP IS MARRYING HER.
   PHILIP <S MARRYING AGAIN, IS HE!  GOOD FOR HIM.
   WE <RE IN FOR SUCH A JOLLY TIME.  MOTHER, BATTLING DAY AND
NIGHT @ OR AT LEAST, PART OF THE NIGHT, WITH THE BOMB.  AND ROSEMARY
BATTLING WITH HOUSING.  AND YOUR MOTHER, SANDY.  SANDY,
WHEN <S MILLY COMING BACK!
   VERY SOON NOW, I BELIEVE.
   MILLY WILL HELP MOTHER TO BATTLE WITH THE BOMB WHEN SHE <S
NOT ATTENDING TO RACIAL PREJUDICE AND THE CHINESE PEASANTRY.  OH,
MY GOD, THEY REALLY ARE UTTERLY INTOLERABLE.
I SIMPLY CANNOT ENDURE THEM.  IT <S THEIR UTTERLY APPALLING VITALITY.
THEY EXHAUST ME.
   PERHAPS IT <S TIME YOU TOOK TO THE ROADS.
   YOU DONT SEEM TO SEE THE HORRORS OF THE SITUATION.  WE <RE
GOING TO HAVE THIS HOUSE FULL OF AMAZONS.  THREE OF THEM.  MY
MOTHER.  YOUR MOTHER, POPPING IN AND OUT WITH HER HANDS FULL OF
PAMPHLETS AND FILES, AS IS HER WONT.  AND ROSEMARY.
\  DID YOU SAY ROSEMARY!  HAS SHE COME!
+  NO, SHE HASNT COME YET>
, WHY ARENT YOU OUTSIDE THE HOUSE
OF COMMONS, MYRA!
   YES, WHY ARENT YOU!
\  PHILIP DROPPED IN, WE GOT TALKING, AND I CAME BACK WITH HIM.
+  WHAT DO YOU MEAN, DROPPED IN.  YOU TALK ABOUT THE HOUSE OF
COMMONS AS IF IT WERE THE LOCAL.
+  I WAS DRIVING PAST, AND I SAW MYRA WITH THE OTHERS, AND I
STOPPED TO SAY HULLO.  WHERE <S ROSEMARY!  SHE SAID SHE <D GET HERE
UNDER HER OWN STEAM.
   WE ARE ALL SITTING HERE WAITING FOR ROSEMARY.
   I DO HOPE IT <S ALL RIGHT, HER COMING HERE.
"1035
\  OF COURSE, WHERE ELSE SHOULD SHE COME!
+  WELL, I DID TRY TO FIX HER UP SOMEWHERE
ELSE.  SOMEWHERE MORE CENTRAL FOR SHOPPING, I MEAN.
WELL, SHE SAYS SHE CANT
GET MARRIED WITHOUT NEW CLOTHES.
WELL, MIKE @ NICE TO SEE YOU AGAIN.
   HAVENT SEEN YOU FOR SOME TIME, PHILIP.  HAVENT YOU TIME FOR
POLITICS ANY LONGER!
   I <M UP TO MY EYES WITH THIS NEW COMMUNITY CENTRE WE <RE
BUILDING.
   YES, I HEARD.  SO YOUR FIRM GOT THE CONTRACT!  IT <S A BIG THING,
ISNT IT!
\  PHILIP, DARLING, WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME.  I <M SO GLAD.
+  DO
YOU REMEMBER THOSE PLANS I WAS PLAYING WITH THAT SUMMER @ WHEN
WE WERE IN VENICE!
\  BUT OF COURSE.  THEY WERE BEAUTIFUL.  AND YOU WERE IN DESPAIR
BECAUSE YOU SAID YOU <D NEVER SEE IT BUILT.
+  WE <VE BEEN MISSING YOU
ON THE COMMITTEE, PHILIP.
   MYRA, DO YOU REMEMBER HOW I
WANTED THAT FAC
ADE @ REMEMBER, YOU SAID IT WOULDNT WORK!
\  THEN I WAS WRONG.  REMEMBER HOW WE QUARRELLED
ABOUT IT!  WE QUARRELLED FOR THREE DAYS!
+  WHAT, WE ONLY QUARRELLED FOR THREE DAYS THAT
TIME!
I DO SO HOPE ROSEMARY IS
INTERESTED IN ARCHITECTURE.
\  AND WHAT ABOUT THE ROOF GARDENS @ DID YOU
GET YOUR WAY ABOUT THOSE TOO!
+  YES, EVERYTHING.  LOOK, I <LL SHOW THE PHOTOGRAPHS.
"1036
\  THIS IS GOING TO TAKE UP A LOT OF YOUR TIME, PHILIP.  I DO HOPE
YOU ARENT GOING TO DROP OUT OF POLITICS ALTOGETHER.
+  MYRA DARLING, CANT YOU SEE EVERYONE <S FED UP WITH POLITICS.
IT <S NOT THE TIME.
\  WHAT DO YOU MEAN, NOT THE TIME ... !
+  NOT THE OLD KIND OF POLITICS.  SURELY YOU CAN SEE THAT!
   CAN I DO ANYTHING FOR YOU!
\  WELL, YES.
+  MY GOD, YOU ARENT ROSEMARY!
\  YES, I AM.  WHO DID YOU THINK I WAS!
+  ROSEMARY IS HERE.
\  OH, PHILIP, FOR GOD<S SAKE, YOU <RE NOT GOING TO CHANGE, ARE
YOU!
+  WELL, WHY NOT!
\  PHILIP, HALF THE PEOPLE I KNOW, PEOPLE WHO <VE SPENT ALL THEIR
LIVES FIGHTING AND TRYING TO CHANGE THINGS, THEY <VE GONE INSIDE THEIR
HOMES AND SHUT THEIR FRONT DOORS AND GONE DOMESTIC AND COMFORTABLE
@ AND SAFE.
+  WELL, WHAT <S WRONG WITH THAT!
   MYRA.  PHILIP.  ROSEMARY <S HERE.
\  WHAT <S WRONG WITH IT!  I NEVER
BELIEVED I <D HEAR YOU SAY THAT @ WHO <S THAT!
   HULLO, PHILIP.

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"1037
\ WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE!
+  THIS HOUSE HAS EIGHT ROOMS IN IT AND THIS IS THE ONLY CORNER I
CAN FIND TO FIT MYSELF INTO @ TOGETHER WITH MOTHER<S HAT, THE CHINA
AND THE REST OF THE ...
\  WHAT <S IN THE OTHER ROOMS!
+  PEOPLE.  AND THINGS.  MORE THINGS THAN PEOPLE.  EXTRAORDINARY
HOW MUCH SPACE THE HUMANITARIAN CONSCIENCE TAKES UP.
\  I <M SORRY WE <VE TAKEN YOUR ROOM.
+  IT <S A PRETTY ROOM, ISNT IT!
\  YES.  THE SUN HAS BEEN IN IT SINCE SIX THIS MORNING.  HAVE
YOU SEEN PHILIP!
+  I <VE SLEPT IN IT FOR FIFTEEN YEARS.
\  DO YOU KNOW WHERE PHILIP IS!
+  I EXPECT HE <S TALKING TO MOTHER.
\  OH.  WELL, THEY <RE VERY OLD FRIENDS, ARENT THEY!
+  INSEPARABLE.  THEY STARTED QUARRELLING THIS MORNING AT SEVEN
O<CLOCK.
\  WHAT ABOUT!  I THOUGHT PHILIP HAD GONE FOR A WALK!
+  THEY BOTH WENT FOR A WALK.  AROUND AND AROUND THE GARDEN.
QUARRELLING.
\  BUT WHAT ABOUT!
+  POLITICS.
\  OH.
+  THESE PEOPLE TALK ABOUT POLITICS WITH ALL THE PASSIONATE INTENSITY
OTHER PEOPLE RESERVE FOR SEX.  EXTRAORDINARY.
\  I DIDNT KNOW PHILIP WAS INTERESTED IN POLITICS.
"1038
+  ARE YOU!
\  I <VE NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT IT.  AND YOU!
+  NO.
\  I REALLY MUST TALK TO PHILIP.
+  DONT GO.  STAY AND TALK TO ME.
\  WHAT ABOUT!
+  JUST TALK.
\  PERHAPS HE <S GONE BACK TO OUR
ROOM.
+  OH GOD WHAT A MESS<
.
\  WHAT ARE YOU DOING!
+  PEEKABOO.
\  WHAT ARE YOU DOING!
+  WHAT <S THIS LOOKING@GLASS DOING HERE!
\  WELL, WHY NOT!
+  IT <S ALWAYS HUG THERE.
\  HAS IT!  OH, DO LEAVE IT ALONE, TONY.
+  IT <S ALWAYS HUNG HERE.
\  OH.  YES, I REMEMBER WHEN YOU CAME BACK FROM SCHOOL YOU
ALWAYS USED TO GO ALL OVER THE HOUSE TO SEE IF EVERYTHING WAS IN THE
SAME PLACE.
+  EVERY TIME I GO AWAY, WHEN I COME
BACK IT <S AS IF A BOMB <S EXPLODED IN IT @ WHY IS EVERYTHING IN SUCH A
MESS, MOTHER!
\  OH, I
HAVENT TIME.  I GET BORED WITH ALL THESE THINGS.  THEY JUST ACCUMULATE
AND PILE UP ... WHEN I THINK I ONCE SWORE I WOULD NEVER OWN
THINGS, I <D NEVER ACCUMULATE POSSESSIONS @ AND NOW I <VE LIVED IN ONE
HOUSE FOR FIFTEEN YEARS AND I FEEL IT <S SITTING ALL OVER ME LIKE A @ TOAD<
.
+  MOTHER, HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT @
WE <VE ALWAYS LIVED HERE.
 "1039
\  ALWAYS<
.  I WOULD NEVER HAVE BELIEVED ONCE THAT I <D LIVE IN ONE
PLACE FOR FIFTEEN YEARS @ IT <S DISGUSTING.  I <LL BE SO PLEASED TO BE RID
OF IT.
+  RID OF IT!  YOU DONT MEAN THAT!
\  I DO.
+  MOTHER, BUT WHAT <S DISGUSTING IS THAT IT <S SUCH A MESS.  LORD,
EVERYTHING <S IN A MESS.  EVEN THE FRONT DOOR LOCK IS BROKEN.
\  OH, WHAT DOES IT MATTER<
.
+  OH, I <M SURE THAT APPEALS TO YOU> WALK RIGHT IN, WALK RIGHT IN,
LADIES AND GENTLEMEN, THE HUMANITARIAN CONSCIENCE IS ALWAYS AT
HOME AND WAITING.
\  OH, TONY, WHEN I DO TRY AND
CLEAR UP ... WHY DONT YOU PUT SOME CLOTHES ON!  OR ARE YOU
TRYING TO GET A GLAMOROUS TAN!
+  OH, JESUS<
.
WELL, HOW <S THE HAPPY COUPLE THIS MORNING!
\  HOW SHOULD I KNOW!
+  BUT YOU <VE BEEN IN ANIMATED CONVERSATION WITH UNCLE PHILIP
FOR HOURS.
\  I NATURALLY DIDNT MENTION ROSEMARY @ THAT WOULD
BE IN SUCH BAD TASTE.
+  YOU MUST HAVE GATHERED THROUGH YOUR ANTENNAE, SO TO SPEAK,
HOW THINGS WERE GOING @ NO!  WELL, I <D LIKE TO KNOW.  THEY ARE
SITTING GAZING INTO EACH OTHER<S EYES!  OR PERHAPS THEY <VE GONE BACK
TO BED.  MY BED.  MY WELL@WARMED BED.  FIRST SANDY.  THEN UNCLE
PHILIP AND ROSEARY.
\  PHILIP ASKED ME IF I HAD ANOTHER BED I COULD
PUT INTO THEIR ROOM.  SO I DID.  TWIN BEDS SIDE BY SIDE LIKE AN
ADVERTISEMENT IN AN AMERICAN MAGAZINE.  I FELT SO MUCH BETTER.
+  I CANT THINK WHY.
\  PHILIP AND I SHARED A THREE@FOOT BED FOR FIVE YEARS.
+  DO YOU HAVE TO!
\  YES, I DO.  THAT HE SHOULD BRING HER HERE.  GOD, MEN ARE THE END.
THEY REALLY ARE THE END.
"1040
+  UNCLE PHILIP IS PROBABLY NOT AWARE OF YOUR ENDURING PASSION
FOR HIM.
\  HE <S VERY WELL AWARE OF IT.  ERGO.
+  ERGO WHAT!
\  WELL, LET <S SEE WHAT HAPPENS.
+  IF YOU GO ON BEING SO CHARMING TO THAT POOR GIRL SHE MIGHT
PERMANENTLY LOSE HER POWERS OF SPEECH.
\  BUT, TONY, I WAS DOING MY BEST.  I REALLY WAS.
+  LAST NIGHT ATT DINNER YOU WERE LIKE BEATRICE LILLIE IMPERSONATING
@ OUR DEAR QUEEN.
\  WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO DO @ BURST INTO TEARS!
+  WHY NOT, IF YOU FEEL LIKE IT!  WHY DONT YOU EVER!
\  I DO MY CRYING IN PRIVATE.  DO YOU IMAGINE, AFTER PUTTING UP
SUCH A GOOD SHOW WITH PHILIP ALL THIS TIME, I <M GOING TO BEHAVE
LIKE A JILTED 16@YEAR@OLD!  OBVIOUSLY NOT.
+  OH, OBVIOUSLY.
\  WHAT I CANT STAND IS THE DAMNED DISHONESTY OF IT.  MEN ARE SO
DISHONEST.
+  I <M SURE YOU <RE RIGHT.  BUT WHY IN THIS CASE!
\  OH, SURELY YOU CAN SEE!  HE DOESNT WANT TO
MARRY HER.  BUT HE HASNT GOT THE GUTS TO DO IT HIMSELF, SO HE BRINGS
HER HERE.  HE NEVER DID HAVE ANY GUTS.  I WAS MANOEUVRED INTO A
POSITION WHERE I HAD TO BREAK IT OFF OR LOSE MY SELF@RESPECT.  AND
THAT <S WHAT HE <S DOING WITH HER.  BLOODY MAN.
+  AND WHY DO YOU LOVE SUCH A DESPICABLE PERSON!
\  OH @ LOVE.  I NEVER USE THE WORD.
+  I DO.
\  I WISH YOU WOULD.
+  WHEN IT MEANS NOTHING!
\  OH, DONT BE SO SOLEMN.
CANT YOU EVER LAUGH!  YOU <RE SUCH A BORING LOT.  THE YOUNG ARE SO
BORING.  I <VE COME TO THE CONCLUSION I CANT STAND THE COMPANY OF
ANYONE UNDER THE AGE OF 35.
"1041
+  YOU MEAN YOU CANT STAND THE COMPANY OF THE UNCORRUPTED!
\  WHAT!
+  I <VE SPENT A GOOD PART OF WHAT ARE KNOWN AS MY FORMATIVE
YEARS LISTENING TO THE CONVERSATION OF THE MATURE.  YOU SET MY
TEETH ON EDGE.  YOU <RE CORRUPT.  YOU <RE SLOPPY AND CORRUPT.  I <M
WAITING FOR THAT MOMENT WHEN YOU PUT YOUR FOOT DOWN ABOUT
SOMETHING AND SAY YOU <VE HAD ENOUGH.  BUT YOU NEVER DO.  ALL YOU
DO IS WATCH THINGS @ WITH INTEREST.  IF PHILIP MURDERED ROSEMARY,
SEDUCED SANDY AND STOLE ALL YOUR MONEY, ALL YOU <D SAY WOULD BE>
HOW INTERESTING.
<
\  HE <D MURDER ME, NOT ROSEMARY.  OBVIOUSLY.
+  OH, OBVIOUSLY, OBVIOUSLY, OBVIOUSLY.  THAT WOULD BE INTERESTING,
WOULDNT IT!
\  IT <S SO HARD FOR A MAN WHEN HIS WIFE DIES AND
LEAVES HIM UNPROTECTED<
.
+  I THOUGHT YOU LIKED HIS WIFE.
\  I DID.  BUT ALAS, SHE <S DEAD.  SOME MEN STAY MARRIED BECAUSE IT
PROTECTS THEM AGAINST THE @ NECESSITY OF MARRYING SOMEBODY ELSE.
PHILIP MARRIED HER WHEN SHE WAS 20, AND AFTER THAT THEY HARDLY
SAW EACH OTHER.  HE WAS VERY FOND OF HER @ AS THE PHRASE GOES.  AND
SO HE SHOULD HAVE BEEN.  SHE LIVED LIKE A NUN ON A MOUNTAIN PEAK,
FORGIVING HIM HIS SINS, AND FROM TIME TO TIME HE RETURNED TO THE
GOOD WOMAN FOR A NICE REST.  BUT NOW SHE <S DEAD.  SO THERE <S ROSEMARY.
THE MOMENT I HEARD PHILIP<S WIFE WAS DEAD, I SAID TO MYSELF,
<AH@HA,< I SAID, <HE <S GOING TO BE IN TROUBLE WITH ROSEMARY BEFORE
THE YEAR <S OUT<.
+  I THOUGHT YOU <D NEVER HEARD OF ROSEMARY.
\  ROSEMARY, FELICITY, HARRIET.  WHAT DOES IT MATTER!  OF COURSE
HE DOESNT WANT TO MARRY HER.  SO HE BRINGS HER HERE, WHERE SHE <S
THOROUGHLY LOST AND HUMILIATED.  GOD, YOU ARE A
COWARDLY HYPOCRITICAL LOT.
+  WHY ME!  YOU FORGET I HAVENT STARTED USING THE
WORD <LOVE< YET.
\  I <VE NO DOUBT YOU SOON WILL.  BUT I <M NOT GOING TO
"1042
COPE WITH THE SACRIFICES TO YOUR VANITY @ I <M NOT.  YOU CAN MANAGE
THEM YOURSELF.
+  WELL, IF YOU UNDERSTAND IT ALL ... IF YOU UNDERSTAND IT ...
YOU UNDERSTAND IT SO THAT <S ENOUGH.
\  BUT I <M NOT BLAMING ANYONE FOR ANYTHING.  IT SEEMS TO ME, AS
FAR AS SEX IS CONCERNED, OR IF YOU PREFER IT, LOVE, THE ONLY THING TO DO
IS TO SHRUG YOUR SHOULDERS AND FORGIVE
EVERYONE.
+  BUT YOU HAVENT FORGIVEN PHILIP.
\  NO.
+  DO BE NICE TO THAT POOR GIRL.  IT <S LIKE SEEING A POOR LITTLE FLY
BEING HYPNOTIZED BY A HORRIBLE BROWN SPIDER.
\  POOR LITTLE FLY.
+  CANT YOU REALLY SEE THAT SHE <S TERRIFIED OF YOU!
\  OF ME!
+  YOU <VE JUST EXPLAINED TO ME WHY SHE SHOULD BE.
\  IT <S HUMILIATING FOR BOTH OF US.  BUT FRIGHTENED @ OF ME!
SHE <S 20.
+  THEN FOR GOD<S SAKE WHY DONT YOU AT LEAST MAKE UP YOUR
FACE!  I REALLY CANT STAND IT, SEEING YOU SLOP AROUND THE HOUSE HALF
THE DAY LOOKING LIKE THAT.
\  WHEN I <M CLEANING THE HOUSE I EXPECT TO BE LOVED FOR MYSELF.
+  WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CLEAN IT!
OH, ALL RIGHT, BE A MARTYR.  BUT I DONT ENJOY
HOUSEWORK SO DONT EXPECT ME TO SLUMP ABOUT ON MY KNEES.
\  I HAVENT ASKED YOU TO.
+  WHAT INTERESTS ME MUCH MORE THAN THE CONVOLUTIONS OF YOUR
EMOTIONS AND UNCLE PHILIP<S IS ROSEMARY.  WHY DOES A GIRL OF
20 WANT TO MARRY A JADED OLD @ UNCLE.  THE NEWSPAPERS SAY IT <S THE
THING THESE DAYS.  ONE MARRIED A MAN OLD ENOUGH TO BE YOUR
FATHER.  WHY!
\  I THOUGHT YOU DIDNT READ THE NEWSPAPERS.
+  WHY!  BECAUSE HE HAS EXPERIENCE!  IS THAT IT!  JESUS<
.
\  PHILIP HAS ALWAYS BEEN ATTRACTIVE TO WOMEN.
P1043
+  ATTRACTIVE<
.  WHEN I WAS DOING MY TIME IN HIS OFFICE I WAS
PERMANENTLY AMAZED AT THE WAY ALL THE WOMEN WERE READY TO LIE
DOWN AND LET HIM WALK ALL OVER THEM.  WHY!  WELL, YOU DID TOO,
DIDNT YOU!  SO YOU CAN EXPLAIN IT TO ME.
\  I DARE SAY THEY ARE UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT OLDER MEN ARE
KINDER THAN YOUNG ONES.
+  KINDER<
.  THIS MORNING I HEARD ROSEMARY SAY> <DARLING, DONT
YOU LOVE ME ANY MORE!< AND HE SAID> <DARLING, YOU <RE SIMPLY
BEING HYSTERICAL.<  WELL, DID HE TELL
YOU YOU WERE HYSTERICAL!
\  TONY, HAVE SOME PITY ON ME SOMETIMES.
+  PITY!  ME!  BUT YOU <RE NOT CRYING, ARE YOU!
\  NO.
NO.
+  I SHOULD THINK NOT.
\  IF PHILIP <S OFF TO THE OFFICE THEN I SUPPOSE WE <LL HAVE TO ENTERTAIN
ROSEMARY.  OF COURSE I CAN ALWAYS RELY ON YOU.  THANK GOD,
THERE <S SANDY.
+  YES, THANK GOD FOR SANDY.  HE CAN ALWAYS BE RELIED UPON TO
COPE WITH ANY SOCIAL SITUATION.  WHERE IS HE!
\  WORKING IN MY ROOM, I SUPPOSE.  WE <VE GOT THAT BIG MEETING
TOMORROW NIGHT.
+  SO INTERESTING HOW THAT BOY <S TURNED OUT.  WHO WOULD HAVE
FORESEEN THIS IDEALISM IN SANDY!
WHAT <S THE MATTER!
\  GIDDY.  NO, LEAVE ME ALONE.
+  YOU <RE NOT STILL HAVING THE CHANGE OF LIFE, ARE YOU!
\  NO, DEAR.  AS YOU KNOW, I <VE FINISHED WITH IT.
+  HOW SHOULD I KNOW!  CHANGE OF LIFE, CHANGE OF LIFE.
WELL, YOU HAVENT CHANGED MUCH.
\  TONY, WILL YOU DO ME A FAVOUR!  KEEP OUT OF MY WAY
JUST FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS.
+  I COULD MOVE INTO UNCLE MIKE<S FLAT.
\  OH, DO ANYTHING YOU LIKE.
"1044
+  IF YOUR SENSE OF TIMING HADNT BEEN WRONG, AND I HAD BEEN
COMING HOME NEXT WEEK, WHAT WOULD I HAVE FOUND!  SANDY BACK
WITH MILLY AND A NICE EMPTY HOUSE AND YOU ALL READY TO ENTERTAIN
ME.C
\  YOU KNOW QUITE WELL YOU DIDNT LET ME KNOW @ JUST SO AS TO
CATCH ME OUT.
+  COULDNT YOU REALLY REMEMBER THE DATE I WAS TO
FINISH!
\  OH, TONY, WHY SHOULD I!  ANY NORMAL PERSON WOULD HAVE LET
ME KNOW.  IT <S BEEN TWO YEARS.  YOU <VE BEEN POPPING BACK AND
FORTH FROM CAMP FOR TWO YEARS.  IT <S A LONG TIME.
+  SO YOU <D LIKE ME TO MOVE INTO THAT FLAT FOR A WEEK!
\  BUT YOU KNOW I WOULDNT.  WHY DO YOU THINK I WANT TO GET
RID OF YOU!  I THOUGHT YOU <D WANT TO LIVE BY YOURSELF.
+  BUT WHY!
\  IT <S NORMAL FOR A YOUNG MAN TO WANT TO LIVE BY HIMSELF, ISNT IT!
+  THEN I <M OBVIOUSLY NOT NORMAL.
\  I WAS MAKING IT EASY FOR YOU @ THAT <S ALL.  I <VE TOLD MIKE YOU
DEFINITELY DONT WANT THE FLAT.
+  EASY FOR ME!
\  WELL ... IN CASE YOU FELT YOU OUGHT TO STAY WITH
ME WHEN YOU DIDNT WANT TO.
+  OUGHT TO!  WHY!
\  WELL, I DONT KNOW.
I DO WISH MILLY WOULD COME BACK.
+  WHY!
\  SHE <S SO KIND.
+  KIND, KIND<
.  YOU <VE GOT SANDY, HAVENT YOU!  ISNT SANDY
KIND!
\  YOU <RE A LOT OF SAVAGES.  THE YOUNG ARE A LOT OF SAVAGES.
+  THEN WHY @ OH, DONT TELL ME.  OF COURSE @ HE <S GOOD IN BED.
IS THAT IT!
\  OH, HE <S VERY ACCOMPLISHED.  VERY.  HE <S SO
EFFICIENT.  MY DEAR, THERE ARE TIMES WHEN I FEEL I SHOULD BE CLAPPING.
+  DONT TELL ME THAT <S NOT ENOUGH.  THEN WHY!
"1045
\  VIEILLESSE OBLIGE.
+  THAT SMOOTH@FACED WELL@MANNERED LITTLE SPIV.  I SHOULD HAVE
THOUGHT THAT SANDY WAS EVERYTHING YOU HATED.  HE <LL END UP AS
MASTER OF THE QUEEN<S WARDROBE.  OR PERSONNEL MANAGER FOR THE
FEDERATION OF IMPERIAL INDUSTRIES.  SOMETHING NEEDING TACT.  TACT.
TACT.  TACT.  WELL, IT <S NO USE YOUR TRYING TO BE TACTFUL, MOTHER.
WHO <S BEEN ALERTED TO TALK TO ME!  SANDY!  IS IT DEAR UNCLE SANDY!
OR IS IT UNCLE PHILIP!
\  WELL, ACTUALLY, IT <S PHILIP.
+  WHAT <S THE PLOT!
\  YOU SEE, IT <S LIKE THIS ...
   GOOD@BYE, DARLING.
+  GOOD@BYE, DARLING.
\  DARLING, YOU <VE FORGOTTEN YOUR BRIEFCASE.
+  HE <S FORGOTTEN HIS BRIEFCASE.  WELL, MOTHER!
\  THE IDEA WAS THAT HE WOULD HANDLE YOU FOR ME @ I SUGGESTED
HE SHOULD TAKE YOU BACK INTO HIS OFFICE.  NO TONY, DO WAIT A
MINUTE.  IT <S YOUR WHOLE FUTURE AT STAKE.
+  YES, IT <S MY FUTURE.
\  IT WOULD TAKE YOU SIX MONTHS TO STUDY FOR THAT EXAMINATION.
+  A YEAR, AFTER MY BRAIN <S GONE TO POT IN THE ARMY.
\  OH @ DO STOP BEING SO SORRY FOR YOURSELF ALL THE TIME.
+  GOOD@BYE, DARLING.
\  GOOD@BYE, DARLING.
+  GOOD@BYE.
   OH, CHRIST<
.  IT REALLY IS REPULSIVE, YOU MUST ADMIT.
ALL RIGHT, ITS ALL VERY BEAUTIFUL AND HOLY.  MOTHER @ WHEN I
LEFT PHILIP<S OFFICE BEFORE, IT WAS BECAUSE I COULDNT STAND IT.
\  COULDNT STAND WHAT!
+  SEEING UNCLE PHILIP AND HIS ADMIRING STAFF, HIS WILLING HAREM.
\  OH, YOU IMPOSSIBLE BLOODY LITTLE PRIG.
"1046
+  UNCLE PHILIP, MOTHER HAS
LEFT US ALONE FOR THE INTERVIEW.
   YES.  IT <S ABOUT THIS JOB.  I EXPECT SHE TOLD
YOU.
   THANKS, I DONT WANT IT.  MOTHER, INTERVIEW OVER.
\  OH, PHILIP, CANT YOU ...
+  SONGS WITHOUT WORDS.
   I MUST BE GETTING ALONG TO THE OFFICE.  IT <S REALLY VERY GOOD OF
YOU TO HAVE ROSEMARY HERE, MYRA.
\  I THINK SO, TOO.
+  YES, WELL.
\  YOU KNOW YOU CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON ME FOR ANYTHING.
+  YES.
\  DEAR PHILIP.
+  I REALLY MUST HURRY.
\  BUT I WANT TO ASK YOU SOMETHING.  IT <S ABOUT MAX.  YOU
REMEMBER MAX!
+  WELL, OF COURSE.  YOU MEAN THE MAX FROM THE INTERNATIONAL
BRIGADE!
\  HE <S IN TROUBLE.
+  WHO ISNT!
\  HE <S BEEN BLACKLISTED IN AMERICA AND HE <D LIKE A TEMPORARY
JOB TO TIDE HIM OVER.
+  BUT I DONT NEED SCRIPT WRITERS IN MY OFFICE.  WELL, WHAT ARE
HIS QUALIFICATIONS!
\  HE <S AN AWFULLY NICE PERSON.
+  ALL RIGHT, SEND HIM ALONG.
\  PHILIP, I SUPPOSE YOU WOULDNT LIKE TO BE ONE OF THE SPONSORS
FOR A NEW PROTEST WE <RE GETTING UP!
+  A PROTEST AGAINST WHAT!
"1047
\  I <LL EXPLAIN.
+  MYRA DEAR, I DONT KNOW HOW OFTEN I <VE TOLD YOU THAT I
DONT BELIEVE IN THIS @ YOU CAN DO MORE BY QUIETLY PULLING STRINGS
THAN YOU EVER CAN BY MASS PROTESTS AND COMMITTEES AND THAT KIND
OF THING.
\  SINCE WHEN HAVE YOU TOLD ME<
.  YESTERDAY.  SO NOW YOU
BELIEVE IN PULLING STRINGS.  WHAT <S HAPPENED TO YOU, PHILIP!  WHAT
HAS HAPPENED!  YOU USED TO BE A SOCIALIST.
+  I <VE DISCOVERED THAT I WAS A SOCIALIST BECAUSE I BELIEVED
IN LIBERTY, FREEDOM, DEMOCRACY.  WELL, MYRA!
MYRA DEAR, DO YOU REALLY IMAGINE THAT ANY GOVERNMENT IN
THE WORLD CARES ABOUT THE PROTESTS OF NICE@MINDED HUMANITARIANS!
\  THEY CARE ABOUT HAVING PRESSURE PUT ON THEM.  I <VE GOT A LIST
AS LONG AS MY TWO ARMS OF PEOPLE IN PRISON, SENTENCED TO DEATH,
DEPORTED, BANNED, PROHIBITED, BLACKLISTED ...
+  WHICH SIDE OF THE WORLD THIS TIME!  OURS OR THEIRS!
\  OURS.
+  AND WHAT ABOUT DIMITRI!
\  NO.  OH, NO ... I THOUGHT HE WAS OUT OF PRISON.
+  I HAD A LETTER FROM WILLI YESTERDAY.  HE SAYS DIMITRI DIED IN
PRISON.  OF COURSE NOW HE <S OFFICIALLY REHABILITATED AND A HERO OF THE
PEOPLE.
\  TORTURE!
+  I SUPPOSE SO.  PROBABLY.  DONT CRY.
WHAT <S THE USE!  BESIDES, HE <S DIED FOR SOCIALISM, HASNT HE!
   DONT LET YOURSELF BE MISLED.  THEY <RE TALKING ABOUT SOCIALISM
IN RUSSIA, NOT BRITAIN.  IT <S TEARING THEM APART, THE WAY PEOPLE ARE
NASTY TO EACH OTHER @ IN RUSSIA.
\  I CANT STAND YOUR CYNICISM.  I NEVER COULD STAND IT.
"1048
+  YOU <D BETTER STICK TO YOUR HYDROGEN BOMB.  STICK TO DISARMAMENT.
\  YOU MEAN THAT WE <VE GOT TO ACCEPT THE FACT THAT IN OUR TIME
THERE <S NOT GOING TO BE DEMOCRACY, THERE <S NOT GOING TO BE FREEDOM,
THERE <S NOT GOING TO BE LIBERTY!
+  YES, OF COURSE.  WHO CARES ABOUT LIBERTY!  THE PEOPLE!
   ONE HALF OF THIS LOT ARE BOGGED DOWN
EMOTIONALLY IN THE THIRTIES WITH THE SPANISH CIVIL WAR, AND THE
OTHER HALF CAME TO A STICKY END WITH HUNGARY.  IF YOU CUT THEM OPEN
YOU <D FIND SPAIN OR HUNGARY WRITTEN IN LETTERS OF BLOOD ON THEIR
SOFT HEARTS @ BUT NOT BRITAIN.  CERTAINLY NOT POOR OLD BRITAIN.
   WHY DONT YOU RECOGNIZE
THE FACT THAT WE <VE HAD IT!  WE <VE SERVED OUR PURPOSE.
\  YOU MEAN WE SHOULD LEAVE IT ALL TO THE YOUTH!  GOD HELP US,
ALL THEY CARE ABOUT IS ...
+  I <M LATE.  SEE YOU LATER, MYRA.
   YES, WHY DONT YOU RECOGNIZE THE FACT THAT YOU <VE
HAD IT!
\  IF WE STOP DO@GOODING AND
JUST SIT BACK WITH OUR FEET UP, ARE YOU GOING TO TAKE OVER!
GOD, YOU ARE A PETTY, RESPECTABLE LITTLE LOT.
+  MOTHER.
\  WELL!
+  I GATHER THAT AT THE MOMENT YOUR LARGE HEART IS FULL OF PITY FOR
THE VICTIMS OF CAPITALIST WITCH@HUNTS.
\  AND WHY SHOULDNT IT BE!  WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO SAY!
+  THAT <S ALL.
\  YOU COULD MAKE OUT A CASE FOR THE WHOLE LOT OF US BEING SO
DISCREDITED, SO MORALLY DISCREDITED, THAT WE SHOULD ALL TAKE A
UNANIMOUS DECISION TO STAY QUIET FOR THE REST OF OUR LIVES.
WE SHOULD ACKNOWLEDGE OUR TOTAL FAILURE AND LEAVE EVERYTHING
IN YOUR HANDS.  IN THE HANDS OF THE GLORIOUS BATTLING YOUTH
WHOSE BANNERS ARE UNSMIRCHED.  IF YOU HAD ANY BANNERS, THAT IS.
+  YOU <RE SO DAMNED SELF@RIGHTEOUS.
"1049
\  I DONT FEEL SELF@RIGHTEOUS.  OF COURSE IF WE DID RETIRE GRACEFULLY
FROM THE FIELD, YOU <D LOSE THE BENEFIT OF OUR REALLY RATHER UNIQUE
EXPERIENCE.
+  UNIQUE.  ALL YOUR LOT HAVE PROVED IS THAT EVERY POLITICAL PARTY
LIES AND ITS MEMBERS LIE TO THEMSELVES.  DID THAT REALLY NEED
PROVING!
\  WHAT ARE YOU SAYING THEN!  WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT ME TO
SAY!
+  I WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE DIED IN TORTURE AND MISERY
AND STARVATION DURING THE YEARS 1935 TO 1939 WHILE YOU STOOD ON
PLATFORMS SMILING PRETTILY AND TALKING ABOUT DEMOCRATIC SOCIALISM.
\  YES, I KNOW.
+  I WISH I HAD A TAPE@RECORDING OF SOME OF YOUR SPEECHES DURING
THAT TIME.  WELL!
\  WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT ME TO SAY!  DO YOU WANT ME TO GIVE
UP @ LIKE PHILIP!  PHILIP <S GOING TO BECOME A NICE KIND@HEARTED
BUSINESS MAN GIVING MONEY TO GOOD CAUSES @ OH, GOD, NO.
OF COURSE, HE IS A WONDERFUL ARCHITECT ... TONY,
I DO WISH YOU <D THINK ABOUT PHILIP<S OFFER.  YOU ARENT REALLY GOING
TO BE AN ELECTRICIAN, ARE YOU!  TONY <S
GOING TO BE AN ELECTRICIAN.  HE <S QUITE DETERMINED TO BE.  WHAT DO
YOU THINK!
   I THINK PEOPLE OUGHT TO BE WHAT THEY WANT
TO BE.
+  HURRAY, ROSEMARY <S ON MY SIDE.
\  MOTHER WANTED M TO BE A DOCTOR, BUT I WANTED TO BE A
NURSE.
+  LUCKILY UNCLE PHILIP ENJOYS VERY GOOD HEALTH FOR A MAN OF HIS
AGE.  WELL, HE DOES, DOESNT HE!
\  WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE AN ELECTRICIAN!
+  PERHAPS I <LL BE A TELEPHONE ENGINEER.  MOTHER, DID YOU KNOW
I COULD BE A TELEPHONE ENGINEER!  COMMUNICATIONS, THAT <S THE THING.
BRINGING PEOPLE TOGETHER.  MOTHER, DO YOU SUPPOSE IF WE TALKED TO
EACH OTHER ON THE TELEPHONE IT WOULD BE EASIER!  WE COULD GO INTO
DIFFERENT ROOMS AND TALK TO EACH OTHER @ OR PLAY EACH OTHER LITTLE
P1050
ITEMS FROM YOUR TAPE@RECORDER ...
\  OH, DAMN YOU.  WHAT DO YOU WANT!  IS IT THAT YOU WANT ME TO
GIVE UP THE H@BOMB WORK, IS THAT IT!
+  WELL, OF COURSE NOT.  OF COURSE YOU SHOULD GO ON ABOUT THE
BOMB.  OR, AS YOU USUALLY REFER TO IT @ YOUR BOMB.  WHY, I MIGHT
EVEN HELP YOU WITH IT.
\  THEN I DONT KNOW, I REALLY DONT.
+  THE SIMPLE FIGHT FOR SURVIVAL @ WE <RE ALL IN ON THAT.  BUT WHAT
FOR!  OR DONT YOU ASK YOURSELF ANY MORE!
WHY ARE YOU SITTING THERE LOOKING SO TORTURED!  YOU <VE GOT WHAT
YOU WANTED, HAVENT YOU!  WELL!  YOU <VE SPENT YOUR LIFE FIGHTING
FOR SOCIALISM.  THERE IT IS, SOCIALISM.  YOU SAID YOU WANTED MATERIAL
PROGRESS FOR THE MASSES.  GOD KNOWS THERE IS MATERIAL PROGRESS.
HUNDREDS OF MILLIONS OF PEOPLE PROGRESSING IN LEAPS AND BOUNDS
TOWARDS A MATERIALLY@PROGRESSIVE HEAVEN.
\  ARE YOU PLEASED ABOUT IT OR ARE YOU NOT!
+  OF COURSE I <M PLEASED.  DOWN WITH POVERTY.  BY THE WAY
MOTHER, HAVE YOU ACTUALLY SEEN POVERTY!  THE REAL THING, I
MEAN.  I HAVENT.  WELL, HAVE YOU!  HAVE YOU, ROSEMARY!
\  MY FAMILY ARENT VERY WELL OFF.
+  ROSEMARY KNOWS ALL ABOUT IT.  HURRAY<
.  IN BRITAIN PEOPLE WEAR
POVERTY LIKE A MEDAL AROUND THEIR NECKS @ A SIGN OF VIRTUE.  WE
ARENT VERY WELL OFF<
.  MOTHER, DO YOU REALIZE YOU <VE SPENT YOUR
WHOLE LIFE FIGHTING TO END SOMETHING YOU KNOW NOTHING ABOUT!
\  WOULD YOU PLEASE BE KIND ENOUGH
TO TELL ME WHAT IT IS YOU WANT, THEN!
+  DO YOU KNOW WHAT IT IS YOU <VE CREATED, YOU AND YOUR LOT!
WHAT A VISION IT IS<
.  A HOUSE FOR EVERY FAMILY.  JUST IMAGINE @ TWO
HUNDRED MILLION FAMILIES @ OR IS IT FOUR HUNDRED MILLION FAMILIES!  TO
EVERY FAMILY A FRONT DOOR.  BEHIND EVERY FRONT DOOR, A FAMILY.  A
HOUSE FULL OF CLEAN, WELL@FED PEOPLE, AND NOT ONE OF THEM EVER
UNDERSTANDS ONE WORD ANYONE ELSE SAYS.  EVERYBODY A KIND OF
WILDERNESS SURROUNDED BY BARBED WIRE SHOUTING ACROSS THE DEFENCES
"1051
INTO THE OTHER WILDERNESS AND NEVER GETTING AN ANSWER BACK.
THAT <S SOCIALISM.  I SUPPOSE IT <S PROGRESS.  WHY NOT!  TO EVERY MAN
HIS WIFE AND TWO CHILDREN AND A CHICKEN IN THE POT ON SUNDAYS.  A
BEAUTIFUL PICTURE @ I <D DIE FOR IT.  TO EVERY MAN HIS FRONT DOOR AND
HIS FRONT DOOR KEY.  TO EACH HIS OWN WILDERNESS.
WELL!
\  IF YOU <RE GOING TO PUT ALL THAT ENERGY INTO DREAMING DREAMS
WHY DONT YOU DREAM TO SOME PURPOSE!
+  DREAS, DREAMS, DREAMS @ LIKE YOUR LOT DID!  WHAT ARE THE
WORDS @ DONT SAY I <VE FORGOTTEN THEM, THEY <VE BEEN STUFFED DOWN
MY THROAT ALL MY LIFE @ LIBERTY, DEMOCRACY, BROTHERHOOD @ AND
WHAT <S THAT OTHER ONE!  AH, YES, COMRADESHIP, THAT <S IT.  A WORLD FULL
OF HAPPY BROTHERS AND COMRADES.
\  DOES THAT REALLY SEEM SO SILLY!
+  JESUS, YOU ARENT ACTUALLY SITTING THERE AND TELLING ME YOU STILL
BELIEVE IN @ JESUS<
.  DO YOU KNOW, THIS LOT STILL
BELIEVE IN IT<
.  WHAT DO YOU THINK!
\  I THINK I BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE SHOULD BE KIND TO EACH
OTHER.
+  THERE, MOTHER, ROSEMARY <S ON YOUR
SIDE @ SHE BELIEVES PEOPLE SHOULD BE NICE TO EACH OTHER.
\  SO MANY PEOPLE HAVE DIED FOR IT.  BETTER PEOPLE THAN
YOU.
+  DIED.
\  JUST IMAGINE, DURING THE LAST FIFTY YEARS HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS
OF PEOPLE HAVE DIED IN TORTURE AND IN LONELINESS, BELIEVING THEY WERE
DYING FOR THE FUTURE @ FOR YOU TONY.
+  WELL, IT DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING O ME.  ALL YOUR
DAMNED HIERARCHY OF SOCIALIST MARTYRS @ WHAT BLOODY RIGHT HAD
THEY TO DIE FOR ME!  BULLYING, THAT <S WHAT IT IS.  I <M NOT GOING TO HAVE
YOUR HOLY DEAD HUNG AROUND MY NECK.  DO YOU
REALIZE WHAT IT IS THEY ARE SAYING!  BECAUSE HUNDREDS OF THOUSANDS
OF SOCIALIST MARTYRS TOOK IT UPON THEMSELVES TO DIE FOR A WORLD FULL
"1052
OF HAPPY BROTHERS AND COMRADES, WE <VE GOT TO FALL INTO LINE.  WELL,
WHAT DO YOU SAY!
\  I DONT KNOW @ MY PARENTS WERENT POLITICAL.
+  OH, ARENT YOU LUCKY<
.
\  TONY, PLEASE TELL ME @ WHAT IS IT THAT YOU WANT!  YOU MUST
WANT SOMETHING!
+  TO BE LEFT ALONE, THAT <S ALL.  AND I DONT WANT ANY MORE
SUFFERING @ NO MORE FIGHTING AND SUFFERING AND DYING.  WHAT FOR!
OH, THE GREAT COMPANY OF MARTYRS WHO WENT SINGING TO THE STAKE
AND THE THUMBSCREWS AND THE FIRING@SQUADS FOR THE SAKE OF THE NOBLE
DREAM OF EVER@FULLER WAGE PACKETS AND A CHICKEN IN EVERY POT.  TO
EACH MAN HIS OWN FRONT DOOR @ TO EACH MAN HIS OWN @ REFRIGERATOR<
.
\  OH, TONY, DO YOU HAVE TO.
+  BUT I WAS TALKING TO YOU.  WHAT DOES
SHE HAVE TO CRY FOR!
\  I DARE SAY THE POOR GIRL WAS UPSET BY YOUR HAPPY PICTURE OF THE
WORLD.
+  I DIDNT MEAN TO MAKE HER CRY.  WHAT SHALL I DO!
\  YOU COULD GO UPSTAIRS AND BE NICE TO HER.
+  BE NICE TO HER.  SAY I <M SORRY.
\  OH, DO I HAVE TO TELL YOU WHAT TO DO!  GO UPSTAIRS AND PUT
YOUR ARMS AROUND HER.
+  I PUT MY ARMS AROUND HER AND THEN SHE <LL FEEL FINE.
\  REALLY, IS IT SUCH A HARD THING TO DO @ TO GO UPSTAIRS TO THAT
POOR CHILD AND BE WARM AND NICE TO HER!
+  YES, IT IS.  OH, VERY WELL, IF YOU WANT ME TO.
\  IF I WANT YOU TO.
+  THERAPY FOR SOUL@TROUBLE, A MAN<S ARMS.
\  OH, NO.
+  PERHAPS IT <S PHILIP.  WELL, HE CAN GO AND PUT HIS ARMS AROUND
"1053
HER.
\  WHO IS IT!  I <M NOT IN.
+  I <LL GIVE YOU THREE GUESSES ... IT <S MILLY.
\  MILLY, NOW!
+  YOU <RE SURELY NOT PLEASED!  NOW SANDY <LL HAVE TO GO BACK TO
HIS MUM.
\  OH, DONT BE SO STUPID.  WHERE IS MILLY!
OH, GET UPSTAIRS TO THAT CHILD, BE A MAN FOR ONCE IN YOUR
LIFE, CANT YOU!
+  ALL RIGHT, I <M GOING.
\  AND COULD YOU PLEASE KEEP YOUR JOLLY LITTLE TONGUE OFF MILLY
FOR A TIME!  SHE <S BEEN TRAIPSING BACK AND FORTH ACROSS THE WORLD AND
SHE <LL BE TIRED.
+  PERHAPS YOU <D LIKE ME TO PUT MY ARMS AROUND HER, TOO.
PERHAPS I SHOULD MAKE LOVE TO MILLY.  WOULD IT BE GOOD FOR HER @
SOOTHING AFTER HER TRAVELS!  OR GOOD FOR ME!
\  OH, TONY, DONT TAKE IT OUT OF MILLY.
   WELL, LOVE, I <M BACK.
   OH, MILLY, I <VE NEVER BEEN SO PLEASED TO SEE
ANYONE.
   ME, TOO.  A DELEGATION OF TWENTY WOMEN FOR TWO WEEKS @ NOT
MY IDEA OF FUN AND GAMES.  I CHANGED TO AN EARLIER PLANE AND HERE
I AM.
   MILLY, DARLING, YOU LOOK MARVELLOUS.  TELL ME ABOUT JAPAN.
TELL ME ABOUT EVERYTHING.  COME AND SIT DOWN AND TALK.  WE <LL HAVE
A PARTY.  YES, OF COURSE, THAT <S WHAT WE MUST DO.  WE <LL HAVE A PARTY.
+  OH, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO.

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"1054
\  WHAT <S THE MATTER, TONY!
ARE YOU ILL!  WHAT <S WRONG!
+  NOW WHY SHOULD I BE ILL!
\  THEN WHY ARE YOU SKULKING IN THE DARK, BARRICADED IN!
+  THIS IS NOW MY BEDROOM.
\  OH, I SEE.
+  HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU GOT!
\  ABOUT TWENTY, I SUPPOSE.
+  YOU BLOW UP A PARTY OF TWENTY PEOPLE AT A COUPLE OF HOURS<
NOTICE!
\  SOME OF THE PEOPLE WHO WENT TO JAPAN WITH MILLY CAME BACK
THIS AFTERNOON.  WHAT <S THAT PALM@COURT MUSIC FOR!  WHAT <S THIS ALL
ABOUT!
+  MILLY.  I <M GOING TO SEDUCE MILLY.
"1055
\  WHY CANT YOU SEDUCE MILLY ANOTHER TIME!  I WANT
HER TO HELP ME CUT SANDWICHES.
+  DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
\  TONY, PLEASE STOP IT.  I DO WISH YOU <D
STOP IT.
+  DARLING, I LOVE YOU.
\  OH ... I WAS PROBABLY WRONG NOT TO BELIEVE IN
CORPORAL PUNISHMENT FOR CHILDREN.
+  OH, NO.
   WHAT <S WRONG, ARE YOU ILL!
   DIDNT YOU SEE THE NOTICE!  I TAKE IT FOR GRANTED THAT I <M
INVISIBLE, THAT I <M SIMPLY SOMETHING PEOPLE WALK THROUGH, BUT
SURELY YOU SAW THE NOTICE.
   WHAT NOTICE!
   A LARGE NOTICE READING> NO ADMITTANCE, USE TRADESMEN<S
ENTRANCE.
   NO.
   MOTHER, MOTHER<
.
\  WHAT!
+  DID YOU TAKE DOWN MY NOTICE!
\  OH, WAS THAT YOUR NOTICE!
+  I <M GOING TO PUT IT BACK.
\  OH, DO ANYTHING YOU DAMNED WELL LIKE.
+  EVERYONE COMES IN, BUT
SIMPLY EVERYONE, AS IF MY BEDROOM WERE @ THE HALL.  BUT NOT MILLY,
FOR WHOM I <M LYING IN WAIT.
   AND WHY ARE YOU LYING IN WAIT FOR MY MOTHER!
   I LOVE HER.  THE SCENE IS SET FOR SEDUCTION.
   RATHER OBVIOUSLY SO, PERHAPS.  WHY THIS CLOISTRAL GLOOM!
   IF YOU SAY SO.  YOU SHOULD
"1056
KNOW.  DARLING, I LOVE YOU.  NO, THAT DOESNT SOUND
RIGHT.  DARLING, I LOVE YOU.  HOW <S THAT!
   IS IS TRUE THAT PHILIP <S LOOKING FOR A PERSONNEL MANAGER!
   YES.  AND I TURNED HIS KIND OFFER
DOWN.  IT <S ALL YOURS SANDY.
   I THOUGHT I MIGHT DISCUSS IT WITH HIM.
   AND MIKE <S LOOKING FOR YOU TO SEE WHEN YOU CAN START IN WITH
THE LABOUR PARTY.  THE PEOPLE WAIT, SANDY, THEY WAIT.
   YES, I MUST DISCUSS THE WHOLE THING WITH THEM BOTH.
   DARLING, I LOVE YOU.  BUT IT <S NO USE.  SHE <LL SIMPLY GO ON
CUTTING BREAD AND BUTTER.  MY BODY WILL BE CARRIED PAST HER ON A
SHUTTER AND ... I WAS BORN OUT OF MY TIME.  YES, I <VE SUDDENLY
UNDERSTOOD WHAT MY TRAGEDY IS.  I WAS BORN OUT OF MY TIME.
   WHY DONT YOU OFFER TO HELP HER CUT THE SANDWICHES!
CLOWN, I NEVER THOUGHT OF IT.
WAIT, I MUST HANG UP MY NOTICE.
\  WHAT NOTICE!
+  THERE, WE SHALL BE UNDISTURBED.
BUT YOUR SHOULDERS, MILLY, YOUR
SHOULDERS, MY EYES DAZZLE.
\  WHAT ARE YOU UP TO, YOUNG TONY!
+  I <M SEDUCING YOU.  THERE.  CAN I HELP YOU
CUT THE SANDWICHES!
\  WHAT ARE YOU SEDUCING ME FOR!
+  OH ... TO REDRESS CERTAIN BALANCES.
BESIDES, MOTHER SAYS I MUST.
\  WELL, THIS IS A SURPRISE.
+  THAT <S NOT WHAT YOU SHOULD HAVE SAID.
\ PERHAPS ANOTHER TIME.  WHERE IS MY
SON!
"1057
+  YOU SHOULDNT ASK THAT EITHER.
\  IS HE COMING HOME TONIGHT OR NOT!  BECAUSE IF NOT, ONE OF THE
PEOPLE I CAME BACK WITH ON THE PLANE COULD USE HIS ROOM.
+  YOU ARE A DISGUSTING LOT OF WOMEN.
\  MIND, I DONT WANT TO HAVE TO DO MY HAIR AGAIN ...
+  YOU SHOULD SLAP MY FACE.  THEN I SHOULD SLAP YOURS.  THEN WE
SHOULD FALL ON THE BED.
\  BUT I HAVENT GOT TIME.  AND YOU DONT KNOW WHAT YOU <RE
DOING, INVITING A PUNCH FROM ME.  MY HUSBAND HIT ME THE ONCE.
+  THEN I AM AFRAID I AM NONPLUSSED.  DOESNT THAT MUSIC DO
ANYTHING TO YOU!
\  WHAT MUSIC!  OH @ THAT.  I <VE GOT SO I NEVER HEAR THE RADIO OR
THE TELLY.
+  I LOVE YOU.
I LOVE YOU.
\  WHAT YOU <RE GOING TO GET FROM ME, YOUNG TONY,
IS A DAMNED GOOD SPANKING.
YOU TAKE IT EASY, LOVE.
YOU JUST LET UP AND TAKE IT A BIT EASIER.
   DO PUT SOMETHING ON, TONY.  YOU <LL CATCH COLD.
+  I KNOW, AND THEN
YOU <LL HAVE TO NURSE ME.
\  EH, BUT HE <S A FINE FIGURE OF A BOY, THAT TONY.
   ONE SEES SUCH A LOT OF IT.  FOR GOD<S SAKE TURN OFF
THAT MUSH.
+  I HAVE FAILED.  I HAVE FAILED UTTERLY.
\  I WANT A LARGE WHISKY.  YOU <D BETTER HAVE ONE TOO, MYRA.
"1058
+  AND ME TOO.  OH, I SEE.  YOU WANT ME TO GO AWAY.  WHY CANT
I STAY!  I MIGHT LEARN SOMETHING.
MOTHER, I THOUGHT YOU WANTED MILLY TO
HELP WITH THE SANDWICHES.  WHY DONT YOU BOTH GO AND CUT THE
SANDWICHES!
\  I <VE FINISHED THE SANDWICHES.
+  YOU <LL BE TIGHT AND GIGGLY BEFORE THE THING
EVEN STARTS.  MOTHER, YOU GET GIGGLY WHEN YOU <RE TIGHT.
I REALLY DO HATE TO SEE WOMEN DRINK AT ALL.
DO YOU, OR DO YOU NOT THINK I <M SEXUALLY ATTRACTIVE!
   YOU <RE A KNOCKOUT, LOVE.
   YOU <VE GOT TO PUT ME IN THE PICTURE.  WHAT <S THIS BUSINESS
WITH YOUR PHILIP!
   OH, DO RUN AWAY, THERE <S A GOOD BOY.
+  WELL, I DONT KNOW, I DONT REALLY.
\  WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WITH HIM!
   LET ME GET SOME ALCOHOL INSIDE ME IF WE ARE GOING TO DISCUSS
THE YOUTH.  PERSONALLY I THINK WE SHOULD LET THE YOUNGER GENERATION
SINK OR SWIM WITHOUT ANY FURTHER COMMENT FROM US.
THEY <RE ONLY DOING IT TO ATTRACT OUR ATTENTION.
   WHAT <S THE GOOD OF SENDING ONE<S SON TO A PROGRESSIVE SCHOOL
IF HE TURNS OUT LIKE THIS!  THE IDEA WAS HE <D BE AN INTEGRATED
PERSONALITY.
   INTEGRATED WITH WHAT!
   YES.
   LOOK WHAT A PUBLIC SCHOOL DID FOR SANDY.
   HUM.  IT DID WHAT IT IS SUPPOSED TO DO, SURELY.
   I WALKED OUT ON SANDY<S FATHER BECAUSE HE WAS SUCH A SLICK
LITTLE GO@GETTER, BUT ONE CANT WALK OUT ON ONE<S SON.
   ONE DOESNT EVEN WANT TO.  QUEER.
   VERY, YES.
HE <S NOT PLAYING YOU UP, IS HE!
"1059
   SANDY!  BUT SANDY HAS SUCH BEAUTIFUL MANNERS.
   I BELIEVE YOU.  WELL, GIVE HIM THE BOOT, I WOULD.
HE <S GOT WHAT HE WANTS, I SUPPOSE.
NEVER IN HIS LIFE DID MY SANDY DO ANYTHING THAT WASNT
CALCULATED.
   WHAT, NEVER!
   MY PRINCIPLE WITH SANDY IS, WAIT UNTIL HE <S WORKED THROUGH
SOME SITUATION @ HE <S ALWAYS IN A BETTER POSITION THAN HE WAS WHEN
HE STARTED.  THEN YOU KNOW WHAT HE WAS AFTER FROM THE START.
YOU <RE NOT GOING TO SHED ANY TEARS OVER MY
SANDY, ARE YOU!  WIDE BOY ... OH, I <M
NOT SAYING HE <S NOT IN LOVE.  BUT MY SANDY <LL ALWAYS FALL IN LOVE
WHERE IT DOES HIM MOST GOOD.
   AN ENVIABLE TALENT.
   NOT YOURS.
   NOR YOURS.
   WELL, I DONT KNOW ...
   THAT PHILIP NOW.
   HE <S BROUGHT HIS LADY@LOVE TO STAY HERE.
   AND HE <S GOING TO MARRY HER NEXT WEEK!
   SO IT WOULD SEEM.
   EH, BUT YOU <RE BEHAVING NICELY.
   THERE <S SUCH A SATISFACTION IN BEHAVING WELL.  NOT THAT ONE<S
MORE SUBTLE FORMS OF INSULT DONT ESCAPE THEM ENTIRELY.
   MYRA, LOVE, YOU <D BETTER TAKE IT EASY.
   YES.  YES.  WHAT <S HAPPENED TO
THAT MAN OF YOURS!  WHAT <S HIS NAME!  JACK!
   JACK, YES.
   WELL!
   I WALKED OUT.
   WHAT FOR THIS TIME!
   BUT IT <S ALWAYS THE SAME REASON.  YES, COME TO THINK OF IT, IT IS.
"1060
WELL, I WAS AT HIS WEEK@END COTTAGE.  I WAS GOING TO MARRY HIM ON
THE MONDAY WEEK, AS I RECALL ... GOD KNOWS WHAT FOR.  WHAT <S THIS
THING WE HAVE ABOUT GETTING MARRIED!
   I CANT THINK.
   YES, WELL.
   OH WELL.
   MY MAN JACK.  YES.  WELL, I <D CLEANED THE COTTAE UP ALL OF
FRIDAY, JUST FOR THE LOVE OF THE THING.  CLEANED IT SOME MORE ON THE
SATURDAY, COOKED A DINNER FOR TEN PEOPLE ON SATURDAY NIGHT, AND
ORGANIZED THE VEGETABLE GARDEN SUNDAY.  ON SUNDAY AFTERNOON
JACK WENT OFF TO PLAY GOLF, AND THE LITTLE WOMAN HUNG SOME NEW
CURTAINS IN THE LIVING@ROOM.
   YOU DONT HAVE TO TELL ME.  HE CAME HOME AT SEVEN O<CLOCK
AND WANTED TO KNOW WHY YOUR FACE WASNT MADE UP.
   NO, MY MAN JACK DIDNT MIND ME IN MY WORKING DIRT.  IT
WASNT THAT.  HE CAME HOME FROM HIS GOLF AND GAVE ME A NICE KISS.
REWARD FOR HARD WORK, AS IT WERE.  ODDLY ENOUGH, IT ALWAYS IS.
   YES.
   QUITE SO.  WELL, THEN THERE WERE STEPS OUTSIDE.  MY GOD, IT WAS
MR STENT.
   MR STENT!
   ASSISTANT MANAGER.  THE SHOES JACK WILL INHERIT.
   ALL RIGHT, I KNOW.
   SUDDENLY JACK WENT INTO A TIZZY.
SO I WENT UP THEM STAIRS.  I BATHED.
I CHANGED.  I MADE MYSELF UP LIKE THE QUEEN OF SHEBA.  THEN I WENT
DOWNSTAIRS AND COOKED AND SERVED DINNER FOR THREE.  THEN I ENTERTAINED
MR STENT @ OH, ON HIS LEVEL, OF COURSE, KEEPING MY TINY
MIND WELL IN ITS PLACE SO AS NOT TO UPSET MR STENT.  THEN I WISHED
"1061
HIM A VERY GOOD NIGHT.  THEN I WISHED JACK GOOD@BYE.  THEN I TOOK
MY SUITCASE AND WALKED OUT.  I LEFT THE BILL BEHIND ME.  TO CHARRING
EIGHTEEN HOURS AT FOUR SHILLINGS AN HOUR.  TO BUYING AND COOKING
AND SERVING FIRST@CLASS DINNER FOR TEN, TEN GUINEAS.  TO PLANNING AND
ORGANIZING VEGETABLE GARDEN, TEN GUINEAS.  TO MAKING AND HANGING
CURTAINS, TEN GUINEAS.  TO ACTING AS HOSTESS TO MR STENT, FIVE GUINEAS.
I DIDNT CHARGGE FOR MY SERVICES IN BED.  JACK NEVER DID HAVE A SENSE
OF HUMOUR.  BESIDES, I DIDNT WANT TO RUIN HIM.  AND I ASKED HIM TO
MAKE OUT THE CHEQUE FOR THE SOCIETY FOR THE PROTECTION OF THE
CHRISTIAN BRITISH HOME.
   AND DID HE!
   OH, YES, HE DID.  HE WROTE ME A LETTER SAYING WHY HADNT I LET
HIM KNOW I WAS FEELING LIKE THAT.
   YOU HAVE NO DISCRIMINATION.
   I HAVENT.
   OH, ALL RIGHT.
   I SUPPOSE ONE HAS TO MAKE DO WITH WHAT THERE IS.
   I WAS GOING TO VOLUNTEER TO GO WITH THOSE PEOPLE TO THE
TESTING AREA FOR THE BOMB.  YOU KNOW.  WELL, TONY WAS TERRIBLY
UPSET.  I WAS SO HAPPY.  I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT HE WOULD
MIND IF I GOT KILLED.  THEN HE SAID> <MOTHER, FOR GOD<S SAKE HAVE A
SENSE OF PROPORTION.<  THEN I UNDERSTOOD.  IT WOULDNT HAVE BEEN
RESPECTABLE.  THAT WAS WHAT HE MINDED.  IT WOULDNT HAVE BEEN
RESPECTABLE.
   MYRA, YOU MUST LET UP, YOU REALLY MUST.
   YES.
   YOUR TONY <S GOT A HEART, AT LEAST.
   TONY HAS!
   WHEREAS MY SANDY ... WHEN SANDY BECAME A GENTLEMAN AS
A RESULT OF HIS EXPENSIVE EDUCATION, I WAS EXPECTING HIM TO DROP
ME @ OH<
. VERY PLEASANTLY OF COURSE.  I WAS SURPRISED WHEN HE OPTED
TO STAY WITH ME.  I THOUGHT IT WAS OUT OF LOVE AND AFFECTION.  ONE
DAY I HEARD HIM SAYING TO ONE OF HIS POSH FRIENDS @
<YOU MUST MEET MY MOTHER, SHE <S SUCH A CHARACTER.<  LIGHT
DAWNED ON ME.  I PLAY UP, YOU CAN IMAGINE.  I WAS A WOMAN OF
"1062
THE PEOPLE WITH A HEART OF GOLD.  REALLY, I MADE MYSELF SICK =
REVOLTING<
.  I <LL BE AN ASSET TO HIM IN THE LABOUR PARTY, WONT I!  MEET
MY MUM, A WORKING WOMAN WITH A HEART OF GOLD ... LITTLE @ WIDE
BOY.
   MILLY, SANDY <S VERY FOND OF YOU.
   HM, YES.
   MILLY, WHY DID YOU GIVE HIM THAT KIND OF EDUCATION THEN!
   I WAS DOING THE BEST FOR HIM.
   WERE YOU @ WELL!  I DONT THINK HE THINKS SO.
   WHAT!  WHAT <S HE SAID TO YOU!
   MILLY, ARE YOU SURE THERE <S NOT A GOOD PART OF YOU THAT LIKES
SANDY THE WAY HE IS!
   WHAT <S HE SAID TO YOU!
   HE ONCE SAID THAT YOU <VE EQUIPPED HIM TO PLAY THE RACKET, AND
HE HAS NO CHOICE BUT TO PLAY IT.
   NO CHOICE.  OH<
. @ SO IT <S MY FAULT, IS IT!
   ARENT OUR CHILDREN OUR FAULT!
   NO CHOICE<
.  I WISH YOU <D GIVE HIM THE BOOT
BEFORE HE DROPS YOU.  I WISH YOU WOULD.  IT <D DO HIM SO MUCH
GOOD.
   VERY WELL, I SHALL.  SANDY, I SHALL SAY,
SANDY, I NO LONGER CARE FOR YOU.
   AND DO YOU!
   IT <S SO NICE TO HAVE A MAN ABOUT THE HOUSE.
   YES.
   WELL, IT IS.  WHAT AM I GOING TO DO ABOUT
TONY ... MILLY, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO!
   MYRA, FOR GOD<S SAKE, STOP PUNISHING YOURSELF ... WE <VE
LIVED OUR LIVES, HAVENT WE!  AND WE <VE NEITHER OF US GIVEN IN TO
ANYTHING.  WE <VE BOTH OF US COME THROUGH NOT TOO BADLY, CONSIDERING
EVERYTHING.  WE <RE NOT GOING TO COME TO A DEAD END IN OUR
SONS!
   NO.
   WHAT <S THE USE OF LIVING THE WAY WE HAVE, WHAT <S THE USE OF
"1063
US NEVER SETTLING FOR ANY OF THE LITTLE COSY CORNERS OR THE LITTLE CAGES
OR THE SECOND@RATE MEN IF WE SIMPLY GET TIRED NOW!
   YES.
   WERE YOU REALLY GOING OUT WITH THOSE PEOPLE TO THE H@BOMB
TESTS!
   YES.
   BECAUSE YOU KNEW THE GOVERNMENT WOULDNT LET ANYONE GET
NEAR THEM ANYWAY!
   NO.  I REALLY WANTED TO @ DO SOMETHING.
   YOU DIDNT MIND GETING KILLED!
   NO.
   MYRA, LOVE, WE ALL OF US GET DEPRESSED.
   DEPRESSED.  THAT WORD ANNOYS
ME.  HALF THE TIME WE DOPE OURSELVES UP WITH SOME STIMULANT @
MEN, OUR CHILDREN, WORK.  THEN IT FAILS AND WE SEE THINGS STRAIGHT,
AND IT <S CALLED BEING DEPRESSED.  YOU KNOW QUITE WELL THAT THERE <S
ONLY ONE QUESTION THAT EVERYONE <S ASKING @ WHAT ARE WE ALIVE FOR!
WHY!  WHY SHOULDNT THAT DAMNED BOMB FALL!  WHY NOT!  WHY
SHOULDNT THE HUMAN RACE BLOW ITSELF UP!  IS IT SUCH A LOSS!  A LITTLE
DIRTY SCUM ON THE SURFACE OF THE EARTH @ THAT <S WHAT WE ARE.
   SCUM, SCUM @ THAT <S ALL.
   ALL RIGHT @ LAUGH ME OUT OF IT @ IT <S EASY ENOUGH.
   IF I REMIND YOU IN A MONTH FROM NOW OF THINGS YOU ARE
SAYING TONIGHT YOU <LL LAUGH AND SAY, <WELL, I WAS DEPRESSED THEN<.
   I DARE SAY.  OH YES, I DARE SAY.
I KEEP
DREAMING, MILLY.  YOU KNOW I KEEP HAVING THE SAME DREAM ...
   OH @ DREAMS.  SO NOW WE <RE GOING TO TURN INTO A PAIR OF OLD
WOMEN PLOTTING OUR DREAMS AND LOOKING FOR PORTENTS.
   OH<
. @ YES.  BUT I DO.  EVERY TIME I GET MY
HEAD ON TO A PILLOW, IT <S THE SAME THING ...
   OH<
. LORD SAVE US @ GET YOURSELF TIGHT AND BE DONE WITH IT.
   NO<
.  LISTEN TO ME.  LISTEN, MILLY.
THE WHOLE WORLD IS
"1064
FULL OF GREAT BLACK MACHINES.  I AM STANDING ON THE SURFACE OF THE
EARTH SOMEWHERE AND EVERYWHERE ABOUT ME ON AN ENORMOUS PLAIN
ARE GREAT BLACK MACHINES.  IT IS A WORLD OF COLD WHITE BUILDINGS AND
BLACK MOTIONLESS MACHINES ...
   HO@HO @ SO WE <RE AGAINST THE MACHINE NOW, ARE WE>
, BACK TO
THE GOLDEN AGE<
.
   AND I <M STANDING THERE, WAITING.  THAT <S WHAT IT IS, MILLY,
WE <RE ALL WAITING.  NO, LISTEN ...
WE ARE STANDING, WAITING.  WE LIFT OUR EYES AND SEE THE CURVE OF THE
HORIZON ... IT <S ON FIRE MILLY.  NOT A REAL FIRE @ THE CURVE OF THE EARTH
CRACKLES WITH THE COLD WHITE CRACKLE OF ELECTRICITY.  THEN WE UNDERSTAND
@ THE EARTH IS BURNING.  THEY <VE SET THE BOMB OFF SOMEWHERE
AND HALF OF THE EARTH IS ALREADY GONE.  EVERYWHERE IN FRONT OF US THE
PLAIN IS DISINTEGRATING IN A COLD WHITE CRACKLE OF FIRE.  IT WILL REACH
US IN A MINUTE.  AND WE STAND THERE THINKING, THANK GOD.  THANK
GOD IT <S ALL OVER.  THANK GOD IT <S ALL OVER ...
   OH<
. MYRA ... WELL, I DONT HAVE TO BE ASLEEP TO SEE
ALL THAT.  I CAN SEE IT WHEN I <M AWAKE.
   DO YOU REALIZE WE <VE ONLY GOT
THROUGH HALF OF OUR LIVES!  WE <VE GOT TO GET THROUGH ANOTHER THIRTY
OR FORTY YEARS OF BEING ALIVE @ IF WE <RE UNLUCKY.
   SHUT UP, SHUT UP, MYRA.
   I CANT FACE IT, MILLY.  I CANT FACE ANOTHER FORTY YEARS OF BEING
ALIVE.
   WELL, WE <LL BOTH HAVE TO FACE IT.  WE <RE
BOTH AS STRONG AS MULES.  NOW COME CLEAN,
MYRA.  WHAT <S REALLY EATING YOU UP!  YOU <VE BEEN TALKING AROUND
AND AROUND IT ... PHILIP <S BROUGHT HIS GIRL HERE, TONY <S IN A BAD
MOOD, AND IT <S TOO MUCH.  THAT <S ALL.
   THAT <S ALL.
   NOW LISTEN TO ME.  YOU HAD A GOOD MARRIAGE WITH YOUR
HUSBAND.  THEN YOU AND PHILIP WERE HAPPY TOGETHER FOR FIVE YEARS @
"1065
THAT <S MORE THAN MOST PEOPLE GET IN THEIR LIVES.  YOU AND PHILIP ARE
GOOD FRIENDS NOW.  THERE <S OLD MIKE HANGING AROUND WAITING FOR
YOUR FIRST MOENT OF WEAKNESS SO YOU <LL GIVE IN AND MARRY HIM.
YOU <VE GOT TONY.  YOU <RE NOT DOING TOO BADLY.
   OH, DONT BE SO COMPLACENT ... DONT BE SO DAMNED SENSIBLE
... YOU KNOW QUITE WELL THAT NOTHING YOU SAY TO ME NOW MAKES
ANY SENSE AT ALL.
   YES, LOVE, I KNOW.
   I WISH YOU <D DO SOMETHING FOR ME.  I WISH YOU <D TALK TO TONY.
I CAN NEVER SAY ANYTHING TO HIM.  HE IMAGINES I WANT TO GET RID OF
HIM.  IT <S LIKE THIS.  I <VE GOT HOLD OF SOME MONEY @ ENOUGH TO FINISH
HIS STUDYING.  NOW HE SAYS HE DOESNT WANT TO BE AN ARCHITECT.  SO
I <D LIKE HIM TO TAKE IT AND GO OFF FOR A COUPLE OF YEARS @ DOING AS HE
LIKES, WHEREVER HE LIKES.  HE <LL NEVER BE FREE AGAIN.  HE <LL BE 40
BEFORE HE KNOWS IT.  I WISH I <D HAD FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS AT HIS AGE
TO SPEND AS I LIKED, TO FIND OUT ABOUT THE WORLD.  WELL, IF YOU COULD
TALK TO HIM PERHAPS HE MIGHT LISTEN.
   YOU <VE RAISED FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS BY DOING YOUR OWN HOUSEWORK!
   NO, NO, OF COURSE NOT.
   MYRA, WHAT <VE YOU BEEN UP TO @ WHAT <VE YOU DONE!
   BUT I CANT TALK TO HIM, MILLY.  HE THINKS I WANT TO GET RID OF HIM.
   MYRA, WHAT HAVE YOU
DONE!
   I <VE SOLD THE HOUSE.
   YOU HAVENT.
   YES, I HAVE.  TO RAISE MONEY FOR TONY.
   BUT, MYRA, WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO!
   I HAVE NO IDEA.
   YOU <RE GOING TO MARRY OLD MIKE.
   OH, NO.  WHY, MILLY, I DIDNT EXPECT YOU TO BE SO @ CAREFUL.
WHAT DOES IT MATTER!  I DO HATE BEING TIED DOWN.  I ALWAYS DID.
SURELY IT <S MORE IMPORTANT FOR TONY TO BE FREE THAN TO FUSS ABOUT
SOME BRICKS AND A ROOF ... IF IT COMES TO THE WORST YOU <LL ALWAYS
TAKE ME IN.
"1066
   BUT WHAT <S TONY GOING TO SAY!  HAVE YOU TOLD HIM!
   WHY SHOULD HE CARE!  HE <S YOUNG.
   WHY HAVENT YOU TOLD HIM!
   BECAUSE I CANT TALK TO HIM.
   LOOK OUT, HE <S COMING.
+  FINISHED YOUR GIRLISH CONFIDENCES!  THOUGH WHY IT HAS TO BE IN
MY BEDROOM ...
\ WHY DONT YOU CHOOSE SOME OTHER PLACE TO PARK YOURSELF!
   OBVIOUSLY THE HALL IS THE PLACE MOST CALCULATED TO CAUSE THE
MAXIMUM INCONVENIENCE TO EVERYBODY.
+  I DO HOPE YOU <RE GOING TO MAKE UP YOUR FACE, MOTHER.
   WHAT <S WRONG WITH MOTHER!
\  SHE <S TIRED.  COME ON, WE <VE GOT
TO BE GAY IF IT KILLS US.  ARENT YOU COMING IN AT ALL!
+  NO.
\  YOU ARENT INTERESTED TO HEAR WHAT <S GOING ON IN JAPAN!
+  I <M SURE THE PEOPLE IN JAPAN FEEL LIKE PEOPLE EVERYWHERE ELSE
IN THE WORLD @ AS IF THEY <VE BEEN HANDCUFFED TO A SLEEPING TIGER.
\  I WANT TO TALK TO YOU SOMETIME, YOUNG TONY.
+  I WANT TO TALK TO YOU, TOO.
THANK GOD FOR THE SILENCE.
NOT IN A PARTY MOOD!
\  I CANT STAND LISTENING TO THEM TALK.  I CANT.  THEY TALK
ABOUT ALL KINDS OF HORRORS AS IF THEY WERE TALKING ABOUT THE WEATHER.
+  THEY ARE.
\  I DONT SEE HOW THEY CAN BE SO @ MATTER@OF@FACT ABOUT
EVERYTHING.
"1067
+  DONT WORRY ABOUT THEM.  THEY WERE JUST BORN THICK@SKINNED.
FEELING BETTER!
\  YES.  WOULD YOUR MOTHER THINK IT RUDE IF I LEFT HERE
TONIGHT!
+  DONT GO @ UNLESS YOU WANT TO.  DONT JUST RUSH AWAY.
\  IT WAS ALL NO GOOD.  IT WAS A MISTAKE.
+  YES, I KNOW.  NEVER MIND.
\  THEY HAVE A GOOD TIME, DONT THEY!
+  THEY <D HAVE A GOOD TIME IF THE SKIES WERE FALLING.  IF THE END
OF THE WORLD WERE ANNOUNCED FOR FRIDAY, MOTHER WOULD SAY @ <LET <S
HAVE A PARTY<.
\  YES, THEY <RE SO CHILDISH.
+  OH GOD, YES ... ROSEMARY, I WISH YOU <D TELL ME SOMETHING.
\  WHAT @ DO YOU MEAN ABOUT
POLITICS @ BUT I DONT KNOW ABOUT THEM.
+  YES, PERHAPS I DO MEAN POLITICS.
\  SO CHILDISH.  THEY TALK AS IF THEY REALLY BELIEVE WHAT THEY
DO CHANGES THINGS.  YOU KNOW, 5,000 PEOPLE LISTEN TO A SPEECH AND
EVERYTHING WILL BE CHANGED.
+  GO ON.  GO ON, ROSEMARY.
\  BUT IT SEEMS TO ME AS IF THERE ARE PERHAPS @ SIX VERY
IMPORTANT, VERY POWERFUL MEN IN THE WORLD @ SOMEWHERE UP
THERE @ WE PROBABLY DONT EVEN KNOW THEIR NAMES, AND THEY MAKE
THE DECISIONS ...
+  GO ON.
\  IN THERE THEY <RE TALKING ABOUT ...
I DONT SEE HOW THEY CAN BELIEVE IN IT.  IF THE 5,000 PEOPLE KILLED
THEMSELVES TOMORROW IN TRAFALGAR SQUARE AS A PROTEST AGAINST @
EVERYTHING, THE SIX POWERFUL MEN UP THERE WOULDNT CARE, THEY
WOULDNT EVEN NOTICE.  AND IT WOULD BE SOMETHING IN THE NEWSPAPERS
FOR ORDINARY PEOPLE.
"1068
+  GO ON, ROSEMARY, DONT STOP.
\  JUST ONE OF THOSE IMPORTANT MEN CAN GO MAD OR GET
DRUNK AND @ WELL, THAT <S ALL.  THAT <S ALL.
+  ROSEMARY.
\  YES.
+  ROSEMARY, I <VE BEEN THINKING.  WHAT
WE NEED IS SOMETHING DIFFERENT.  SOMETHING @ VERY SIMPLE.
\  YES.
+  SOMETHING VERY SIMPLE.  I THINK I WANT TO BE A TRAMP.  I <VE
BEEN THINKING ... THE WHOLE WORLD IS GETTING MASS@PRODUCED AND
ORGANIZED.  BUT INSIDE EVERYBODY<S VARNISHED AND PAINTED SKIN IS A
TRAMP.  IT <S THE INNER EMIGRATION.  EVERY MORNING IN FRONT OF THE
BATHROOM MIRROR WE POLISH OUR TEETH AND OUR HAIR AND OUR SKIN,
WE SET OUR FACES TO TICK ALL DAY LIKE METRONOMES AGAINST THE IMAGE
IN THE MIRROR UNTIL THE LIGHTS GO OUT AT NIGHT.  BUT INSIDE, WE <VE
EMIGRATED.  WE <RE TRAMPS.  DONT YOU SEE, ROSEMARY, WE HAVE TO
KEEP THE TRAMP ALIVE SOMEHOW.  WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE A TRAMP,
ROSEMARY!
NO, A TRAMP IS SOLITARY, A TRAMP IS SOLITARY ...
SH, ROSEMARY.
\  YES ...
+  SO IF YOU <RE REALLY LOOKING FOR SOMEONE PERHAPS YOU <D TRY ME.
   YES, OF COURSE.
   IT <S REALLY AWFULLY GOOD OF YOU.  MAY I COME INTO YOUR OFFICE
TOMORROW AND TALK IT OVER WITH YOU!
   YES, DO.  ARENT YOU WELL!
\  PERFECTLY WELL, THANK YOU.
+  IT <S REALLY VERY RUDE TO RUN AWAY LIKE THAT.  IT <S NOT POLITE TO
MYRA.
\  I <M SURE MYRA WILL BEAR UP.
"1069
   I CANT HAVE ALL THE YOUNG PEOPLE LEAVING MY PARTY.  IT LEAVES
US ALL SO DULL.
+  MYRA DARLING, HOW COULD
ANY PARTY BE DULL WITH YOU IN IT!
   YOU SHOULD MAKE UP A STRONTIUM@90 CALYPSO AND DANCE
TO IT.
\  IF YOU DONT MIND, MYRA, I <D LIKE TO GO TO BED.
   OF COURSE I DONT MIND.  I DO THINK YOU
MIGHT COME IN EVEN IF JUST FOR A FEW MINUTES.
+  WOULD YOU LIKE TO COME OUT INTO THE GARDEN
FOR A LITTLE!  THERE <S A MOON TONIGHT.
\  YES, I <D LOVE TO ...
JUST FOR A FEW MINUTES, AND THEN I MUST GO TO BED.
+  LOVERS< QUARRELS.
\  OH, QUITE.  CHARMING.
+  HOW LUCKY WE <RE MORE SENSIBLE.
\  DEAR SANDY, YOU <RE ALWAYS SO SENSIBLE.
+  NOT SO SENSIBLE AS TO BE DULL, I HOPE.
\  DULL!  YOU!  DARLING, NEVER.
DARLING SENSIBLE SANDY.
+  DEAR MYRA @ SO SAD, ISNT IT!
\  SAD!  SAD @ OH, I SEE.
+  I LOVE YOUR LAUGH, DARLING.
\  OH, I LOVE IT TOO.  WELL, GO ON.
+  YOU <RE IN A VERY ODD MOOD.
\  YOU <RE QUITE RIGHT, DARLING, IT <S QUITE TIME FOR US TO CALL IT A
DAY.
+  YES, WELL, OF COURSE.
\  AND YOU <VE BEEN WONDERFUL.  SANDY, YOU <RE
REALLY SO WONDERFUL.
+  I <M SO GLAD WE ARE BOTH CAPABLE OF BEING GRACEFUL
ABOUT THE END.  THOUGH OF COURSE YOU AND I ARE MUCH TOO CLOSE EVER
TO PART, DARLING.
"1070
\  OH, QUITE SO.  EXACTLY.  THERE.
I <VE DONE IT.  ONLY BY THE SKIN OF MY TEETH THOUGH.  I MUST TELL MILLY.
SHE <LL BE SO PLEASED.
+  TELL HER WHAT!  YOU HAVENT BEEN DISCUSSING US WITH MOTHER!
BUT I <M SURE SHE WOULD QUITE AGREE THAT I DID THE RIGHT THING IN
BREAKING IT OFF.
\  YOU DID THE RIGHT THING ...
WHY OF COURSE, YES, YOU DID, DIDNT YOU!
+  REALLY, MYRA, I DO THINK YOUR BEHAVIOUR IS IN VERY
BAD TASTE.
   AND WHAT <S WRONG WITH YOUR YOUNG MAN!
\  I MIGHT ASK, WHAT <S WRONG WITH YOUR YOUNG WOMAN!
+  WELL, MYRA!
\  WELL, PHILIP!
+  REALLY, WOMEN, WOMEN.
\  TELL ME, DO YOU FIND ROSEMARY<S BEHAVIOUR IN BAD TASTE!
+  I SUPPOSE IT IS BETTER THAT SHE SHOULD FIND
OUT WHAT I <M LIKE BEFORE RATHER THAN AFTER.
\  IT IS LUCKY, ISNT IT!
+  IT WOULD BE ODD IF WE
ENDED UP WITH EACH OTHER AFTER ALL, WOULDNT IT!
\  RATHER ODD, YES.
+  YOU KNOW ME, MYRA.  I <M NOT
MUCH GOOD ...
\  DONT DO THAT, PHILIP, DONT.  I ALWAYS DID WISH YOU
WOULDNT @ IT <S SO BLOODY INSULTING.
+  BUT, MYRA, I <M PROPOSING TO YOU ... I <M ALWAYS PROPOSING TO YOU
AND YOU ALWAYS TURNED ME DOWN.
\  YES, YOU ALWAYS WERE.  BUT BIGAMY NEVER DID
APPEAL TO ME MUCH.
"1071
\  WELL, OLD
GIRL, WHAT ABOUT IT!  CAN YOU FACE ALL THAT OVER AGAIN!
\  WHAT AN AWFUL
PROSPECT, ALL THAT OVER AGAIN ...
+  NO WOMAN EVER MADE ME AS
UNHAPPY AS YOU DID.  I WONDER WHY ...
\  I WONDER WHY, TOO.
+  I WISH YOU <D TELL ME THE TRUTH NOW, MYRA ...
\  OH @ ABOUT MY INFIDELITIES!
+  FOR INSTANCE, THAT
AMERICAN @ YOU SWORE THERE WAS NOTHING @ THAT HE WASNT IN YOUR
ROOM THAT NIGHT!
\  OH, PHILIP ... DO YOU SUPPOSE WHEN WE <RE
BOTH 70 YOU <LL STILL BE ASKING ME ... THE ONE THING YOU CANT AFFORD
TO BELIEVE IS THAT I ALWAYS TOLD YOU THE TRUTH.
+  OH COME, COME, YOU <LL NEVER CHANGE.
\  OH, PHILIP ...
+  AFTER ALL, I CANT SAY I DONT KNOW WHAT
I <M IN FOR.
\  WHAT YOU ARE SAYING IS THIS> THAT YOU PROPOSE TO
MARRY ME ALTHOUGH YOU TAKE YOUR STAND ON THE FACT THAT I LIED
CONTINUOUSLY TO YOU FOR FIVE YEARS, THAT I WAS UNFAITHFUL TO YOU FOR
FIVE YEARS, AND THAT YOU INSIST I WILL CONTINUE BOTH TO BETRAY YOU AND
TO LIE ABOUT IT.
+  WHY, MYRA DEAR, NOW THAT I <M OLDER I <M
MORE TOLERANT, THAT <S ALL.  WELL, WHAT DO YOU SAY!
\  OBVIOUSLY NOTHING.
+  WHAT!  THERE YOU ARE @ THAT <S WHAT ALWAYS HAPPENS
WHEN I PROPOSE TO YOU @ YOU TURN ME DOWN.
"1072
   OH, LORD ...
\  OH.
I WISH JUST ONCE I COULD MEET A MAN WHO DIDNT TELL
HIMSELF LIES AND EXPECT TO BELIEVE THEM.
+  YOU KNOW QUITE WELL I CANT STAND THE WAY YOU <RE
ALWAYS GIVING YOURSELF AWAY TO EVERYBODY AND EVERYTHING.  I CANT
STAND YOU, MYRA.
WHEN YOU <VE GIVEN UP @ WHEN YOU <VE GOT GREY HAIR
AND WRINKLES, I <LL TAKE YOU ON THEN.
\  SHALL I DYE MY HAIR AND PAINT ON WRINKLES!
+  YES.
\  NO ONE EVER LOVED ME AS YOU DID, NO ONE.  THAT <S WHAT I
CANT FORGIVE YOU FOR @ IT WOULDNT HAVE MATTERED IF YOU HADNT
LOVED ME.  BUT YOU DID.  AND YOU TURNED ME DOWN.
+  OH, LET <S LEAVE IT, LET <S LEAVE IT NOW.
\  YOU TURNED ME DOWN BECAUSE I LOVED YOU.  YOU COULDNT
STAND BEING LOVED.
+  OH, LORD, IT IS ABSOLUTELY INTOLERABLE<
.
\  ABSOLUTELY HOPELESS<
.
+  WHY, HERE YOU ARE.  PHILIP, WHERE <S YOUR CHARMING LITTLE ROSEMARY!
EVERYBODY <S RUNNING AWAY FROM THE PARTY.  I THOUGHT I <D
COME AND FIND YOU.  WHAT <S WRONG, DEAR!
MYRA DEAR, YOU REALLY DO LOOK BAD, YOU KNOW.
YOU DO REALLY NEED SOMEONE TO LOOK AFTER YOU.
\  DEAR MIKE.  YOU ARE ALWAYS
SO SWEET.
+  MYRA NEEDS SOMEONE TO LOOK AFTER HER.
   PERHAPS SHE DOES.  YOU TWO LOOK
RATHER WELL TOGETHER.
\  HE THINKS WE LOOK WELL TOGETHER.
PHILIP DOES.
"1073
+  YOU KNOW WHAT I THINK, DEAR.
\  YOU LIKE THE SIGHT OF ME AND MIKE TOGETHER!
+  WELL, WHY NOT!  IF THAT <S WHAT YOU
WANT.
\  YOU <D LIKE TO TAKE ME ON!
+  I DONT HAVE TO TELL YOU WHAT I <VE ALWAYS WANTED.
\  CAN YOU STAND ME, MIKE!  CAN YOU STAND ME!
+  STAND YOU, DEAR!
\  IT WOULD BE AWFUL IF YOU COULDNT STAND ME.
+  BUT, MYRA DEAR, I <VE LOVED YOU FOR YEARS.  AFTER ALL, I <VE NEVER
MADE ANY SECRET OF IT TO ANYBODY.
   I <M SO HAPPY, DEAR.
\  DEAR MIKE.
   I THINK I <LL GO TO
BED NOW.
+  WELL, MOTHER!  WELL, MIKE!
   THERE YOU ARE, MY BOY.
\  I MUST REALLY GO TO BED, I <M SO
TIRED.
+  BUT ROSEMARY, DONT GO
YET.  STAY DOWN HERE AND TALK A LITTLE.  HAVE A DRINK.
\  WELL, JUST FOR A MINUTE @ NO, I
WONT HAVE A DRINK.
+  OH, NO<
.
"1074
\  DO COME AND DO YOUR DUTY, MYRA @ I CANT COPE WITH ALL
THESE PEOPLE ANY LONGER BY MYSELF.
+  EVER SO INTERESTING, SEX, ISNT IT!
\  I <VE ALWAYS FOUND IT SO ...
+  WHAT ASTOUNDS ME IS THE WAY IT SO OBVIOUSLY IS EVERYONE<S
FAVOURITE OCCUPATION.
\  NEVER MIND, LOVE, YOU <LL SOON GET INTO THE WAY OF
IT ...
TAKE MYRA
BACK TO HER GUESTS, THERE <S A DEAR.
+  OF COURSE, WE <RE JUST GOING.
   SHE <S NOT STARTING SOMETHING WITH MIKE NOW, IS
SHE!  SURELY SHE ISNT SERIOUSLY GOING TO ...
\  AND WHY NOT!
+  ROSEMARY, COME AND HAVE A DRINK WITH ME, COME AND
TALK.
\  NO THANKS, TONY, I
THINK PHILIP AND I <LL GO TO BED NOW.
+  OH NO.  WHY!  HALF AN HOUR AGO SHE WAS
READY TO KICK DEAR UNCLE PHILIP DOWNSTAIRS.
\  BLESS YOU, DEAR.
+  IT <S GOING TO BE SUCH A JOLLY NIGHT.  IMAGINE IT @ ROSEMARY AND
UNCLE PHILIP IN ONE BED @ MY BED, BUT LET THAT PASS.  THEN THERE <S
MOTHER.  WILL IT BE SANDY OR UNCLE MIKE, DO YOU SUPPOSE!  WHY
NOT BOTH!
\  YOU <RE NOT TALKING TO ME ABOUT YOUR MOTHER LIKE
THAT, YOUNG TONY.
+  OR THEY MIGHT HAVE A LITTLE CHANGE
"1075
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.  MOTHER AND UNCLE PHILIP @ FOR OLD
TIME<S SAKE.  AND SANDY AND ROSEMARY MIGHT HAVE A GOOD DEAL IN
COMMON @ WHO KNOWS!  OF COURSE THEY ARE PRETTY NEAR THE SAME
AGE, PROBABLY A HANDICAP.  THEN THERE <S YOU AND ME.
\  TAKE IT EASY, TONY.  TAKE IT EASY.
+  THREE HAPPY WELL@ASSORTED COUPLES ...
THREE COUPLES, EACH COUPLE IN A NICE TIDY LITTLE ROOM WITH THE DOOR
LOCKED.  AND IN THE MORNING WE <LL MAKE POLITE CONVERSATION AT
BREAKFAST.  OF COURSE, THERE IS AN ODD MAN OUT @ DEAR UNCLE MIKE.
WELL, HE CAN LIE ON THE MAT OUTSIDE MOTHER<S DOOR.  WHY SHOULDNT
WE ALL RING EACH OTHER UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT AND REPORT
PROGRESS.  THE GRUNTS AND GROANS OF PLEASURABLE LOVE@MAKING WOULD
BE INTERRUPTED FOR THE SAKE OF A FEW MINUTES< MILITANT CONVERSATION
ABOUT THE DANGERS OF THE HYDROGEN BOMB.  THEN BACK TO WHAT
EVERYONE <S REALLY INTERESTED IN.  IT <S BLOODY FUNNY, WHEN YOU COME
TO THINK ABOUT IT ...
I SIMPLY
CANT STAND ANY OF IT.  I CANT STAND IT.  I CANT STAND IT.

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"1076
\  WHAT <S THAT IN AID OF!
+  I LOVE THAT SOUND.  THAT SOUND IS ME.  I LOVE IT.
\  CANT SAY I DO.
+  WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO WHEN MOTHER COMES DOWN THOSE
STAIRS!  FOR GOD<S SAKE PUT SOME CLOTHES ON.
P.  I DONT
KNOW.
\  I KNOW.  YOU DONT.
NO!
IS THIS
BETTER!  BABY, BABY, BABY.
+  PUT OXSOME CLOTHES.  PUT SOME CLOTHES ON.
\  YOU <D LIKE ME TO PUT A VEIL OVER MY FACE AND KEEP MY HAIR
COVERED.
+  YES.
\  WELL, I <M NOT GOING TO.  YOU <D BETTER LEARN TO LIKE THE FEMALE
FORM.  YOU WANTED TO TAKE ME INTO BED SO AS TO ANNOY
YOUR MOTHER.  HERE I AM.  BUT WHEN IT COMES TO THE POINT YOU <RE
SCARED SHE MIGHT KNOW.
+  SHE <LL COME DOWN THE STAIRS, SEE US AND SAY> <MILLY, WHERE <S MY
H@BOMB FILE!
\  CHILD.  YOU <RE A CHILD.
+  OH, I CAN HEAR HER.  SHE SAID, <MILLY, I <M WORRIIED ABOUT THAT
SONE OF MINE.  HE <S STILL A VIRGIN.  DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT, WILL YOU!
THEN, DISMISSING THIS ITEM ON HER AGENDA, SHE SAID> <WHERE <S MY
TAPE@RECORDING OF ...< OH, CHRIST ...
\  COME HERE, YOUNG
TONY.
+  IF YOU <RE GOING TO SEDUCE ME AGAIN THEN LET <S HAVE SOME
APPROPRIATE MUSIC.
\  YOUNG TONY, I <M GOING TO
GIVE YOU SOME GOOD ADVICE, AND IF YOU <VE GOT ANY SENSE YOU <LL
TAKE IT.
+  ACTION.  ACTION IS WHAT I WANT.  NOT WORDS.
"1077
\  YOU <LL FIND YOURSELF A NICE FRIENDLY TART AND PUT IN A COUPLE OF
WEEKS LEARNING YOUR JOB.  THEN PERHAPS YOU <LL BE FIT FOR ADULT
SOCIETY.
+  WHAT!  YOU <RE WALKING OUT ON ME!  YOU <VE GOT
OTHER FISH TO FRY!  IS THAT IT!  I THOUGHT I <D FOUND A NICE FRIENDLY TART.
WELL, WHY DONT YOU HIT ME!
\  WHAT FOR!
+  I <VE INSULTED YOU.
\  YOU INSULT ME!
+  I EXPECTED YOU TO HIT ME.
\  WHY DO YOU WANT TO BE HIT!
+  OH, I DONT KNOW, I DONT
KNOW, I DONT KNOW.
I SIMPLY DONT LIKE WOMEN.
\  THAT <S HALF OF HUMANITY
DISPOSED OF.
+  ALL YOU <RE INTERESTED IN IS ...
\  I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION THAT THAT NIGHT OF LOVE WAS YOUR
IDEA.
+  LOVE<
.
\  YOU <VE MADE USE OF ME,
YOUNG TONY.  YOU MADE USE OF ME.
+  OF COURSE WOMEN ARE SO MUCH BETTER THAN MEN.
\  IS THAT SO!
+  YOU <RE SO MUCH STRONGER.
\  THAT <S VERY NICE FOR YOU, ISNT IT!
+  BUT I MEA IT, YOU ARE.
\  WHEN I HEAR MEN SAYING THAT WOMEN ARE SO MUCH STRONGER
THAN MEN, I FEEL LIKE...
+  WHAT!
\  REACHING FOR MY REVOLVER.
+  I IMAGINED IT WAS A COMPLIMENT.
\  DID YOU NOW, LOVE.  I PREFER THE MORE OBVIOUS FORMS OF CONTEMPT.
IF YOU REALLY DONT LIKE SEX
"1078
WHY DONT YOU LEAVE US ALONE!  OTHERWISE YOU <RE GOING TO TURN
INTO ONE OF THOSE SPITEFUL LITTLE MEN WHO SPEND THEIR LIVES PUNISHING
WOMEN IN BED ... WHERE <S MY BROOCH!
+  NOW YOU LOOK LIKE A RESPECTABLE HAUSFRAU.
\  YOU MIGHT ALSO PUT IN SOME TIME ASKING YOURSELF WHY YOU
HAVE TO SAY YOU DONT LIKE WOMEN.
+  WOMEN, WOMEN,
WOMEN ...
\  YOU MIGHT FIND IT ALL MORE SATISFACTORY IF YOU TOOK A MIRROR
INTO BED WITH YOU.
+  I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL WHAT YOU <RE TALKING ABOUT.
\  OH, I BELIEVE YOU.  YOU PROBABLY DONT.
+  YOU LAY ALL LAST NIGHT IN MY ARMS.  YOU WERE PERFECTLY
SWEET.  AND NOW ...
\  WHAT <S THE MATTER WITH YOU ALL, ANYWAY!  WE <VE COMMITTED
THE BASIC AND UNFORGIVABLE CRIME OF GIVING YOU BIRTH @ BUT WE HAD
NO CHOICE, AFTER ALL ... WELL, GOD DAMN THE LOT OF YOU.
I <M GOING HOME.  FOR THE SAKE OF APPEARANCES.
+  OH, DONT WORRY ABOUT MY REPUTATION, PLEASE.
\  YOUR REPUTATION!  YOUR REPUTATION.  WHY
DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF COMPROMISED!  I <M CONSIDERING
MY SANDY.
+  WHY!  YOUR SANDY IS SUCH A MAN OF THE WORLD.
\  NOT SO FAR AS I AM CONCERNED.  I HAVE PRESERVED MY SANDY<S
MENTAL EQUILIBRIUM BY THE PRACTICE OF CONSUMMATE HYPOCRISY.  IT IS
USUALLY REFERRED TO AS TACT.
+  WHAT A PITY MY MOTHER THINKS TACT BENEATH HER.
\  IT <S ALWAYS A MISTAKE TO TREAT YOU AS IF YOU WERE GROWN@UPS.
ALWAYS.
+  MILLY, DONT GO.  DONT GO, MILLY.
YOU <RE NOT REALLY GOING ... I <M SORRY IF I HURT YOU.
"1079
\  YOUNG TONY, WHY DONT YOU GET OUT OF HERE.  FOR CHRIST<S SAKE,
GET OUT.
+  MOTHER TOLD YOU TO SAY THAT.
\  THE LORD HELP US.
YOU OUGHT TO GET OUT, TONY.  BUM AROUND A BIT.  YOU CANT STAY
HERE.  SURELY YOU CAN SEE THAT YOUR MOTHER <S WORRIED BECAUSE YOU
DONT WANT ANY LIFE OF YOUR OWN!
+  YOU MEAN, SHE WANTS A LIFE OF HER OWN.
\  TONY, YOU ARENT TEN YEARS OLD.
+  WHAT DOES SHE WANT!  SHE WANTS TO MARRY UNCLE MIKE!  I
DONT BELIEVE IT.
\  PERHAPS SHE THINKS IT WOULD MAKE YOU HAPPY IF SHE SETTLED
DOWN.
+  WITH UNCLE MIKE!  SHE <S GOING TO SETTLE DOWN WITH OLD MIKE
JUST TO PLEASE ME!
\  BUT SHE <S WORRIED ABOUT YOU.  YOU SURELY CAN SEE THAT SHE <S
BOUND TO BE WORRIED ABOUT YOU!
+  WITH AUNTY MIKE.
\  AND BESIDES, SHE <S LONELY.
+  LONELY!  MY BATTLING MUM!  WHY ON EARTH!  SHE <S NEVER ALONE.
THEN IF SHE <S LONELY, WHY DOES SHE WANT TO GET RID OF
ME!
\  I GIVE UP.  I SIMPLY
GIVE UP.  BUT YOU SHOULD GET OUT.  YOU <RE 22.  YOU SHOULD BE BANGING
AND CRASHING AROUND SOUTH AMERICA OR THE MIDDLE EAST, GETTING
MIXED UP IN ALL KINDS OF THINGS, MAKING A FOOL OF YOURSELF, HAVING
WOMEN...
+  OH CHRIST<
.
\  YOU OUGHT TO BE SHOUTING YOUR HEAD OFF ABOUT EVERYTHING,
REVOLUTIONIZING, UPSETTING ALL THE EQUILIBRIUMS.
+  EQUILIBRIUM!  WHAT EQUILIBRIUM!  YOU DONT REALLY IMAGINE
THAT I SHOULD WANT TO REVOLUTIONIZE AFTER WATCHING YOUR LOT AT IT ALL
MY LIFE!  UPSETTING THE EQUILIBRIUM ... THAT <S JUST IT<
.  YOU <RE SO
CHILDISH ... IF THERE WAS, BY ANY MIRACLE, AN EQUILIBRIUM ANYWHERE
"1080
YOU <D PUT A BOMB UNDER IT JUST FOR THE SAKE OF SEEING EVERYTHING
ROCK.  ALL I WANT IS AN EQUILIBRIUM @ JUST FIVE MINUTES OF STABILITY.
THIS HOUSE IS THE ONLY THING IN MY LIFE THAT HAS @ STAYED IN
ONE PLACE.  IT <S THE ONLY THING I CAN COUNT ON.  WHY SHOULD I WANT TO
LEAVE IT!
I REMEMBER AFTER OUR OTHER HOUSE WAS BLOWN UP, THAT NIGHT
MOTHER AND I WERE LYING UNDER THE BRICKS WAITING TO BE RESCUED,
AND MY FATHER WAS DEAD BESIDE US, I REMEMBER THINKING THAT THERE
WOULD NEVER BE ANOTHER HOUSE.  I REMEMBER THINKING MOTHER
WOULD GET KILLED TOO, AND I <D HAVE TO GO TO AN ORPHANAGE.  I REMEMBER
LYING THERE UNDER THE BRICKS WITH THE BOMBS FALLING ...
AFTER THAT WE WERE IN ONE FURNISHED ROOM AFTER ANOTHER FOR MONTHS
AND MONTHS.  THEN THERE WAS THIS HOUSE.  I REMEMBER THE FIRST FEW
WEEKS WE WERE HERE I USED TO GO SECRETLY AROUND LOOKING AT THE
WALLS, WONDERING IF THE CRACKS WERE GOING TO APPEAR SOON.  I
COULDNT BELIEVE A HOUSE COULD BE SOMETHING WHOLE, WITHOUT CRACKS.
I LOVE THIS HOUSE.  I DONT WANT EVER TO LEAVE IT.  I <D LIKE TO @ PULL IT
OVER MY EARS LIKE A PILLOW AND NEVER LEAVE IT.
\  TONY, LOVE, YOU CANT BUILD YOUR LIFE AROUND A HOUSE.
+  YES I CAN, YES I CAN ... HOLD ME, MILLY.
\  TONY, SUPPOSE YOU HAD TO LEAVE!
+  HAD TO!  HAD TO!  WHY!  NO.  I <LL
STAY HERE ALWAYS.  HOLD ME, MILLY.
\  TONY, LOVE, LISTEN TO ME, I MUST TALK TO YOU.
+  NO, DONT TALK.  JUST HOLD ME.
\  TONY, TONY, TONY.  BUT I HAVE TO TALK TO YOU ...
   GOOD MORNING.
   GOOD MORNING, MYRA.
+  SLEPT WELL, MOTHER!
\  THANK YOU, NO.  YOU <RE A VERY EARLY
VISITOR.
   NOT TOO EARLY, I HOPE.
"1081
+  MORE SONGS WITHOUT WORDS.  YES, MOTHER, THE OPERATION IS
SUCCESSFULLY CONCLUDED.
\  DO YOU WANT ME TO TIDY UP THIS BED AGAIN!
   I DONT KNOW, I HAVENT THOUGHT.  I DONT KNOW WHAT <S GOING
ON, IF PHILIP AND ROSEMARY HAVE MADE IT UP OR NOT.  IF SHE <S GOING
HOME, THEN TONY CAN HAVE HIS ROOM BACK.
+  I WISH SOMEONE WOULD EXPLAIN THIS TO ME @ LAST NIGHT
ROSEMARY WAS THROUGH WITH UNCLE PHILIP.  SHE HATED AND DESPISED
HIM.  IF SHE COMES DOWN THOSE STAIRS ANNOUNCING THAT THE MARRIAGE
IS ON, ARE YOU TWO WISE WOMEN GOING TO LET HER MARRY HIM!  YOU
BOTH KNOW QUITE WELL THAT SHE <LL BE MISERABLE.
WHAT!  YOU ARENT GOING TO SAY THAT YOU DONT BELIEVE IN INTERFERING
WITH OTHER PEOPLE<S LIVES!
\  WHAT DO YOU THINK WE SHOULD DO!  TAKE HER ASIDE AND WARN
HER AGAINST PHILIP!  HOW CAN WE!
+  WHY NOT!
\  YOU SHOULD DO IT.
+  WHY ME!
\  YOU <RE HER AGE.  SHE <LL TRUST YOU.
+  OH @ HELL.  WHERE <S SANDY!  SURELY
HE SHOULD DO IT!  HE <S THE BOY FOR PUBLIC AND PERSONAL RELATIONS.
\  TONY DEAR, THAT GIRL LIKES YOU.
+  SHE LIKES ME!
\  YOU <VE BEEN KIND TO HER.
+  OH.
\  BLESS YOU, DEAR BOY.
   OH WELL, I DONT KNOW.  I <M FEELING
VERY OLD THIS MORNING.  OH, OH, OH.
+  THEN FOR HEAVEN<S SAKE PUT SOME LIPSTICK ON AT LEAST.
SORRY.  SORRY, MOTHER.
MOTHER, IF YOU KNEW HOW I HATE, THE WAY YOU GO SLOPPING
AROUND LIKE THIS, YOU <D DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT.  PLEASE.
"1082
\  REALLY!  YOU REALLY CARE!
WELL, I <LL TRY.
+  YOU LOOK SO BEAUTIFUL WHEN YOU TRY.
\  WHY, TONY, I SHALL BURST INTO TEARS.
+  MOTHER, YOU SURELY ARENT GOING TO MARRY OLD MIKE!
\  IT WOULD SEEM SO.
+  YOU DONT WANT TO, DO YOU!
\  WOULD YOU HATE IT IF I DID!
+  BUT, MOTHER, HE <S AN OLD MAN.
\  AN OLD MAN ... BUT TONY, I <M
NOT FAR OFF 50 ... OH, TONY, YOU ARE ABSURD.  YOU <RE
SWEET.  WELL, OF COURSE I WONT MARRY HIM IF YOU DONT LIKE IT.
+  GOOD GOD, HOW COULD I LIKE IT!
\  WELL, THAT <S EASY, ISNT IT!
WELL, EVERYTHING <S ALL RIGHT, ISNT IT!
   POOR MIKE.
   OH, I <M SO HAPPY, WHAT A RELIEF.  I <VE BEEN AWAKE
ALL NIGHT THINKING OF MY GLORIOUSLY EXCITING FUTURE.
+  YOU <RE AS IRRESPONSIBLE AS A CHILD.
\  YES, I KNOW, I KNOW.
+  YOU JUST PICK PEOPLE UP AND DROP THEM.
\  HOW COULD I PICK UP MIKE AND DROP HIM!  I <VE KNOWN HIM
FOR A THOUSAND YEARS.
   LAST NIGHT YOU SAID YOU <D MARRY HIM.  OR DIDNT YOU!
+  IT WAS ANNOUNCED, NO DOUBT, TO ALL YOUR GUESTS.
\  YES, IT WAS.  YES.  BUT HE <LL UNDERSTAND.  MIKE HAS ALWAYS BEEN
SO SWEET.
+  SWEET.  AND THERE <S SANDY.  HE <S ALWAYS SWEET TOO.  WHERE IS
SANDY!
\  OH, SANDY @ WELL, I DONT KNOW.
+  YOU MEAN HE WASNT SHARING YOUR INSOMNIA LAST NIGHT!
\  OBVIOUSLY NOT.  I BELIEVE HE WENT HOME.
   OH, DID HE NOW!
"1083
   OH, MILLY, DONT MIND ME @ BUT THIS IS ONE SITUATION YOU CANT
WALK OUT ON.
+  MOTHER, YOU MIGHT HAVE LET ME KNOW THAT YOU HAD PLANS TO
STAY OUT LAST NIGHT.
\  I MIGHT HAVE DONE.  IF I <D HAD PLANS.
+  I WAS WORRIED ABOUT YOU.
\  I NEVER WORRY ABOUT YOU.  I KNOW YOU CAN LOOK AFTER YOURSELF.
+  WHERE WERE YOU!
\  HERE.
+  OH, YOU WERE WITH MYRA.  OH ...
I SEE.
\  SANDY DEAR, HAVE YOU BEEN WORRYING ABOUT ME ALL THIS TIME
AND I NEVER KNEW IT!
+  REALLY, MYRA, I WOULD NEVER HAVE BELIEVED IT
POSSIBLE THAT YOU COULD BEHAVE IN SUCH SHEER BAD TASTE, REALLY
MYRA ...
\  GOOD MORNING.  PHILIP AND I HAVE
TALKED IT OVER AND WE HAVE DECIDED THAT IT WOULD BE VERY MUCH
MORE SENSIBLE NOT TO GET MARRIED.
+  I <M DELIGHTED THERE IS ONE SENSIBLE PERSON IN THIS HOUSE.
"1084
   WELL, MYRA, I <M SORRY ALL THIS HAS BEEN FOISTED ON YOU.
\  OH, DONT MENTION IT.
+  PHILIP, PERHAPS I COULD GO DOWN TO THE
OFFICE WITH YOU ...
   SO EVERYONE <S BACK WHERE THEY
STARTED @ EXCEPT YOU!  YOU <RE GOING TO MARRY OLD MIKE!
\  NO.
+  WELL, OLD GIRL!
\  MY HAIR ISNT GREY YET ... I WOULDNT FORGIVE
YOU, PHILIP.  I WOULDNT BE THE GOOD WOMAN SITTING ON THE
MOUNTAIN@TOP FORGIVING YOU YOUR SINS.
+  OH LORD, MYRA, I <M TIRED ... I REALLY WOULD LIKE SOMETHING@
QUIET.  WELL, MYRA!
\  I <VE TOLD YOU, I WOULDNT FORGIVE YOU.  YOU CAST ME IN THE
ONE ROLE LONG ENOUGH @ NOW YOU WANT ME TO BE THE QUIET
WOMAN WAITING TO WELCOME YOU HOME@  BUT I WOULDNT FORGIVE
YOU.  IF I DID IT WOULD BE CONTEMPT.  I <VE NEVER DESPISED YOU,
PHILIP.
+  OH, LORD, IT IS UTTERLY INTOLERABLE.
\  OH GOD, YES ...
+  PHILIP, IF YOU <RE GOING TO THE OFFICE, WE COULD GO TOGETHER.
   YES.
\  I WAS UNDER THE IMPRESSION YOU CAME HERE
FOR ME @ WHY ARE YOU SO INTERESTED IN PHILIP ALL OF A SUDDEN.
OH, I SEE ... I THOUGHT THAT WAS THE JOB
PHILIP HAD ARRANGED FOR TONY.
+  BUT I THOUGHT TONY HAD TURNED IT DOWN UNCONDITIONALLY.
   HE HAS, DONT WORRY.
   I WOULDNT HAVE DREAMED OF APPROACHING PHILIP ULESS I WAS
SURE TONY WASNT INTERESTED.
   I <M LATE.  I MUST GO.
"1085
\  YOU COME HOME.  YOU CAN ARRANGE YOUR
CAREER WITH PHILIP ANOTHER DAY.
+  WHERE <S MY BRIEFCASE!
   MOTHER, IF YOU DIDNT WANT ME
TO GET A DECENT JOB AND DO ALL THE REGULAR THINGS WHY DID YOU SET
ME UP FOR IT!
\  OH @ NO ONE <LL EVER BLAME YOU FOR ANYTHING<
.
+  WELL, WHY DID YOU!  WHAT AM I DOING WRONG!
\  OF COURSE IT <S MY FAULT.  I <M YOUR MOTHER @ THAT <S WHAT I <M
FOR.
+  AND IF TONY WANTS THE JOB I <LL STAND DOWN.  WHAT DO YOU
EXPECT ME TO DO!  BE A TRAMP, LIKE TONY!
\  WHY, TONY DARLING, WHY DIDNT YOU
TELL ME.
+  OH, MY GOD<
.
\  SH, TONY.
   WHY, DARLING TONY, THAT <S WONDERFUL, IT WOULD BE SO GOOD
FOR YOU.
+  REALLY, MYRA, HOW CAN YOU BE SUCH A ROMANTIC.
   MOTHER, WHY SHOULD IT BE GOOD FOR ME!
\  WHAT HAVE I DONE NOW!  IF YOU WANT TO BE
A TRAMP, AM I EXPECTED TO LOCK YOU IN THE HOUSE!
+  MOTHER ...
MYRA, YOU <RE UTTERLY INTOLERABLE<
.
\  WHAT <S WRONG!  PERHAPS I <LL BE A TRAMP, TOO> WHY NOT!
+  YOU ARE A TRAMP<
.
\  MYRA, YOU HAVE A VISITOR.
+  MYRA DARLING, I KNOW IT <S APPALLINGLY EARLY, BUT I HAD TO COME.
I <VE HAD SOME REALLY
LOVELY NEWS, DARLING.  OR AT LEAST, I DO HOPE YOU <LL THINK SO.  I <M
INVITED TO CHINA.  FOR A SERIES OF LECTURES.  AND I SPOKE TO THE
"1086
ORGANIZER THIS MORNING.  IF WE <RE MARRIED, OF COURSE YOU <LL COME
TOO.  IT WOULD BE A RATHER LOVELY HONEYMOON.
\  I <M SORRY MIKE.
+  BUT, OF COURSE, IF YOU FEEL YOU DONT WANT TO LEAVE YOUR COMMITTEE
WORK NOW I <LL QUITE UNDERSTAND.
\  MIKE, I <M SORRY.  LAST NIGHT I WAS JUST ...
I <M SO SORRY.  WE <LL JUST HAVE TO GO ON AS WE <VE ALWAYS
DONE.  YOU MUST FORGIVE ME.  YOU <VE FORGIVEN ME OFTEN ENOUGH,
HAVENT YOU!
+  OH, MOTHER<
.
\  OH, THAT WAS BAD, THAT WAS VERY BAD.
   YES, LOVE, IT WAS.  VERY BAD.
+  MYRA, YOU ARE UTTERLY INTOLERABLE.
INTOLERABLE.  I <M VERY LATE.
GOOD@BYE, ROSEMARY.  I <LL BE
SEEING YOU, MYRA.  LOOK AFTER YOURSELF.
   I <LL GO WITH PHILIP.
GOOD@BYE, MYRA.  I <LL BE SEEING YOU.
\  OH DAMN, DAMN,
DAMN.
   CHARMING.  ALL QUITE CHARMING.  OH WELL, LOOK
AFTER YOURSELF, LOVE.  AND DONT FORGET THAT TAPE@RECORDING FOR THE
MEETING.  WE <LL NEED IT.  MEET YOU IN THE PUB AS USUAL.
+  MOTHER, WHY DID YOU DO THAT!
\  I THOUGHT YOU WANTED ME TO.
+  MOTHER, HE <S STANDING IN THE GARDEN, CRYING.  HE <S STANDING
THERE, CRYING.  DID YOU HAVE TO DO IT LIKE THAT!  OH, DAMN IT ALL,
MOTHER.
\  I <VE BROKEN WITH MIKE.  AFTER TWENTY YEARS.
+  YES, AND HOW DID YOU DO IT!  AS IF HE WERE ...
"1087
\  AND I <VE BROKEN FINALLY WITH PHILIP.  THAT <S ALL FINISHED.  AND
I <VE BROKEN WITH SANDY.  WELL!  ISNT THAT WHAT YOU WANTED!
+  I DONT WANT YOU TO DO ANYTHING YOU DONT ...
I DONT WANT ... ALL I WANT IS TO BE HERE IN THIS HOUSE, WITH YOU,
MOTHER @ AND SOME SORT OF ... DIGNITY.  I <M SO TIRED OF ALL THE BRAVE
SPEECHES AND THE EPIC BATTLES AND THE GESTURES.  WOULDNT IT BE
ENOUGH IF WE WERE JUST PEACEFUL TOGETHER!  THIS HOUSE IS LIKE A
SOUNDING@BOARD.
\  YES, I WAS THINKING @ WE SHOULD MOVE TO A FLAT.  THIS HOUSE IS
MUCH TOO BIG.
+  MOTHER, YOU CANT BE SERIOUS.
\  YOU DONT THINK SO!  WHY NOT!
+  OH NO, NO, NO.
\  BUT IT <S SO BIG.  AND I <VE GOT A BIT OF MONEY.  WE COULD GET
OURSELVES A NICE FLAT.
+  MONEY, YES.  WHERE DID YOU GET IT FROM!
\  FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS.  AND MORE LATER.
+  FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS.  BUT WHERE!  WE <VE NEVER HAD ALL THAT
MONEY ALL AT ONCE.
\  OH, MONEY FROM HEAVEN.
DONT
CRY, ROSEMARY.
   I <M NOT CRYING.
+  MOTHER, I WANT TO KNOW.  YOU <RE NOT JUST GOING TO GET OUT OF IT LIKE
THAT.
\  TONY, BEFORE YOU SETTLE DOWN TO BEING AN HONEST ELECTRICIAN,
I WISH YOU <D TAKE THAT MONEY AND ...
+  WHAT!  SOW A FEW WILD OATS!
\  OH ... SOW ANYTHING YOU DAMNED WELL PLEASE.
+  MOTHER, I <M BEING SERIOUS, IN ABOUT A MONTH FROM NOW I <M
GOING TO GET MYSELF A JOB.  AS AN ELECTRICIAN.  IT <S WHAT I WANT.  WORK
FOR EIGHT HOURS A DAY, REGULARLY PAID, THREE SQUARE MEALS A DAY
AND ...
"1088
\  SECURITY<
.  ALL HE WANTS IS SECURITY.
   BUT MYRA, WHAT <S WRONG WITH THAT!
   OH, I DONT KNOW ... I SUPPOSE
YOU <LL SPEND JOLLY EVENINGS IN THE LOCAL COFFEE BAR, JOIN A SKIFFLE
GROUP, BECOME A SCRUFFY LITTLE BOHEMIAN, ONE OF THE NEO@CONFORMISTS,
ENJOYING ALL THE POSTURES OF REBELLION FROM SAFE POSITIONS
OF UTTER RESPECTABILITY.
+  THAT <S IT, EXACTLY.
   HEIGHTS, SHE WANTS.
HEIGHTS, HEIGHTS ... WE <LL LEAVE YOU TO SKIP ABOUT ON THE
HEIGHTS.  MOTHER, WHY DONT YOU LEAVE PEOPLE ALONE.  JUST LEAVE US
ALONE ... DO YOU KNOW WHAT I <D REALLY ENJOY DOING!  I <D LIKE TO
PAINT THIS HOUSE.  TO DECORATE IT.  I REALLY WOULD.
\  YOU WANT TO DECORATE THE HOUSE!
HE <S 22 AND HE WANTS TO SPEND HIS TIME DECORATING THE HOUSE.
   I DONT SEE WHAT <S WRONG WITH IT.
   WAIT A BIT, DONT START PAINTING THE HOUSE YET.
+  BUT WHY SHOULD I WAIT!  I <LL GO OUT THIS AFTERNOON AND CHOOSE
COLOURS.  IT <LL BE FUN.  WHAT <S UP!  WHAT ARE YOU UP TO!
\  OH, NOTHING.  NOTHING.  LOOK, I <VE GOT AN AWFUL LOT TO DO THIS
MORNING.  WILL YOU HELP ME!  IT <S THAT TAPE@RECORDING.  SANDY SAID
HE <D HELP ME BUT NOW HE <S GONE.
+  OH, NO.
\  BUT I PROMISED IT FOR THE MEETING TONIGHT.
+  MEETINGS, MEETINGS.  WHO CARES WHAT <S SAID AT MEETINGS.
\  TONY, IF YOU <RE TRYING TO STOP MY WORK FOR THE COMMITTEE
I <M NOT GOING TO.
+  ALL THESE PEOPLE IN AND OUT.  ALL THE NOISE, THE SPEECHES, THE
MESS.
\  I <M NOT GOING TO BECOME A SORT OF MONUMENT TO YOUR DESIRE
FOR @ WHATEVER IT IS.
+  DIGNITY.
\  IF YOU CALL DIGNITY SITTING WITH YOUR HANDS FOLDED WAITING TO
BE BLOWN UP @ WELL, I <M NOT GOING TO BE BLACKMAILED INTO INERTIA.
"1089
PLEASE HELP ME.  ARE YOU AN ELECTRICIAN OR ARE YOU NOT!  I WANT YOU
TO PLAY THAT TAPE BACK AND TAKE OUT THE BITS THAT ARE SIMPLY DULL.
+  DULL<
.
\  WILL YOU OR WONT YOU!  IF NOT I <LL RING UP ...
+  WHO!  UNCLE MIKE!
\  IT SEEMS AT THE MOMENT THERE <S NO ONE I CAN RING UP.  AT LEAST,
NOT WITH DIGNITY.
+  MOTHER.
\  OH, LEAVE ME ALONE.
+  OH, ALL RIGHT, I <LL DO IT.
\  I <LL HELP YOU.
+  OH LORD, NO.
\  YOU SEE,
PEOPLE HAVE NO IMAGINATION.  THAT <S THE TROUBLE.
+  CANT YOU SEE THAT PEOPLE CANT BEAR TO THINK
ABOUT IT!  IT <S ALL TOO BIG FOR EVERYONE.  THEY SIMPLY CANT BEAR TO
THINK ABOUT IT.  OH, ALL
RIGHT.
\  THERE <S SOME NEW TAPE THERE IF YOU WANT IT.
+  THERE, THAT <S BETTER.
\  WHAT ARE YOU DOING!
+  PLAYING A RECORD OF SILENCE.
\  TONY, YOU SAID YOU <D HELP ME.
+  A CLEAN SHEET.  A NEW PAGE.  ROSEMARY, SAY SOMETHING VERY
SIMPLE, VERY QUIET, VERY BEAUTIFUL, SOMETHING I <D LIKE TO HEAR WHEN
I PLAY THIS THING BACK.
\  TONY, YOUR MOTHER IS CRYING.
+  BUT WHAT CAN I DO! ... SAY SOMETHING, ROSEMARY, DO SAY
SOMETHING.
\  BUT WHAT!
+  SURELY THERE <S SOMETHING YOU NEED TO SAY.
"1090
\  BUT WHAT ABOUT!
+  ANYTHING.  WHAT YOU FEEL ABOUT @ LIFE.
\  BUT I DONT KNOW.
+  THEN @ PEOPLE.
\  WHO!
+  ANYBODY.
\  WHY!
+  OH LORD.  ALL RIGHT, LET <S HAVE BOMBS
AND BLASTS AND GUNFIRE.  OH LORD.  FOR INSTANCE, YOU <VE JUST DECIDED
NOT TO MARRY PHILIP.  WELL YOU <RE NOT GOING TO CRY, ARE YOU!
\  I <VE FINISHED CRYING.
+  ARE YOU UNHAPPY!
\  YES.
+  BUT YOU WOULDNT HAVE BEEN HAPPY WITH HIM, WOULD YOU!
\  WELL ...
   GO ON.
   I DONT THINK I EXPECTED TO BE.
+  THEN WHY DID YOU SAY YOU <D MARRY HIM!
\  HE SAID ... PEOPLE SHOULD BE READY TO TAKE CHANCES.  HE
SAID PEOPLE SHOULDNT BE AFRAID.
+  AND SO YOU SAID YOU <D MARRY HIM!
\  YES.  PHILIP SUDDENLY CAME INTO MY LIFE AND MADE FUN OF
EVERYTHING I DID.  HE SAID I WASNT ALIVE AT ALL.  HE MADE ME READ
BOOKS.
\  YES, HE SAID I MIGHT JUST AS WELL BE DEAD, THE WAY I WAS
LIVING.  HE SAID WHEN I CAME TO DIE I WOULDNT KNOW I <D EVER BEEN
ALIVE ...+  AND THAT <S WHY YOU SAID YOU <D MARRY HIM!
\  YES.  HE SAID THERE WAS ONLY ONE THING PEOPLE SHOULD
"1091
BE AFRAID OF @ OF NOT GROWING.  H SAID HAPPINESS DIDNT MATTER.
PEOPLE SHOULD GROW, BE EVERYTHING, DO A LOT OF THINGS, AND NEVER
BE AFRAID OF BEING UNHAPPY ...
+  PHILIP SAID ALL THAT, DID HE!  UNCLE PHILIP
DID!  WELL, LOOK AT HIM NOW, LOOK AT HIM NOW ...
\  YES, HE
DID.  AND I WONT HAVE YOU SAYING THINGS ABOUT PHILIP, I WONT HAVE
YOU ...
   THERE, DARLING.  IT S ALL RIGHT.
+  OH YES, THAT <S VERY MUCH YOUR CUP OF TEA, ISNT IT,
MOTHER!  YOU LIKE THAT, DONT YOU!  SUFFERING @ THE GREAT CULT OF
SUFFERING.  STRENGTH THROUGH PAIN ... THAT <S YOUR CREED.
\  OH, SHUT UP AND STOP BULLYING PEOPLE.
+  WELL, I DONT WANT ANY OF IT @ I TELL YOU, PAIN DOESNT
EXIST.  I REFUSE TO FEEL IT ...
\  THERE ... LISTEN @ YOU DONT REGRET HAVING
KNOWN PHILIP, DO YOU!
   OH NO.
   THEN THAT <S ALL.
THERE, THAT <S BETTER.  IT <S ALL NOT SO SERIOUS @ IS IT!
+  WHAT ARE YOU DOING NOW!  DANCING ON ANOTHER EMOTIONAL GRAVE.
\  OH TONY ...
I <VE GOT TO TELL YOU SOMETHING.  NO, LISTEN.  I <VE BEEN SCREWING UP
MY COURAGE TO TELL YOU.
+  NO @ WHAT!
\  TONY ...
I <VE SOLD THE HOUSE.
+  YOU <VE SOLD THE HOUSE.  OH,
MY GOD, YOU <VE SOLD THE HOUSE.
MY GOD, SHE <S SOLD THE HOUSE<
.
\  BUT TONY, ONLY YESTERDAY YOU WERE TALKING ABOUT BEING
A TRAMP.
+  TRAMP!  A TRAMP!
"1092
   ... SHE <S SOLD IT.  AND DO YOU
KNOW WHY!  TO RAISE FIVE HUNDRED POUNDS SO THAT I CAN GO AND
SOW MY WILD OATS.  OH GOD, GOD.  SO THAT I CAN GO BUMMING OFF
AND HAVING LOVE AFFAIRS AND REVOLUTIONIZING ...
\  TONY, DONT DO THAT.  STOP IT.
   LEAVE HIM.
+  MY GOD, MY MOTHER <S DONE THAT TO ME.  SHE <S DONE THAT TO ME.
SHE <S MY MOTHER AND SHE MIGHT JUST AS WELL HAVE TAKEN A KNIFE AND
STABBED ME WITH IT.  SHE <S MY MOTHER AND SHE KNOWS SO LITTLE ABOUT
ME THAT SHE DOESNT SUSPECT THAT THERE <S ONE THING I LOVE IN THIS
WORLD, AND IT <S THIS HOUSE ...
\  TONY, STOP IT, STOP IT, STOP IT.
+  GOD, BUT
YOU <RE DESTRUCTIVE, DESTRUCTIVE, DESTRUCTIVE.  THERE ISNT ANYTHING
YOU TOUCH WHICH DOESNT GO TO PIECES.  YOU JUST GO ON FROM MESS TO
MESS ... YOU LIVE IN A MESS OF LOVE AFFAIRS AND COMMITTEES AND ...
YOU LIVE IN A MESS LIKE A PIG, MOTHER ... YOU <RE ALL OVER EVERYTHING
LIKE A GREAT CRAWLING SPIDER ...
\  TONY, STOP IT AT ONCE.
+  SOMETIMES WHEN I HEAR
HER COME DOWN THE STAIRS I FEEL EVERY NERVE IN MY BODY SHRIEKING.
I CANT STAND HER, I SIMPLY CANT STAND HER ...
NOW WE <LL HAVE TO LEAVE HERE AND LIVE IN SOME @
DAMNED PRETTY LITTLE FLAT SOMEWHERE.  I CANT BEAR IT, I CANT BEAR IT ...
\  IF YOU HATE ME AS MUCH AS THAT WHY DO YOU PUT SO MUCH
ENERGY INTO GETTING ME ALONE WITH YOU INTO THIS HOUSE.  WELL,
WHY!  FOR THE PLEASURE OF TORTURING ME!  OR OF BEING TORTURED!
"1093
   OH MYRA, HE DIDNT MEAN IT.
   PERHAPS HE DOES MEAN IT.  THERE <S NO LAW
THAT SAYS A SON MUST LIKE HIS MOTHER, IS THERE!  AND
VICE VERSA.
+  I CANT THINK WHY ONE OF YOU DOESNT SAY> THERE ARE
MILLIONS OF PEOPLE IN THE WORLD LIVING IN MUD HUTS, AND YOU MAKE
THIS FUSS ABOUT MOVING FROM ONE COMFORTABLE HOME TO ANOTHER.
ISNT THAT WHAT I <M SUPPOSED TO BE FEELING!
\  SINCE YOU <VE SAID IT, THERE <S NO NEED FOR ME TO.
+  THE OTHER THING YOU COULD SAY IS> WAIT
UNTIL YOU <VE GOT TO MY AGE AND SEE IF YOU <VE DONE ANY BETTER.
WELL @ IF I HAVENT DONE ANY BETTER I <D HAVE THE GRACE TO KILL MYSELF.
\  LUCKILY I DONT TAKE MYSELF SO SERIOUSLY.  WELL, I <M GOING TO
LEAVE YOU TO IT.
+  WHAT DO YOU MEAN, WHERE ARE YOU
GOING!
\  I DONT KNOW.
+  YOU <RE NOT GOING!
\  WHY NOT!  I DONT PROPOSE TO LIVE WITH SOMEONE WHO CANT
STAND ME.  WHY SHOULD I ...
IT JUST OCCURS TO ME THAT FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY
LIFE I <M FREE.
+  MOTHER, WHERE ARE YOU GOING!
\  IT OCCURS TO ME THAT FOR THE LAST TWENTY@TWO YEARS MY LIFE HAS
BEEN GOVERNED BY YOUR @ BY YOUR NEEDS.  OH, YOU MAY NOT THINK
SO @ BUT THE WAY I <VE LIVED, WHAT I <VE DONE, MY WHOLE LIFE HAS BEEN
GOVERNED BY YOUR NEEDS.  AND WHAT FOR ... WHAT
FOR @ A LITTLE MONSTER OF EGOTISM @ THAT <S WHAT YOU ARE.  A PETTY,
ENVIOUS, SPITEFUL LITTLE EGOTIST, CONCERNED WITH NOTHING BUT YOURSELF.
   OH MYRA, STOP, STOP.
   WELL, I <M SURE IT <S MY FAULT.  OBVIOUSLY
"1094
IT IS.  IF I <VE SPENT HALF MY LIFE BRINGING YOU UP AND YOU TURN OUT @ AS
YOU HAVE @ THEN IT <S MY LIFE THAT <S A FAILURE, ISNT IT!  WELL, IT <S NOT
GOING TO BE A FAILURE IN FUTURE.
+  MOTHER, WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO!
\  THERE ARE A LOT OF THINGS I <VE WANTED TO DO FOR A LONG TIME,
AND I HAVENT DONE THEM.  PERHAPS I <LL TAKE THE MONEY AND
GO OFF>
, WHY NOT!  OR PERHAPS I <LL BE A TRAMP.  I COULD BE, YOU KNOW.
I COULD WALK OUT OF THIS HOUSE WITH MY NEEDS IN A SMALL SUITCASE ...
AND I SHALL.  OR PERHAPS I <LL GO ON THAT BOAT TO THE PACIFIC TO THE
TESTING AREA @ I WANTED TO DO THAT AND DIDNT, BECAUSE OF YOU.
+  MOTHER, YOU MIGHT GET KILLED.
\  DEAR ME, I MIGHT GET KILLED.  AND WHAT OF IT!  I DONT PROPOSE
TO KEEP MY LIFE CLUTCHED IN MY HAND LIKE SMALL CHANGE ...
+  MOTHER, YOU CANT JUST WALK OFF INTO @ NOTHING.
\  NOTHING!  I DONT HAVE TO SHELTER UNDER A HEAP OF OLD BRICKS @
LIKE A FRIGHTENED MOUSE.  I <M GOING.  I <LL COME BACK AND COLLECT WHAT
I NEED WHEN I <VE DECIDED WHAT I <M GOING TO DO.
+  MOTHER.
MOTHER, YOU <RE CRYING.
\  WHY NOT!  I <M NEARLY 50 @ AND IT <S TRUE THERE <S
NOTHING MUCH TO SHOW FOR IT.  EXCEPT THAT I <VE NEVER BEEN AFRAID TO
TAKE CHANCES AND MAKE MISTAKES.  I <VE NEVER WANTED SECURITY AND
SAFETY AND THE WALLS OF RESPECTABILITY @ YOU DAMNED LITTLE PETTY@
BOURGEOIS.  MY GOD, THE IRONY OF IT @ THAT WE SHOULD HAVE GIVEN
BIRTH TO A GENERATION OF LITTLE OFFICE BOYS AND CLERKS AND ... LITTLE
PEOPLE WHO COUNT THEIR PENSIONS BEFORE THEY <RE OUT OF SCHOOL ...
LITTLE PETTY BOURGEOIS.  YES, I AM CRYING.  I <VE BEEN ALIVE FOR FIFTY
YEARS.  ISNT THAT GOOD ENOUGH CAUSE FOR TEARS ...
+  BUT ROSEMARY, SHE <S GONE.
\  YES.
+  BUT SHE <LL COME BACK.
\  NO, I DONT THINK SO.
"1095
+  ROSEMARY, DO YOU KNOW THAT NOT ONE WORD OF WHAT SHE SAID
MADE ANY SENSE TO ME AT ALL ... SLOGANS, SLOGANS, SLOGANS ...
\  WHAT <S THE MATTER WITH BEING SAFE @ AND ORDINARY.
WHAT <S WRONG WITH BEING ORDINARY @ AND SAFE!
+  ROSEMARY, LISTEN @ NEVER IN THE WHOLE HISTORY OF THE WORLD
HAVE PEOPLE MADE A BATTLE@CRY OUT OF BEING ORDINARY.  NEVER.
SUPPOSING WE ALL SAID TO THE POLITICIANS @ WE REFUSE TO BE HEROIC.  WE
REFUSE TO BE BRAVE.  WE ARE BORED WITH ALL THE NOBLE GESTURES @ WHAT
THEN, ROSEMARY!
\  YES.  ORDINARY AND SAFE.
+  LEAVE US ALONE, WE <LL SAY.  LEAVE US ALONE TO LIVE.  JUST LEAVE US
ALONE ...

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